- Username
- lottiedottie
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yes
You just asked what I was going to ask. Yeah I think so and then you start obsessing what it meant whether you were thinking anything or just feeling. Worrying about worrying.
Yes, for me it always been a feeling first!
yes! I’ve always described it as more of a feeling than a thought! I find this quote helps: “What you feel is often only what you fear”
Thank you everyone! Do any of you often worry it’s GAD not ocd?
Yes but my thoughts are obsessive so??
Yeah mines very obsessive too! What theme of ocd do you have?
At the moment ages ago there was a film or a tv show I saw where an older guy came onto a 19 year old girl( I remember her age because He asked how old she was and then she said 19) anyway he starts calling her a little girl and she’s being all cute and child like, then they get it on. Problem for me is I thought she was quite hot and I need to know if thinking that was inappropriate. I also need to now how I felt when he called her a little girl. Which is impossible. So for two years everyday I have been obsessing constantly about this, to the point of what feels like insanity.
Actually seeing this written down makes me think how stupid this is.
I had a similar experience with a different obsession Tally. Where you forget what your exact thought/feeling was at the time and you obsess with trying to remember. I’ve noticed also when it comes to reassurance, once reassured we sometimes have to remind ourselves what the reassurance was. I wonder if some of us with OCD have poorer short term memories: https://www.verywellmind.com/is-ocd-associated-with-memory-problems-2510678
Yeah it’s so tough. But as far as obsessions go, looks like people on here have way worse. So I can be thankful for that. But nevertheless it’s still stressing me out!
Obsession or compulsion? I'm getting so confused. So normally something scary pops into my head and I start thinking about it. And I pull in other things, related things, or make it a lot worse than it it. I can think myself to the point of a panic attack. I thought this was a compulsion, because I can do it for hours and if I'm interrupted I have to start over. But I stop doing it because it does me no good and brings me to panic levels of anxiety. I'm really confused now because I'm starting ERP and the goal of exposure is to get myself really anxious. Well googling and ruminating is what makes me really anxious..... but it's also what I do for hours and can't stop... so.... what do I do? If I obsess and google to the point of a panic attack to "expose" myself then what? I would still just google and obsess. ? If I have the initial thought and just don't ruminate it just goes away and I'm no longer anxious. And that seems way too easy. I can't be doing this right.
A compulsion is supposed to relieve your anxiety/distress, right? Well I don’t feel better after ruminating. I’m just thinking in circles about something scary. Does this mean it isn’t a compulsion? Is it part of obsessing? Or maybe it is a compulsion and I don’t realize that in some ways it is making me feel better? Thoughts? I think this would change how yo respond to rumination, but I’m not sure. Thanks :)
Sometimes I have so much going on in my head at one time - and I have layers of intrusive thoughts one on top of another - all together and sometimes I don't know or remember which one caused my anxiety but I have to go back and solve them or reproduce the feeling that came up so that I can "disregard" it properly. It gets so exhausting because I'm always chasing after random thoughts and feelings all about similar themes - that are constantly getting triggered - by silly things. The fear is - I won't know its ocd unless i go back and solve them. I think this might be a compulsion? Does sitting with the discomfort with this Also work?
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