I'm going to be honest, I'm really hopeless at this point. I'm 16 and I just feel so defeated. I'm dealing with my worst theme ever and it's lived 7 months. I've had trouble with school (Especially when my current theme started), I've had a hard time doing the things I love, and I feel terrible. I'm worried I'm going to drop out of high school. As I write this my grades are, 68, 71, 28, 29, 32, 70. I'm not sure if I can get accomodations by the school. If anyone can help me out and tell me I live in massachusetts. I didn't see anything really last time I checked. I can't live like this anymore.

I want you to think about your OCD as just OCD, and not its content. View you OCD without consider its content, and tell me, does it makes you uncomfortable or afraid? It's just OCD, it's just a voice that pops up in your mind, but it's not your voice, why? Because it does make you feel anxious, sad, etc. So, since OCD is not us, why should we consider it like if it was us? It's not rational you know? I understand that it is hard to keep in mind things like that, that's why we have to do recovery work, it's important, you can't recover if you don't work. View OCD as a loud neighbor, so as someone who doesn't need your attention, because he is not important

I'd say to talk to a social worker at your school. You don't need a diagnosis to atleast talk with them and open the door. They will always welcome communicating with you. I'm not sure what your situation is with your parents, but you should tell them what's going on so that it can be easier to get accommodations/have an appointment with a doctor to get a diagnosis. A 504/IEP plan can be so helpful where you get accommodations like extended time on tests. I even had an accomodation where I could leave class for 10 minutes no questions asked with a pass so I could calm down when too overwhelmed. l I barely graduated high school, I got a 1.7 and finished my last year in an alternative school. Now I'm 22 with a 3.79 GPA in a community College and transferring to a bigger college in fall. It gets better.

social workers can even reach out to your parents for you / with you so you don't have to do it alone. Support is out there.

For one, be kind to yourself. It's been an extremely hard year for everyone. Also I've been in your position, it does get better! Talk to a school counselor, or tell your parents you feel defeated. I know its hard but communication is important. You arnt your ocd, and your grades. Keep you head up. Life does get better