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same!! it’ll take me hours just to read 20 pages cause I keep stopping and procrastinating and then ruminating.
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I thought I was the only one!
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Totally! That’s why I’m up at 5 a.m. trying to do things right now (and failing lmaooo)
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Same here!! Ugh so many assignments due but I’d rather think and watch tv lol
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I graduated last month, but now that I’m undergoing therapy for my OCD I realized I had channeled my obsessional behavior into my classes. In theory, this seems like this would be a positive because I did well, but it also meant doing assignments weeks in advance, starting class work without sleeping, excessively ruminating and breaking down over a ‘C,’ or wanting to injure myself over a test not loading or feeling like I wasn’t good enough for my partner because I got a B. So in short- OCD can target any aspect of life, and in a variety of ways lol.
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@jasonbozinakis It’s a double edged sword. I feel convinced that I’m being proactive and it’s necessary, but in reality I know I could accomplish everything I have without undergoing the level of mental stress my OCD convinces me of. It did act as a motor for me to do well in college, pay for it all, and work. But, I know that could have all been done without the obsessional behavior and excessive self-scrutiny. Gaining more insight into why these types of behaviors happened are liberating, but it’s a continuous work in progress to recognize them.
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Definitely! It requires a lot from me to actually sit and study or do anything related to that.
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Same here.. currently trying to work on a seven page essay but my thoughts are such a distraction
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Not so much since therapy. Before, yes. There was even a class I had to drop because I had a horrible episode and couldn’t catch back up with my schoolwork. But now, I find it gives me a leg up. People say nursing school is the hardest thing they’ve gone through, but when you live with OCD, nothing is hard in comparison. School is a piece of cake compared to ERP or what I deal with on a monthly basis.
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I will say something I’m struggling with this semester though is making sure I’m doing all my work in an honest ethical fashion. So now I’m feeling anxiety around my school work and that is a drag.
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Hey everyone, been doing ok this week but having a little bit of a rough moment rn. So I’m about a year and a half out of college and I still have yet to a real job job. I worked for eight months somewhere which was great but I decided it wasn’t permanent. Now I’ve been unemployed for about four months and OCD is really having a field day with it. Trying to deal with it and just keep applying everyday, but I always feel like my family and friends are looking down on me and/or just plain disappointed in me. Just wanted to kind of vent and get this out of my head before I go to bed. I hope everyone is having a great week!
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My last and almost life long theme/sub-theme largely subsided recently and my ocd felt like it wasn’t even an issue. Then I went on winter break from uni and being alone made my mind come up with a whole new topic to obsess over. TLDR on my fears, my advisor wouldn’t email me back for a while about signing up for classes so my mind started to worry “what if he doesn’t in time and you can’t enroll this semester and you lose this whole life you just built and all these new friends” So when that issue was resolved my mind found other scarier ways I could be uprooted from my current life and friends that I’ve grown so attached to. Then my mind remembered back when I was struggling with false memories and scrupulosity and I essentially made a post on a forum 2 and a half years ago saying I did something or was convinced I did something that I never actually did. Now I’ve been spiraling about someone finding it reporting me and I either get seen as a horrible person or arrested or something over something I never actually did but “admitted” to out of fear of going to hell. My mind won’t let it go and keeps finding new reasons for it to be “valid” “logical” or even inevitable. I feel like it’s just hanging over my head and I can never rest easy. Especially when I try to focus on my daily tasks or plan for the future I get this horrible flair up of “why plan for the future when this could come back in that future and you get uprooted from all of it” my mind won’t rest without certainty being uprooted won’t happen but certainty doesn’t exist, at least not with ocd. This sucks and I miss being care free.
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I don’t know what I can do. I guess this is more of a depression thing than OCD but who knows. I have been battling this ongoing war within myself for years now and it’s been affecting my academic performance. situation of mine right now: I haven’t done a lot of work for my classes this month and I feel like I’m going to fail the semester again. I don’t know what it is but I can never seem to begin any work. I know I am capable but why can’t I get myself to start? why has this been going on for so long? I don’t understand. I have a history of good grades back in high school before I turned 17. I don’t even know how to describe it. it’s like I’ve been paralyzed and cannot do any work. but I can somehow do offside tasks like pinterest boards or random youtube videos. if I get rid of those, what do I do? I end up sleeping. because I’m tired. I have a low vitamin D deficiency & have been trying to get energy. I’m at a loss. I also bought unnecessary stuff on sunday when I went out with my family. I bought some things for the kids and I ended up buying myself a dress and a few accessories. now I have to work extra to gain that money back doing uber eats because I need it asap. it’s like I don’t want to work, for now. my coworkers who are around my age don’t work as much & I think to myself, “wow, they must be getting in the work done” meanwhile I’m working 3 days a week (which isn’t much) and attending school. I feel like if I change my schedule again, I’ll ruin it for the rest of my driver coworkers. I’m in a lead position at work so having to put on a mask is quite tiring. there’s so much I want to say that I don’t think it will fit in this post. I have booked a mental health session with a school counselor. all I want at the moment is to have my own place and be in a better mental state to take care of my cats. they mean a lot to me but this stupid ass undiagnosed mental issue is getting in the way. sorry for the long rant. I am tired.
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