I can’t stand myself, I feel disgusting and I’m scared of my thoughts. I had thoughts about hurting myself and dying , my guilt about something I can’t mention due to the distress it gives me is consuming me for days now. Sometimes I feel like people actually don’t know who I truly am, they might think I’m nice but I have these really sick thoughts, I can’t stand the guilt, don’t know how I’ll manage this night. It’s a very rough one:/

Marz

Date posted: 4y

I had a rough one the other day. I understand you. I'm having a weird one right now, but I know it will pass

Melody 25

Date posted: 4y

We’re all nice! Everyone with OCD have beautiful hearts! We have keep going no matter how hard it gets!

lucas..

Date posted: 4y

Thank you for the support guys :) I’m actually talking with some friends on the phone and it’s making me feel a bit better

krisbliss

Date posted: 4y

Hi, I hope you’re managing well :) just so you know, many people can relate to you and support you both on and off this app (including myself!). It must be difficult to sit with the thoughts and feelings right now, though they have to pass eventually. If you’re feeling overwhelmed, maybe you can find something that you value or that you like doing to bring you some comfort? Of course, try to make sure it’s not a compulsion :)

coolkid25

Date posted: 4y

You’re not alone💗💗💗

ocddestroyer

Date posted: 4y

Lucas, OCD will make you think your capable of horrendous things. Let me tell your something, your not! If you sincerely where capable of your thoughts, you wouldn’t be so worked up! Belive me I struggled with OCD and it drive you insane. It makes you think you’ll hurt people, but you won’t! Please find someone who is trained in ERP to help you. It’s changed my life!!! Things will get better!!!

lucas..

Date posted: 4y

Thank you this makes me feel better :)) I actually am in ERP treatment for almost a year and it has been a great help. However guilt is on of those things that I can’t seem to manage well. In fact I’ve been doing something recently to minimize guilt, which is snapping my wristband because I feel the urge to punish myself, don’t think it’s a good way but it’s a desperate last resource. Just ended my therapy session for today and she gave me some things to work on. Still, guilt will always be with me

ocddestroyer

Date posted: 4y

@.Lucas. Lucas I’ve done horrible things in my past also to try and it in. Instead of trying to throw the guilt away, learn from it. You don’t have to be proud of the past, just be proud of what your doing now. Maybe do some free community work, donate, or something that can cancel out the guilt. Just remember we are not perfect Lucas, we do horrible things sometimes, but what matters now is that you feel bad about it. Things will get better my man.

lucas..

Date posted: 4y

@ocddestroyer Thank you :) I’m trying my best. I’ve been thinking about supporting a specific non governmental organization for a while, so I’m definitely doing that

ocddestroyer

Date posted: 4y

@.Lucas. One of the best therapy’s is helping others!

Melody 25

Date posted: 4y

Yaaaa!

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