I had a really bad thought and kind of ignored it because i knew checking would only make it worse but it felt real and I had a thought of "thats what you want" and I am really afraid now. What should I do?

I feel you. I will try to do other things like watch TV or chores or hobbies but it comes back. Especially if i start to feel happy. I start to feel like i shouldn't be happy.

@Fighter SAME when I’m happy and see beautiful woman and realize how could I ever think I was gay I get this thought where it’s like you’re not really happy your not a normal person your a pedophile or it says your gay you don’t get to be happy this is just how your life is and then it gets followed by sadness and misery where I just wish I could die

@Fighter It’s just crazy how so many of us ocd sufferers go through similar thoughts and feelings

@Anonymous Makes me so much less alone but also so sad for everyone ❤ no one deserves this

@Fighter Yeah no one does it’s annoying but think about this and I feel like this really helps if you were gay or a pedophile you would not be stressed by the thought or the arousel basically if whatever you thought caused you distress and uncertainty then it’s most likely not true or what you want at all urges make me believe that I wanna act upon the thoughts but it in reality no it’s just the ocd

@Anonymous Yeah you are right 💗 it is so tough when it feels REAL but I just try to move on bc I have more important thungs to think about

@Fighter Yes and unfortunately for me OCD doesn’t respect that I will be at work we’re having a conversation or even talking about important things and it’s like in one year I’m hearing the person talking in the other it’s just you’re gay you’re gay you’re gay you’re gay like it’s really annoying it feels like it’s a part of you like it’s just you your sexuality or what you like but no we’re all going to get over this like someone said once it’s all about faith and seeing your therapist get the help you need !

@Anonymous Yes hope you are getting help 💗 I hate how OCD twists things and brings up thoughts you don't want all the time :( im so thankful for this community. I think I have had OCD all my life. I see signs from when I was younger and then in my teen years it became less health related and more pure O and I thought I was going insane and I felt so bad for all of the thoughts :( makes me wish I could go back and hug younger me and say it will be okay. Without this platform and my therapist I would be much worse!

@Fighter Yeah I’m glad we have this app to see other people like us were not alone in this ! I hope you find relief with therapist as well !

@Anonymous Thank you! And I am always here if you want to talk about it more! I know how much we sometimes just need to talk to someone

@Fighter Same for you I’m here to hear you out just comment on this post when ever you need me 😘 !

@Anonymous Thank you!

Thats kind of how it has been. If I don't react in the moment with"i hate this let me make sure" then its like oh yiu must like it. And it feels real and I am trying not to figure out but its kind of important

@Fighter Like about 1 hour Ago I had a really gay thought and i like imagined it literally like a movie and I didn’t wanna imagine it and I felt like I was liking the thought because I wasn’t grossed out immediately and it fucking triggered so bad I had to leave where I was at because I felt so disgusted and just like I was gonna pass out

@Anonymous That's tough. I have had hocd too and i hate it. Mine right now is family related and it felt true and i kind of just ignored it but now i feel sick to my stomach