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same!! it’ll take me hours just to read 20 pages cause I keep stopping and procrastinating and then ruminating.
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I thought I was the only one!
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Totally! That’s why I’m up at 5 a.m. trying to do things right now (and failing lmaooo)
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Same here!! Ugh so many assignments due but I’d rather think and watch tv lol
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I graduated last month, but now that I’m undergoing therapy for my OCD I realized I had channeled my obsessional behavior into my classes. In theory, this seems like this would be a positive because I did well, but it also meant doing assignments weeks in advance, starting class work without sleeping, excessively ruminating and breaking down over a ‘C,’ or wanting to injure myself over a test not loading or feeling like I wasn’t good enough for my partner because I got a B. So in short- OCD can target any aspect of life, and in a variety of ways lol.
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@jasonbozinakis It’s a double edged sword. I feel convinced that I’m being proactive and it’s necessary, but in reality I know I could accomplish everything I have without undergoing the level of mental stress my OCD convinces me of. It did act as a motor for me to do well in college, pay for it all, and work. But, I know that could have all been done without the obsessional behavior and excessive self-scrutiny. Gaining more insight into why these types of behaviors happened are liberating, but it’s a continuous work in progress to recognize them.
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Definitely! It requires a lot from me to actually sit and study or do anything related to that.
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Same here.. currently trying to work on a seven page essay but my thoughts are such a distraction
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Not so much since therapy. Before, yes. There was even a class I had to drop because I had a horrible episode and couldn’t catch back up with my schoolwork. But now, I find it gives me a leg up. People say nursing school is the hardest thing they’ve gone through, but when you live with OCD, nothing is hard in comparison. School is a piece of cake compared to ERP or what I deal with on a monthly basis.
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I will say something I’m struggling with this semester though is making sure I’m doing all my work in an honest ethical fashion. So now I’m feeling anxiety around my school work and that is a drag.
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I had avoided a lot with school specifically, but I did do it in other areas of life as well. School for some reason has been the biggest trigger that sends me into avoidance and it has been for the longest time. Does anybody relate? If so, what did you do to help besides therapy? In high school I used to sit in the bathroom stalls for hours so I could avoid going to classes. I was struggling to keep up because my OCD makes me perfect my school work so much so to the point where I’d never turn it in because I’d never be satisfied with what I’d produce. I’d get so incredibly frustrated with myself and the fact that I could never meet my own standards, never mind the rubrics given. I took ages analyzing all my writing, all my answers, all my google slides and I burnt myself out. So I stopped trying. I stopped turning in work because I’d never be satisfied. I’d cry because I felt I wasn’t good enough. Then I’d be missing assignments, getting them done but not submitting them because I was too ashamed. So, I avoided classes because I’d be in trouble or be called out for not getting anything done. Unfortunately this habit bled into my first year of college last year, and OCD coupled up with depression, made going to the dining hall and attending classes even worse. So I avoided it all together. It’s so hard being a freshman in college, so so hard. I unfortunately failed out of that school but I tried to medically withdraw either semester. No, I wasn’t partying, or drinking or smoking or hanging with the wrong people. I was a college freshman struggling with ocd and depression. I’m trying to not make excuses for myself either because I’m well aware this is my fault and I’m trying to reverse it now at community college. Right now I’m trying to get those Fs turned into Ws from my old school so I can fix my gpa. I want to transfer, I want to be a forensic psychologist, I want to be independent, I want to be ok. It’s gonna take me so long to transfer from community college but that’s on me. I’m willing to put in the work. I’m so embarassed, please help me.
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i’m in college and on my summer break now. i don’t have a job yet or much to occupy myself with and im finding it really difficult to keep my ocd under control. if i have nothing to do, i find myself sitting around and ruminating heavily and getting severely anxious and my thoughts just keep wandering. i don’t really feel peace of mind unless im with my boyfriend or my best friend, both of which i don’t get to see often because they’re very busy or live far away. im not sure how to keep myself busy and how to occupy my brain with something other than worries :(
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i’ve unfortunately fallen into the cycle of trying to figure out my thoughts and find answers as to why i feel so distressed. this still pertains to the situation regarding changing my room for those reading who have seen my multiple posts over the last few days. i’ve been so distressed and in so much panic about it. i’m also panicking over my other room looking so different from when i left it. it’s been making me feel crazy because to me there’s no reason for my anxiety to latch so hard onto something that seems so minuscule. i was thinking i was having anxiety over change, but it’s like symptoms of ocd too that’s making it really hard for me to let go. SO i started thinking maybe it was perfectionism ocd? i’ve realized over time that i do compulsions to where things have to feel “just right”, but i also do that with any environment i’m in. like it HAS to feel cozy to me and provide me comfort in order for me to feel at ease. and this change is causing me to panic because there’s something wrong that i can’t find an answer to. maybe the different colored carpet? but it’s also more than that it feels like. however, now it’s spreading into other areas of my house where i’ve always been fine in and possibly to just any area i’m in at all. hence why it’s making me feel crazy because there’s no reason for me to be THIS distressed over that as i’ve never really had this problem before. and when i did it would last maybe an hour to a couple of days at most, but this has been going for over 2 weeks with my really bad anxiety being this week. i’m doing a little better, but it’s still hard when i can feel that panic waiting for me to acknowledge and just engulf me in the ocd cycle. i’m also analyzing basically any feeling i have so i just feel off in general and like i’m going insane. i’ve been so hyper focused on how i feel and that will send me spiraling too. multiple themes then start coming in like existential ocd and fear of solipsism. not to mention my harm and contamination ocd that just adds on when i’m this vulnerable. then i worry if no one is real, then no one feels the way i do. or just in general that what if no one feels the way i do. honestly, i think being out of college and in my house with nothing to do is causing me too much time with my thoughts. which is why i’m so distressed about everything that pops into my brain.
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