Cat_attack
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- 6y
Samh1Samh1
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- 6y
Mine is abou the fear of going crazy! But I understand what you mean!
cwgrlup1990cwgrlup1990
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- 6y
Yes. So much so that I OCD convinced me that I'm gonna have a brain aneurysm and die in 10 years...
Cat_attack Cat_attack
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- 6y
OCD convinced me a long time ago that I already went crazy and that now everything about me is a front I’m putting on to hide my insanity.
cwgrlup1990cwgrlup1990
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- 6y
I am also 28 years old and it's unbearable for me as well. I work in long term nursing so I see all of the worst case scenarios, young and old. I also lost my husband to a car accident when i was 23, he was 29. Now I'm always afraid that everyone that I love is going to die right now and that I am too. It's really hard to come to terms with it
Cat_attack Cat_attack
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- 6y
I am so very sorry about your husband ? that is heartbreaking. Sending you hugs! Though my situation is not comparable to the depth of your loss, I understand you. From the end of 2016 to the beginning of 2018 I lost more than 7 people I was close to, some more than others but still all of them had played an important part of my life at some point or other. This had made me feel like there is no point in living if everyone including myself is just going to die.
Cat_attack Cat_attack
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- 6y
I also agree with you cwgrlup1990. I have health problems and have convinced myself I’m going to die from one of them before I reach 40. The fear of dying is so great I can’t handle it. I try to tell myself I’m too young (almost 28) to be thinking such things but then I think, not true people die all the time. People you thought were Healthy DIE ALL THE TIME. I’ve known too many people too young to die. TRIGGER : And yes my neighbor died almost 2 years ago from a brain aneurysm, she was 12. That has led my fear of dying almost to the point of unbearable.
cwgrlup1990cwgrlup1990
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- 6y
I definitely suffered with those feelings. I felt like life was meaningless or a big joke. It was a very hard 4 years. I still struggle with my fear of death and dying, but I'm learning to live for right now. I've spent years obsessing about the future and couldn't just live in the now.
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- 25w
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- 19w
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- 18w
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