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same!! it’ll take me hours just to read 20 pages cause I keep stopping and procrastinating and then ruminating.
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I thought I was the only one!
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Totally! That’s why I’m up at 5 a.m. trying to do things right now (and failing lmaooo)
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Same here!! Ugh so many assignments due but I’d rather think and watch tv lol
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I graduated last month, but now that I’m undergoing therapy for my OCD I realized I had channeled my obsessional behavior into my classes. In theory, this seems like this would be a positive because I did well, but it also meant doing assignments weeks in advance, starting class work without sleeping, excessively ruminating and breaking down over a ‘C,’ or wanting to injure myself over a test not loading or feeling like I wasn’t good enough for my partner because I got a B. So in short- OCD can target any aspect of life, and in a variety of ways lol.
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@jasonbozinakis It’s a double edged sword. I feel convinced that I’m being proactive and it’s necessary, but in reality I know I could accomplish everything I have without undergoing the level of mental stress my OCD convinces me of. It did act as a motor for me to do well in college, pay for it all, and work. But, I know that could have all been done without the obsessional behavior and excessive self-scrutiny. Gaining more insight into why these types of behaviors happened are liberating, but it’s a continuous work in progress to recognize them.
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Definitely! It requires a lot from me to actually sit and study or do anything related to that.
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Same here.. currently trying to work on a seven page essay but my thoughts are such a distraction
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Not so much since therapy. Before, yes. There was even a class I had to drop because I had a horrible episode and couldn’t catch back up with my schoolwork. But now, I find it gives me a leg up. People say nursing school is the hardest thing they’ve gone through, but when you live with OCD, nothing is hard in comparison. School is a piece of cake compared to ERP or what I deal with on a monthly basis.
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I will say something I’m struggling with this semester though is making sure I’m doing all my work in an honest ethical fashion. So now I’m feeling anxiety around my school work and that is a drag.
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Recently, I’ve been struggling a ton with what I eat/put into my body? I’m a first year college student with a few different health issues (including IBS), and lately it’s been hard for me to find food on campus that doesn’t upset my stomach. I also have pretty severe emetophobia, and feel extremely anxious when I feel sick. The ironic thing is that being anxious makes me feel even worse, so I end up sticking myself in an impossible loophole. My OCD has taken hold of these fears over the past few months, and it’s been such a struggle. Especially since people have been getting food poisoning from various dining halls on my campus lately. My OCD has gotten so bad that sometimes I’m too afraid to eat food other than what I buy myself. I feel so trapped. I don’t want my OCD to affect my physical health or prevent me from eating, bc I love eating!! It’s the fear of getting sick that’s the problem. And it’s even harder when everything is so unfamiliar. Just wondering if anyone could relate. Advice is appreciated!
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17f Just like the title says. I came to realization that I lost a whole year of life. I remembered my real event in the end of january of 2024. Since then my life has been a living hell. Also kinda made a couple new smaller events through this year. And I know I deserve it cause my event was actually bad. Even people without ocd on reddit agree it was bad. It's still ocd, but I deserve it probably. For this whole year I haven't had a day when I wouldn't think of it. It became my default state to constantly have it on my mind. I walked around, pretended to have fun, talked to people. Most of the time I wasn't really there, I was thinking about my event. My event haunts me when I'm awake, when I'm asleep. I spend this whole year either freaking out, being depressed, thinking on methods to off myself, ruminating, seeking reassurance or trying to distract myself with books, TV shows, social media or daydreaming. Literally barely engaged with reality. So it's so hard to believe a whole year passed... I can barely remember anything that happened during this year. I can't believe this is my life. Probably doesn't really matter cause I don't plan on staying there that long. There is no way I'm going to experience piece with myself. So I will be out in a year or so, since my plan requires some time. Finally will end it all. It just feels very weird. A whole year passed. I was so deep down in my head I didn't even notice. It's scary.
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I'm wondering if this is a common OCD experience: does anyone else find that when you have idle time, your mind just spirals into endless rumination on negative "what ifs" & intrusive thoughts? It's been happening to me for the past three years, which coincides with starting a really high-stress job. Weekends used to be my time to relax, but now I dread weekends...I only feel relief when I'm sleeping because it's the only time my mind seems to quiet down. It's honestly so depressing to lose that enjoyment. Does anyone else relate to this, and if so, what helps you cope?
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