I have been in a severe OCD episode since about July that has only gotten worse each month that goes by. I even did a partial hospitalization program and IOP from August-September. I am starting to feel hopeless. I am at the worst point in my OCD right now and have been have had serious fights with my boyfriend around it that is pushing him further and further away. My OCD targets him and my biggest fear is that I will lose him and my fear is starting to come true. I haven’t heard from him all day following our like 6th fight and I my anxiety is through the roof. I texted/called him like 10 times. Nothing can even distract me I am so worried I feel sick.

Thank you. I’m scared I already pushed him away beyond repair because of how many times I called/texted him.

@Caree If he’s pushed away by your mental health then it’s 1. A lesson for you to manage and work on yourself more so it doesn’t effect those around you 2. He wasn’t the one then. Believe me I’ve been struggling with this since November and it’s the hardest thing I know but i didn’t realize until it was too late how much I was ruining and damaging him by not fixing and working on myself

Thank you so much. This is true. I appreciate you so much for saying this. And I’m sorry to hear that. Sending you love and hope.

@Caree ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Agreed, I feel is supported and not alone. I am thankful for all of you.

Thank you. I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t even know if we’re broken up or not. I’m so scared and sad. It’s the worst feeling.

@Caree No. You haven’t broken up. He must be busy or something. And you shouldn’t call him more. Just relax

@harpreet But there’s a chance he has decided to and I won’t even know. He usually texts me and he hasn’t at all. We almost broke up like 3 times this past month because of my confessing compulsions. I’m afraid this was the final straw. My biggest fear is losing him.

@Caree fight the compulsions . i’m not sure what your theme is , but your boyfriend i understand that it can be hard but the right one will stay trust me . through thick and thin

@LifeIsBeautiful Thank you. My theme is real event/ROCD/perfectionism OCD. My compulsions have been heavy on confessing/ruminating/mental reviewing etc.

@Caree Yes I understand. Its very unsettling feeling right now. You know what I’m kind of going through the same. I just angrily spoke to my girlfriend tonight and she switched off her cell. When my OCD kicked in I wanted to reach her but couldn’t. And it was very unsettling, worrying and frustrating all at the same time. It’s like a cocktail of emotions. PS its like 4am here

@harpreet Thank you for understanding and commenting. I feel alone right now so this helps a little. It’s so difficult being in this boat. I’m sorry you are struggling too.

Thank you so much for this!