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I’m so sorry you feel that way. I have felt that way in the past, so I understand where you’re at right now. But life is so magical when it gets down to it. Why don’t you make a list of five things you think are awesome about this world. They can be anything. Example; Honey bees, the ocean, sunsets, dogs, family, music, hobbies, passions; whatever makes you happy. Also I just want to say that God loves you, and he wants you to live. He put you here for a reason. ❤️🙏Maybe you don’t believe in God, but there is certainly some meaning to this life, no matter what you call it.
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Same....dont worry we are in this together
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I’m not sure
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@soup Why do u think we all have to deal w this
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@soup I just want it to stop. And I feel like if anybody cared me about me they would understand that I want to end my life
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Look how many of us want you to stay! Having Existential OCD I’ve suffered from intense suicidal thoughts myself. But something to tell yourself when you’re in this dark place is you can always defer the decision to end your life. You don’t have to choose to do it now. Life is suffering, but if you can take that suffering and turn into meaning, then all that suffering is worth it. Perhaps one day all your pain will be for the purpose of helping someone else just like you heal. Listen to the OCD stories podcast if you need to find someone to relate to. They often have people come on and discuss different themes of OCD. Keep holding on my friend. Do 100 jumping jacks now if you need to get all that negative energy out of you. Why, you may ask? Because you know deep down that your life has value.
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But not really bc who are you?
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Dont worry...i remember u. Uve been through HOCD like me. I have really bad suicidal thoughts whenever im upset or angry it triggers them. I always think of wanting to get run over or stab my brain or choke myself to death or even drown myself purposely or even stab myself. I still have them ur not alone
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@Anonymous help No that wasn’t me. I have the default name and pic. I’m kinda calming down but I feel like I only am bc the thought of ending it
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@Anonymous I know its a great way to get your mind off of the thoughts but remember you are loved...its hard for me to say that because sometimes i dont practice what i preach
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@Anonymous help Yeah same. Everyone’s like you need to start loving yourself. Well I’m trying. Maybe it’s hard to not hate myself idk what it’s not working
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@Anonymous I know...Question. Do you feel like your fighting a second person throughout all of this?
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@Anonymous help Yeah
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This is happening to me too, but I’m still here and in spite of what my thoughts do, I won’t allow that to change.
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I feel this a lot especially when I’m spiraling in thoughts and need a way to attempt to get rid of it. We’re all here together and it does get better I promise
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When I said “why you ask” I was referring to the thought of choosing to help yourself “When confronted with life and death, choose life.”
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Really bad theme right now is death, I keep thinking about how one day or at any moment my heart will stop my brain will stop & my memories & everything I know will all fade away. It is giving me so much anxiety I’m only 18, but I realize it all happens to us it is bound, we are born to die. I know it’s a silly thing to be scared because it’s not helping the quality of my life worrying about it and even when I do die, I won’t care , if you don’t have a working brain then how can you care 🤷♀️. It is tainting my everyday life currently & honestly making me terribly depressed & it is giving me derealization & making me feel nihilistic, I’ll remind myself it’s okay but then with my ocd i don’t stop thinking and thinking about it and it’s seriously so hard to stay present in the moment because this thought just feels like I can’t scrub it away it’s miserable I struggle with religion, but I do pray to anything that’s out there possibly listening, because it is comforting, it just feels like this whole experience Is pointless & I am afraid of the unknown and what is to possibly happen but I’m subjected to it anyways so why should it matter
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I feel like I’ll never lead a normal life again with OCD, my thoughts have begun to be convince especially about POCD. I feel like so sad and down that this will be my life forever. I’ll never get to fall in love again without intrusive thoughts. I’ll never be worth falling in love with. I can never be intimate again. I’m just done, my life is over. I can’t even look at my nephew and niece anymore without the smile fading. It feels like I’m so nasty and then my brain convinces me this is how I feel. That there’s some part of me that is a p*do and that’s it. I’m a disgusting human being for that. I just feel hopeless
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Today my mom broke down crying because of how much stress she feels having to take care of me, she said I can’t do anything in terms of being able to take care of myself and she’s right I can’t, she breaks down constantly because of me, I don’t know what to do, it’s been like this for years, part of me feels like the only way to save her is to kill myself, I don’t want to die, but it feels like the only way to set her free, I don’t think anyone but her would miss me anyways, I feel utterly hopeless. I’m not going to do anything to myself the voices are just SCREAMING that I need to. I can’t work, I can’t go to school, I’m trying desperately to get therapy, I don’t know what else to do, I wish I was a child again and I felt like I had a chance to be okay. I love my mom so much and she loves me and I’m killing her, I’m actually killing her, with how fuckinh worthless and pathetic I am, it’s too much, I miss being a kid.
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