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I’ve taken MDMA before and it not really do much, other times it absolutely has worked. in hindsight it was possibly to do with the fact that my serotonin levels were so low to begin with that there’s not much for the drug to flood the brain with. It never made me question whether or not I was capable of empathy - nor do I question that now, after reading this! Maybe just try and calmly observe how ocd might be playing a role here without having to figure out what it might ‘mean’.
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thank you, you’re so right. i guess it’s just hard when i obsess so much about empathy. but thanks for replying. is it true that if you have low serotonin, the drug won’t really work then? if that’s the case then maybe i shouldn’t worry since my serotonin is so low all the time
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Of course - it’s so so hard. I’m the exact same way with my obsessions. I have no idea if that’s true or not scienfically speaking, but anecdotally, I think so. I stopped taking it after starting on clomipraminez
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thanks for your help and replies :)
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I haven’t taken mdma, however I did take coke and speed. Worse decision of my life. Although you think it’s helping your brain not think horrible things in the short term, in the long term it really does fck with it. If you’re not careful it can cause psychosis and that mixed with OCD sounds like hell. So please get yourself off the drugs and just stick to alcohol. I love you and I hope you get through this. Always here if you need a chat ❤️
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that’s so lovely, thanks so much. i don’t really take them often - mostly just with friends. but you’re right 💖
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@garden I did that and honestly my episode hasn’t been this bad ever. Lots of love ❤️
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@OCD suck my d*ck 💖💖
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just to clarify, i haven’t taken drugs right NOW. this is more about how i react with them in general but i’m not high as i write this
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