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I'm sorry to hear about everyone's traumas. Thank you for sharing. I've also heard of bullying as a common thing among people with OCD. I did not have severe bullying but did have some and then was bullied again as an adult in the workplace
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Wow that's so sounds overwhelming, I'm sorry to hear that Koko. Basically, I do get alot of flashbacks of traumatic events from my childhood, also because I am going though mainly Homosexual OCD, my mind is picking on every little thing to do with sexuality and relationship, it's driving me insane, "just come out already" "come out and stop being in denial" "you are lying to yourself and everyone else" "stop living a fake life" "you're repressing your identity" blah blah blah it's so annoying and feels soooooo real, I feel convinced that I will eventually come out if not soon then in the future, that I will always be miserable, that I don't want to be in a relationship with a woman. It's so debilitating.
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I had the exact same problems as @deputydean, I was quite lonely as a child/teen, bullied quite severely by my sibling and at school, had horrible low self-esteem and confidence, however ive spoken about all of this with my therapist, how do I tell if I have overcome this trauma? It's so exhausting.
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Here’s my story, someone related to my husband thought I was stuck up for wanting to be germ free. Then to pick on me he used my fears against not once but twice. The second time was so traumatic that it caused the ptsd. Every from that day had to be thrown away or washed. Then there’s was my mind telling me everything near this person is contaminated. I avoided places. Every time I thought about the event I felt this ugly disgust feeling so I needed to wash my hands. I had panic attacks and just miserable. If I could just stop these thoughts then I could fight even harder.
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Hopefully we discover it one day, thanks heaps for your motivation, I wish you the best and hope we all overcome this affliction soon ❤️
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- 6y ago
Yep. I had that discussion today. I'm basically still not over childhood trauma. I was basically all alone throughout elementary and was brutally bullied in Junior high. My current OCD spout came from recent stressful and traumatising events related to my family
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Yes I too have ocd from traumas. I was diagnosed with ptsd that causes my OCD. The ptsd part makes it so hard because if I think about it then I have to wash my hands.
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For years I was told that it was just contamination ocd but in December 2018 I was diagnosed with ptsd/ocd. I’m suppose to meditate but I can’t. I’ll start thinking about my trauma and have to pause to wash my hands.
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@AhmedH Oh geez I just want to hug you. I get it. It’s like the thoughts is an evil entity that you want to silence but can’t. So sorry that you are hurting everyday. I’ve tried meds and they don’t stop. Like why is it so hard to overcome these thoughts.
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Thank you so much koko for your compassion, I guess we have to accept this affliction is our reality but hopefully we overcome and recover one day, I really hope so. Yes I have been on Medication for a while, it helped the anxiety but doesn't help with the OCD at all, I've tried so many. ?
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- 6y ago
Yes same here. Currently on Prozac. I think the cure is there just someone needs to discover it already. Im always here if you need to chat?
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It's crazy his similar my symptoms are to yours @AhmedH. I wish everyone in the world who suffers from this can overcome it. My therapist told me that it's pretty much impossible for me to have a relationship right now, which kills me. I've always dreamt of having a girlfriend I love, getting married and having kids.
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@AhmedH what are your symptoms?
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@Koko what kind of PTSD symptoms do you have?
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Trying not to seek reassurance, but rather connect the dots on my OCD and possible reasons as to why I am the way I am. I have severe OCD (or at least I hope I do) mainly surrounding POCD. I've had symptoms of OCD the majority of my life but this theme has come up more recently. When I was a kid, and i'm talking 6-7, I was first exposed to some really gross adult content online. It was introduced to me by a friend of mine around the same age of me. I saw some really disgusting things that a 6-7 year old should definitely not see. This was not a one time occurrence, as I had been exposed to taboo topics online years to come after that, such as the same friend introducing me to Omegle... And i'm sure you can imagine how that went, theres a lot of genuinely disgusting human beings on there. Coming back to the reason for making this post; is it possible to early exposure to this content could be one of the reasons I struggle with POCD? It genuinely scares me to death because you hear that real p*dos dealt with simular situations when they were kids, so thats kind of making me feel that this could be more than OCD, and I could be a genuinely bad person. My POCD feels so real, that at times i'm fully convinced its not OCD. Sometimes I can't even distinguish the feelings of attraction between a younger person and an older person, except for the feeling of anxiety and fear. Its really hard to explain without going into detail, but it just feels so real. Some feedback on this would be great, thank you all.
