Look man I've been going through a lot over the past 9 months. Ever since my car accident and my first love breaking up with me I've been so lost ya know. Over the past couple months I've dealt with trying not to harm myself and others, trying to isolate myself because I don't know me anymore, and homosexual thoughts. It's feels like nothing is there when the thoughts come up and there's no feeling of goodness when they come it's just worrying and fear and distress because I can't get over them. It's like I lost my identity but I'm getting a few pieces back. When I look at guys from further away my mind is telling me you have a crush on them and I haven't even felt that way before about any guy. Like before this I would look at dudes and nothing would happen and I'd just be chilling and now it feel just the same but it feels like my mind is disconnected from my body. I've looked on so many pages and most ocd therapist say this is an actual condition but these other people who are gay are saying this is just extreme denial and I don't know what to believe. I've showed symptoms of ocd when I was a kid but I've never been diagnosed and when I tell my mom I might have it she doesn't believe me and I have to pretend it's something else. I just don't know any more. These thoughts don't please me and I when they come up I always ask myself do I think this is hot or should I be attracted to this or does this make me feel good. I don't know man it's just discomforting and weird and I don't like it

Hey sounds like you’ve had a rough time recently. I want to just say this sounds like ocd not like denial. If it’s making you anxious that’s probably ocd best thing you can do is if you start to get anxious, instead of trying to get rid of the anxiety just sit with it and eventually ur mind will be trained to not care any more

I feel sympathy for you and I just want to let you know that you shouldn’t question the thoughts. Let them be there they won’t hurt you. I understand they are uncomfortable but the more you resist the more they persist, so; why not let the thoughts come. I totally recommend the book “the mindfulness workbook for ocd” second edition

Thank you guys man I appreciate y'all for real it's been a very hard couple months and I just found this app on one of the sits I was on when I was doing my complusions. I hope you guys are doing better than me

Hey there! I am not an ocd specialist and can’t diagnose you, but what you’re describing is very much in line with what we’d expect from a person with ocd suffering from sexual orientation obsessions. I am SO sorry that your mom doesn’t believe you. I think it’s worth approaching her about this again. With treatment, things can get so much better. A script in case you need some guidance: “hey mom, I really need your help. I’ve don’t everything I can at this point to handle what’s going on with me on my own, and it’s not working. I need to see a professional. I’ve done some research online and I’d like to have a consultation with an ocd specialist. If they tell me it’s not ocd, I’m happy to try another mental health professional, but I’d like to start there. I know you’re feeling sceptical about this, and I want you to know that I really appreciate your help and support right now. I know this can’t be easy for you either. Can we please set up a call with an ocd specialist? Here are some numbers.”