This doesn’t have anything to do with OCD honestly. Just complaining. I’ve been waking up sick to my stomach every day so nauseous because there is never food in my house so I never eat. It honestly makes every part of my life miserable I can never think straight. My parents shop maybe once a month and I barely make enough money to pay for medical supplies I need. So I’m just constantly feeling like shit. How am I ever going to feel better living in this way? I feel like my life is a joke

That's basically what I would have suggested. You need to eat! You're starving!

I don’t mean to sound like “poor me boo hoo” and people hearing me complain about this always say I’m too old to be thinking this way. People who are PERFECTLY HEALTHY. It angers me because these people had their parents pay for college and were able to get a good job that paid well and able to put in more hours at work. Meanwhile I paid for school and had to drop out because I couldn’t keep up with school and work and I needed to keep working because of my medical supplies. (I had financial aid/medicare at some point and can honestly say, it doesn’t cover a quarter of what I need so you still need to make money to pay for the rest, at which point The government says you’re making too much and kick you off ?) and I can’t work more because I constantly feel like crap and something is always wrong so I wouldn’t be able to ask for more hours. it’s just all around a very frustrating catch 22 situation. Which is why I complained about it here because I know everyone on this app is very understanding because we all recognize things that people can be dealing with that you wouldn’t know just by looking at them. Thank you for talking with me ??

How old are you?

I’m way old enough to be able to buy myself food. The problem is I don’t have much money. I only work part time and am getting FMLA due to health reasons. So much of my money is spent on medical supplies I need. I’m not dying, I still live a relatively normal life. But I also have a car payment, phone payment and every other payment most adults have. These issues mentioned make it not always realistic for me to spend money, even if that’s money for food. I understand that regardless of my situation it isn’t exactly my parents job to constantly feed me, however the anger comes from the fact that I’ve never been able to save my money because from the time I started working (14, I nannied) if I was hunger and there wasn’t food I was expected to buy it for myself. I also paid for most my medical supplies then as well. So I was never able to save money and never will be able to. It’s a very frustrating situation.