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- Terminus
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I want you to think about your OCD as just OCD, and not its content. View you OCD without consider its content, and tell me, does it makes you uncomfortable or afraid? It's just OCD, it's just a voice that pops up in your mind, but it's not your voice, why? Because it does make you feel anxious, sad, etc. So, since OCD is not us, why should we consider it like if it was us? It's not rational you know? I understand that it is hard to keep in mind things like that, that's why we have to do recovery work, it's important, you can't recover if you don't work. View OCD as a loud neighbor, so as someone who doesn't need your attention, because he is not important
Thank you fille. That's a good analogy
I'd say to talk to a social worker at your school. You don't need a diagnosis to atleast talk with them and open the door. They will always welcome communicating with you. I'm not sure what your situation is with your parents, but you should tell them what's going on so that it can be easier to get accommodations/have an appointment with a doctor to get a diagnosis. A 504/IEP plan can be so helpful where you get accommodations like extended time on tests. I even had an accomodation where I could leave class for 10 minutes no questions asked with a pass so I could calm down when too overwhelmed. l I barely graduated high school, I got a 1.7 and finished my last year in an alternative school. Now I'm 22 with a 3.79 GPA in a community College and transferring to a bigger college in fall. It gets better.
social workers can even reach out to your parents for you / with you so you don't have to do it alone. Support is out there.
Thank you man that's helpful
For one, be kind to yourself. It's been an extremely hard year for everyone. Also I've been in your position, it does get better! Talk to a school counselor, or tell your parents you feel defeated. I know its hard but communication is important. You arnt your ocd, and your grades. Keep you head up. Life does get better
Thank you :)
Okayed me start off by day I’m not seeking reassurance so don’t give it to me . I just need to know that I’m not alone in this trans theme . This is the second month that I had this theme . It has completely ruined me . I’m not going to lie it has me a bit suicidal I feel like I’m going insane and I feel like I’m a whole different person. Like I just turned into a boy out of nowhere . And it feels very real . And I can’t even look at myself in the mirror anymore without second guessing myself . My brain will either tell me I look like a boy or tell me I am one . I don’t like it . But I feel like I just have to try to deal with it now . Like maybe I am a boy now ? It pains to have to “accept” something like this because I know deep down inside no matter how real it feels , I am Naja Demsyn . But my brain just won’t stop no matter what I do . I stoped the googling , I stopped the compulsions, I’ve tried the sarcasm and it still will not go away . I feel like it’s erasing my entire life . I’ve been a girl for 18 years and never questioned it and did what I enjoyed . I was happy the way I was . I had minor insecurities but I was confident as a girl growing into a woman . I wanted a husband and to be married with kids . I looked up to other woman like Beyoncé and Michelle Obama . I wanted to be like my sisters . I liked doing things like getting my nails and hair done . It made me feel good . And all of that was taken from me . It tells me I hate my body , I hate my face . Can’t stop getting images of myself as a boy . Tells me I’m not really In love with my boyfriend and I never liked boys . It’s told me that I was really like this my entire life . Sometimes it even makes up little scenarios of the past as if I’ve questioned my gender before . This has to be the worst theme that has ever happened to me . I legit can not take it . I feel like I won’t recover from this and I am going to be forced to be something I never wanted to be and live unhappy. And this is where the suicidal thoughts come in . If I can’t be myself than what’s the point of living ? It associates me with Every man I see as if I am there equal . And I’m not and I don’t want to be . And I keep praying that it will go away and nothing works . I don’t know what else to do my options are getting limited I’m getting more depressed and life is getting so much more evil than it was before . Someone please give me some kind of advice at least on how to deal with this or what may happen to me . I’m scared , I’m lonely and I feel like dying .
TW// SUICIDE im gonna be really honest. i am not doing good. this is the worst ocd theme i have ever had. it feels SO real to me. i look at my self in the mirror and mourn the happy girl i used to be before december of 2019 when my ocd first hit. the fact that i will never be the same scares me and haunts me more than anyone can understand. everyday gets harder and harder no matter how much progress i make. i cant afford therapy right now but i need it so badly. i am genuinely in so much pain. i feel so guilty, and ashamed, and sad all the time. i cant focus on school work or anything anymore. i have had thoughts about suicide because i just want some relief. it hurts so much. i love my boyfriend beyond belief. it makes me so angry that ocd would attach to and manipulate something so pure and beautiful to me.
I don’t think this has much to do with obsessions but I would like some help :( I’m 17 years old, very good in school I have a 3.9 GPA. I took the SAT earlier this month and got a score of 980 :/ I also got a 13/24 on the essay and writing is my passion. I’ve been feeling very dumb and useless and I do not want to continue leaving. Any advice?
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