Hi everyone. Idk if this makes sense but I was driving the other day & I saw a man on the sidewalk & thought, "Oh, better not hit him. Or "what if I hit him? Or "I could hit him." Idk my thoughts were moving so fast. & I turned left whixh was away from him (plus I'm in the road anyways obviously not on a sidewalk) & then felt a bump & I know it wasn't a person but I just got so worried. & when I drove a bit further & looked in my rearview mirror I didn't see him or anything. I REALLY wanted to drive all the way back down the road to double check but resisted & kept driving cuz I knew it was more of a compulsion & I had a work meeting. But I felt so anxious at work. So an hour later I drove back anyways (I telework & had to use my parents' cable at their house since I have no WIFI). & I went back & didn't see anything that looked like an accident had happened or police or anything. But weirdly I didn't feel like I felt the same bump in the road though so that made me nervous??? Like, I feel like I'm remembering it right but maybe I'm not? & I know I didn't hit anyone but I keep obsessing that what if I did? If it was a normal bump in the road why didn't I feel it again when I went back?? I keep trying to recreate the exact memory but can't. Like to the point that it's throwing me off. When it happened 2 days ago, I just cried I felt so upset. My OCD seems like it's returning with driving anxiety. & I keep wanting to see that man again to make myself feel better so I know he's OK but obviously I'm in my neighborhood & have no clue who that was so idk how in my head I hurt him even though he was on the sidewalk & I was on the road. So it makes me think I don't deserve good things or happiness because I hurt someone. Even though there's no real evidence that that happened. Does this make sense for anyone? I know it sounds reassurance seeking/probably is but I'm just frustrated. You don't have to respond if you don't want to, you can just like it if you understand. I just wanted to explain myself.