Hi folks nine months since coming off meds cipramil for twelve years and then changing too prozac and then too quetiapine and then cipramil and quetiapine only after Prozac didn’t work for two months being on. Well a few tablet changes. I am suffering with crippling violent ocd thoughts of knives going across my wrists my organ being taken out biting my finger off my tongue you name it I have it the most gruesome thoughts and then of harm too everyone and everything going to peoples houses me doing harm. Me me me it’s all about me failing miserably. I had a trauma In my life recently where I was accused of falsifying a claim I had which was definitely not the lcase. I swear on my life on This. Since changing meds and this trauma I am basically left like this suicidal and all nothing had helped me so far. Has anyone else had the same thought or is it just me most people don’t say but I’m not afraid to say this here and now as nothing is more frightening then living inside your head everyday as when these thoughts of this gruesome nature show up nothing could have much more pain this. I know you all are going through this sort of thoughts dint be afraid to speak out as this is what people with ocd need to do let it all out. I really hope someday there is a cure for this Monster that tears every fibre Of your being down and allows you to not recognise yourself when you look in the mirror. Anybody else feel the same or have the same violent thoughts

MMountains

Date posted: 4y

ERP man. Also understanding a few things that others have mentioned. These are thoughts, and our interaction with them is the only thing that matters. My “normal” friends also have violent thoughts. Also, people from OCD suffer from thought-action fusion which means that we perceive having the thought to be as bad as the act itself. Mix that in with perfectionism, as most OCD sufferers have and you have a recipe for serious suffering. Please please know that ERP works. Stay on the meds, bud face your fears man. Do it. You need to expose yourself to the triggers in a controlled manner. 1 hr at a time twice a day until the anxiety is down to half

amahimda781

Date posted: 4y

Have you tried ERP yet? It seems you only tried medication and medication is not for everyone . I would definitely reccomend getting therapy through NOCD . I have had those same gruesome images also and even the urge to commit them. I am now in a better place because of ERP.

moloney

Date posted: 4y

Yes exactly I’m afraid as I have the urges so you’ve had the same not that it’s good but it’s nice too know I’m not the only one guy that it too is ocd as images have to be the worst too

amahimda781

Date posted: 4y

@moloney Your not alone. It’s actually quite common with harm ocd to get images of you harming yourself or even thoughts telling you to harm yourself. Use ERP towards those thoughts or images don’t resist them just let them come and go . Teach your brain you can handle the discomfort and they eventually get less intense and fade .

moloney

Date posted: 4y

Does rep get the images away or is that just for harm on lpeople

amahimda781

Date posted: 4y

The intent of ERP is not to get rid of the images but to change how we react to those images. Everybody gets intrusive thoughts and images in their head but people with OCD tend to over analyze those thoughts and think they have meaning when they really don’t . Through commitment and proper guidance of a therapist you can overcome these thoughts!

moloney

Date posted: 4y

It hurts so hard every time how long have you this

amahimda781

Date posted: 4y

I have had harm ocd for about five months but OCD since I was teenager. I am in a better place because of therapy and the thoughts don’t bother me as much as they used to .

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