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- 6y
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Mine is abou the fear of going crazy! But I understand what you mean!
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- 6y
Yes. So much so that I OCD convinced me that I'm gonna have a brain aneurysm and die in 10 years...
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OCD convinced me a long time ago that I already went crazy and that now everything about me is a front I’m putting on to hide my insanity.
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I am also 28 years old and it's unbearable for me as well. I work in long term nursing so I see all of the worst case scenarios, young and old. I also lost my husband to a car accident when i was 23, he was 29. Now I'm always afraid that everyone that I love is going to die right now and that I am too. It's really hard to come to terms with it
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I am so very sorry about your husband ? that is heartbreaking. Sending you hugs! Though my situation is not comparable to the depth of your loss, I understand you. From the end of 2016 to the beginning of 2018 I lost more than 7 people I was close to, some more than others but still all of them had played an important part of my life at some point or other. This had made me feel like there is no point in living if everyone including myself is just going to die.
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I also agree with you cwgrlup1990. I have health problems and have convinced myself I’m going to die from one of them before I reach 40. The fear of dying is so great I can’t handle it. I try to tell myself I’m too young (almost 28) to be thinking such things but then I think, not true people die all the time. People you thought were Healthy DIE ALL THE TIME. I’ve known too many people too young to die. TRIGGER : And yes my neighbor died almost 2 years ago from a brain aneurysm, she was 12. That has led my fear of dying almost to the point of unbearable.
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I definitely suffered with those feelings. I felt like life was meaningless or a big joke. It was a very hard 4 years. I still struggle with my fear of death and dying, but I'm learning to live for right now. I've spent years obsessing about the future and couldn't just live in the now.
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- 23w
I’ve been perturbed for a couple of months now with incessant thoughts about aging and dying. I really am not sure what to do. This feels like other OCD themes, but also really different, because this time, what I’m afraid of is sure to happen. I will either die, or age and then die. It’s been so difficult to enjoy anything lately. I just want to pull a blanket over my head and wait until death comes. Has anyone else felt this way? I feel quite alone. I am trying to enjoy life, but I just remember that it will all be gone in a flash. Nothing really seems to help me feel better. The only escape I have is in my dreams where I can fantasize about never aging or dying. Or at least being able to rewind the clock to have more time.
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- 23w
Okay so for context to assist anyone who wants to give advice to me, I am religious (catholic) but I also believe in science, the reason I believe in both in simple terms is the math don’t math for me. Yes we know the big bang theory happened, but the theory is it started from a singularity kind of like what you would find in the center of a black hole, no one knows what happens if you go through it. So out of this point and singularity, there sprung an explosion that created the universe and in that universe out of all odds a planet was created (the only one we know of right now, though I think it’s highly likely there are other life forms out there) that just so happened to have to develop the exact right conditions for life to develop. And how did that life even develop, primordial soup, the earth’s bodies of waters just so happened to get the exact chemical compounds in the exact amount needed to create organic compounds such as amino acids. So my point in this science brief is that everything we experience and exist in is a statistical anomaly, to many anomalies to make sense for me. Maybe the way I understand religion ends up being correct or not, I hopefully won’t know for a really really really long while, I go with what makes sense to me, but I do know that there has to be some sort of higher power that I don’t understand that in my opinion must be at work within the universe. Despite all I know about science and all I know about religion (my own and others) I cannot shake my existential dread, I can’t shake the awful fear of death. I can’t even enjoy basic milestones in life like birthdays or weddings for people because it always creeps in. It even doesn’t help if I try to think about the concept of heaven and just radically accept that as my answer for what happens after, because then I feel so much fear and dread of seeing the people who traumatized me when I get there. My adopted mom once asked me when I would stop being scared of my abuser ever finding me or interacting me and I told her when the woman is dead, now that’s not even true. I can’t even feel of safety in religion because then I become terrified I’ll be in eternity with that woman, and I’m not even going to start on my religious OCD themes right now. It’s affecting my OCD horribly and I’ve had multiple panic attacks at this point and so so many compulsions, it’s like they never end. For those with death anxiety, what are things you’ve tried that I could try to help? Are there any specific therapies for death anxiety that I could try? I want to be able to take control of my life and be able to enjoy things without always having this creep up in the back of my mind, so I’ll gladly hear any suggestions or things others have tried that could help. Thank you!
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I can’t stop thinking about death today. Not like suicide or pondering how I could die. Just more so I’m going to die. It’s like. I was eating my pizza today listening to music and looking at the clouds. And I was like I love this this is amazing. And then Brain says “ur gonna die one day btw” Or I redid my wallpaper on my phone and I love the way it looks. I unlock my screen and admire the vibe I’ve created. And then brain says “one day you’ll be dead” When I feel a moment of joy or happiness or peace is when the thought screams at me. I’m really unsettled and distraught about thinking about being dead one day. This doesn’t come up often like other thoughts I have but I hate this one because it’s hard to cope with. Because I do the things and “techniques” to make them quieter. But then immediately Brain says “why are u even trying tho. It’s pointless because you’ll be dead one day.” Any advice ??
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