TW, unwanted/impulsive/obsessive thoughts (and seeing/feeling them), anxiety attacks, fear of bad stuff happening, etc. hi friends.. i have undiagnosed odc, put i am pretty sure i have it. i’ve always knew i probably had it but i thought if i ignored it it would go away but it made it worse. a couple of days ago, me and my friends went through a situation and we agreed that to prevent something like this from happening again, we need to be more open with each other and communicate. me and one of my friends were talking and my (possibly) ocd popped up in the conversation (not on purpose.) i was explaining to my friend how my mind works and she explained to me (in the nicest way, i have the sweetest friends,) how that’s not alway really normal. it opened up the (again, possible, i don’t want to self diagnose if this isn’t correct,) ocd topic i had been trying to push away for forever. since then, i’ve noticed how every little thing i do leads back to ocd being a possibility and my mind nott working properly. then, last night i was talking to someone who makes me really anxious, and they were talking about how we’re not close anymore, etc. background stuff, i used to be very extroverted and talkative but recently i’ve become EXTREMELY introverted. talking to them and what we were talking about made me realllly anxious and it carried into today. these topics we were talking about made me realize how badly and not correctly my mind is working, liek it had been before, just worse now. my anxiety and (possibly, again i don’t know what it is) ocd work together to make life living heck. because of last night, i was thinking a lot and it bothered me that it could stop, therefore making it worse. by the end of 3 period, it was starting to get bad. then came the unwanted/impulsive/obsessive (i’m not sure how to exactly describe them) thoughts, including my friends being hurt if i don’t go do something right now (this actually happens a lot and it really bothers me.) because of this i went into panic, had an anxiety attack, and couldn’t stop seeing/imagining/feeling them being hurt. i went to the bathroom during beginning for 4th period and tried to calm down, but i didn’t fully calm down until the beginning of 5th. we had a test in fourth so i tried counting and naming colors so i could get my test done calmly, but it only would work for about 5 minutes before they came back. can someone please tell me what this is because i and sooo done with not knowing what’s going on. is this ocd?? other not so bothersome examples are closing out of all tabs before i sleep or my friend will not sleep at night. or getting carried away in thought, realizing your carried away in thought, then having to go back and recall everything that led you to think of that or else something might happen. everything has to look nice and even or else somethings gonna happen. someone please tell me if you feel the same so i am not alone, or let me know what is going on. i’m sorry if you’re going through this, you don’t deserve any of what’s happening to you. remember you are loved and please stay strong for me, i know it gets hard. sending love to anyone who’s in need. someone please help me.