I am feeling like I am invisible, as if I doesnt matter to no one in this world. Never felt like that until yesterday. Its like I am always ignored even though I try my best to chat with people and be nice. I dont know what I am doing wrong. I felt for minutes that if I kill myself no one would noticed and this scared me. Months ago I would still ignore suicide thoughts because of my family and my belief, but now I feel like nothing really matters and looks I am waiting to do it. Sorry for this sad post, I needed to take this out off my chest a bit.

Its strange because some time ago I used to think that being invisible is good and used to feel ok about it, but now I cant uderstand why I thought like that. Its strange. Few weeks ago, while trying to talk to people and be more social, I feel like I am a ghost and people dont notice me. I will try to talk with my sister about this and talk to my doctor next week if I can. I am really apathetic about things, like "whatever". Thanks for replying. I hope we both get better from this

Thanks. I think its because I am scared of talking how I feel or what I think, I am used to hide everything to myself. I gonna try to talk with someone in hope I feel better. Thanks :)

Yes, I am. We talked before, but I dont remember what was about.

@Hopeless :( I don’t remember either. I can relate to feeling uncomfortable talking about how you feel. I struggle with being vulnerable and a lot of times I just deal with my emotions on my own. Sometimes I feel like people will think how I feel is stupid. It could just be me but the feeling is still there. But talking to your sister and your doctor is a really good idea. Are you feeling suicidal?

@Catlady yeah, its hard but sometimes its the only way. I think I will only be able to talk with my doctor about this and I hope I talk to him alone. My sister sometimes doesnt seems to care about me, as she lock herself in her room and only come to talk when she wants. I dont know if I am feeling suicidal. I can say that I am not feeling like acting over it in the moment, but I will be honest (and I will do the same with my doctor) I know a kind of medication used in euthanasia, I guess, and I would need only to know where it sells. This is strange, honestly. I just hope that if I end doing something, that God forgives me.