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- 6y
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- 6y
Mine is abou the fear of going crazy! But I understand what you mean!
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- 6y
Yes. So much so that I OCD convinced me that I'm gonna have a brain aneurysm and die in 10 years...
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- 6y
OCD convinced me a long time ago that I already went crazy and that now everything about me is a front I’m putting on to hide my insanity.
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- 6y
I am also 28 years old and it's unbearable for me as well. I work in long term nursing so I see all of the worst case scenarios, young and old. I also lost my husband to a car accident when i was 23, he was 29. Now I'm always afraid that everyone that I love is going to die right now and that I am too. It's really hard to come to terms with it
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- 6y
I am so very sorry about your husband ? that is heartbreaking. Sending you hugs! Though my situation is not comparable to the depth of your loss, I understand you. From the end of 2016 to the beginning of 2018 I lost more than 7 people I was close to, some more than others but still all of them had played an important part of my life at some point or other. This had made me feel like there is no point in living if everyone including myself is just going to die.
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- 6y
I also agree with you cwgrlup1990. I have health problems and have convinced myself I’m going to die from one of them before I reach 40. The fear of dying is so great I can’t handle it. I try to tell myself I’m too young (almost 28) to be thinking such things but then I think, not true people die all the time. People you thought were Healthy DIE ALL THE TIME. I’ve known too many people too young to die. TRIGGER : And yes my neighbor died almost 2 years ago from a brain aneurysm, she was 12. That has led my fear of dying almost to the point of unbearable.
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- 6y
I definitely suffered with those feelings. I felt like life was meaningless or a big joke. It was a very hard 4 years. I still struggle with my fear of death and dying, but I'm learning to live for right now. I've spent years obsessing about the future and couldn't just live in the now.
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- 21w
so i have ocd but this is the main theme ive been dealing with for the last few months, im obsessed with my mortality and i feel trapped by the reality of death. i dont really believe in an afterlife which makes it scarier, not that i dont wanna my brain literally just wont let me. but i have daily panic attacks thinking about death all day, its honestly the toughest thing ive ever dealt with. does anybody have any tips on how they manage this if they have ever dealt with it? not looking for reassurance, just some non compulsive ways to kind of lessen the grip of the fear.
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 17w
I’ve been perturbed for a couple of months now with incessant thoughts about aging and dying. I really am not sure what to do. This feels like other OCD themes, but also really different, because this time, what I’m afraid of is sure to happen. I will either die, or age and then die. It’s been so difficult to enjoy anything lately. I just want to pull a blanket over my head and wait until death comes. Has anyone else felt this way? I feel quite alone. I am trying to enjoy life, but I just remember that it will all be gone in a flash. Nothing really seems to help me feel better. The only escape I have is in my dreams where I can fantasize about never aging or dying. Or at least being able to rewind the clock to have more time.
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- 14w
I keep thinking about life and death and all that stuff and it’s making me so upset. I keep thinking about how one day im probably going to be old and on my death bed or something and my whole life will be nothing but a memory and im so scared for that day. i wont have my parents and my younger siblings wont have any of us. time feels like its moving too fast like i feel every second pass and think about how i can never get that moment back and i cant slow down time or go back or even just pause it because its always going and theres nothing i can do about it. And then i start thinking about whats after death and get even more scared because if heaven is real then what is eternity? wont i get bored of doing the same things… forever? and if its not real then what happens is it just nothing? because thats even more scary i don’t want to be nothing because that also means the people i love will be nothing and i wont be able to be with them. And if it’s not that then is it reincarnation? will i have to do this all over again? will the souls of the people i love be with me in their new forms? is the sun “God” because the planets revolve around it and the stars are all of the passed souls? what does it feel like to be a star? will i even just know i died? i have so many questions and the fact that none have an answer and i just have to wait to find out drives me insane. i try to remind myself everyone before me and everyone after me will experience death and loss at one point in their life and that I’m not alone but it doesn’t help. nothing helps. ive had “episodes” like this before when i was around 10-14 about once a year always around May-June which is the month my great grandmother died and June is my birth month which i hate because yk… time passing and aging which i assume is why i always get worse around that time. i was able to kind of ignore or turn it off the past like 3 years but this month its just too much i cant even deal with it. maybe because I’m turning 18? idk but its been bothering me so much and its all i can think about. Even when i seem fine the thoughts are always in there somewhere and some days they’re easier to ignore and others it feels impossible. I just wish I was like those people who can just turn their thoughts off if they don’t like them. My mom says she can do that if she thinks about how her mom died or something she can tell herself she doesn’t want to think about that and just… turn it off?? and thats so shocking to me because i’ve begged a god I don’t even know if I believe in to stop my thoughts and she can just turn them off herself? I don’t have another therapy appointment until next week I wish I could talk to them everyday so it could work faster but instead i’m on here. So if anyone has any advice PLEASE give it to me. I’m so tired it’s making me not enjoy anything in life because it makes me feel like theres no point in anything but I want to feel normal and I want to enjoy things. Sorry for writing so much just had to get this out there. Also i’m not trying to seek reassurance btw I just wanna know how other people coped with this or similar issues😭
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