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Hi, I’m new here!! I’m praying I don’t get judged for this. But, back in late May of 2022 ( literally right before I graduated high school), I added this one random girl from my school on Snapchat. She posted something about a graduation party , so I swiped up on her story basically saying how I can’t believe we’re almost graduated. She replied and we had a really short and simple conversation. The next day ( i believe) , we started talking a lot , and I just so happened to see her at the highschool when we were grabbing our graduation outfits and doing the rehearsal. When I saw her irl, I kinda got turned off ( I heard she was kinda crazy) , and on top of that , she was a little ugly irl. I remember seeing her Snapchat bio , and she was close friends with my female cousin ( a year younger than me) , who I happened to experiment sexually with when I was 10-11 years old. I remember going to work later that day and having sort of a lightbulb flick thought ( it wasn’t a good thought though) , what if my cousin told her about what happened when we were younger? So I started to kind of panic and immediately distanced myself from that girl. I also experimented sexually with one of my female friends when I was 10-11 , and from that day onwards, I’ve been pretty much living in paranoia and a little bit of guilt about someone finding out and my life being ruined . On top of that, It’s gotten worse to now sometimes I wonder if a girl I added off of quick add ( Snapchat) is underage even if they told me they were 18+ or had 18 and above in their bio, and I get so much guilt and anxiety about that. I even had a quick thought last February on what if I did something inappropriate with my younger cousin when I was 15-16 but I just can’t exactly remember when it happened , and it still eats me alive when I think about it, because I don’t know if it happened or not. I’m sorry for the long vent, I just wish I felt normal again. No matter how much I try to do things that old me used to do, life always feels “ off”. I always kept the top part about when I was younger a secret up until early (ish ) 2024, then I vented to one of my best friends and he told me that that’s a normal thing to do at a young age. Since then, I have told multiple friends and they all say they did similar stuff, but my brain just can’t accept that. Please help me, I quite literally overthink everything nowadays. 2021 was the last full year that I felt normal ( coincidentally, the best year of my life so far) . It’s not just about sexual related things either, sometimes I’ll wonder if I messed up something at work or hit a car while driving/hit someone and drove off. I just wanna live my life how I was supposed to live it after highschool ( carefree and happy) before whatever it is ( I think it’s ocd) hit me unexpectedly. Thanks to anyone who read this , I just needed to pour it out regardless of how negative I felt typing this, I hope someone can relate , because I feel so alone in my head at times.
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So, I know my capacity to get fixated on things. And it's normally something that's relatively remote but, my latest issue is really getting to me and I was wondering if people have any advice. I'm avoiding getting too into specifics, as I don't want this to get reassurance-y but, in essence.. I came to the realisation recently that people who I'd been "friends" (feels like the wrong term now) when I was younger were not very nice people, and normalized a lot of very unpleasant behaviour towards other members of the group. They really normalized it, sold themselves as figures of authority, as older and more responsible and grown-up than others, and looking back, they acted horribly. And coming to this realisation, that I'd been manipulated into just accepting their behaviour has just... broken me. My OCD has latched onto it and I can't stop feeling irreversibly tainted by it. I've talked to others about it, and they've reassured me, told me it's not a big deal and that I hold myself to too high a standard, but none of that sticks. I feel better for a bit, then think 'Maybe when you told them you were skewing it to make yourself look better' or 'Did you leave out a crucial detail'. I keep ruminating over and over, trying to remember exactly how everything played out, trying to figure out if I fed into the behaviour, if I did something bad myself (because y'know, I feel like I was accepting of it at the time, so what does it say about my own values?). I know I need to stop doing all this if I want to improve, but then some part of me keeps saying 'So, you're just going to let yourself off the hook then?' Normally, I can rationalize my own fears to some degree, assure myself something won't happen, but the realness of the situation, and the fact I only came to understand the reality of it because the thought had been bothering me means it feels so much more all-encompassing. I know confessing in itself is a compulsion, but I keep feeling that if I'm not I'm somehow concealing what I 'really am' from others around me, and any positive interactions are me deceiving them in some way. I feel like I can't enjoy anything in life right now, and a good part of me feels I should not enjoy it ever again. If anybody has any advice on it, I'm all ears. Or even hearing if you relate to these feelings, I might appreciate the solidarity at least.
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