Has anyone else had OCD over a person?? In an ugly, anxious way?? Like obsessing over their appearance and what people think of them because you don’t want them to have any good??? I know that sounds awful and I FEEL awful, but I just can’t help it. Don’t know how it was triggered, but I think it usually starts when I think people are full of themselves/narcissistic... I just feel alone :(

i have felt that before! a more persistent feeling i have in my life that may be similar.. is when i am in a relationship i obsess about their appearance and what people think of them because i want others to think they are cool and attractive, because if they are then that means obviously i am. i worry about their outer appearance but also how they act around others. like i stress about if they are gonna say something stupid or rub someone the wrong way. i know that is very different but it’s also i guess the same in the way we are obsessing over certain people and how they are perceived, ya know? i get it is what i am trying to say and you’re most definitely not alone! don’t feel like a bad person.. a lot more people than you think have this feeling

Yes I’ve experienced this quite a lot, it’s one of the biggest themes of my OCD.

Sounds a little like rOCD themes to me.

You’re definitely not alone. It’s really hard when I can’t find my kind of OCD in all the lists of types of OCD. I call it CCE OCD, competition comparison envy OCD. I will obsess about someone and how they look, how much better they are than me, all the info I know about them, etc. I’ll see their pictures and videos in my mind all the time (from stalking them on social media and online, that’s my compulsion.) When it was my ex’s ex I obsessed about him going back to her and if she had a better body than me, she had a child with him and I didn’t, etc. But it can be different kinds of people, not just having to do with my relationships, and if they appear arrogant or full of themselves that can definitely be triggering for me. I think it came from my parents separating when I was 3 and my father leaving the household and seeing him move on with women other than my mother (we can inherit our parents’ fears, and I’m an extension of my mother so fears of inadequacy, inferiority, being threatened etc.), and then being so afraid of being replaced when he had another kid when I was 12. My OCD started when I was about 14 and a guy I was dating had dated another girl at my school before me and I got super obsessively afraid that he liked her better and would go back to her, and that she was prettier and more attractive. Sometimes I’ll be super resentful of their looks, their success, them being mothers etc. I’ll feel like I hate them and I’ll feel haunted by them. It can feel like mental/emotional self-torture. That’s a lot of info lol but I hope you feel less alone knowing other people have similar experiences.