My OCD is trying to make me think I have a crush on someone I don't have a crush on. Is this even an OCD thing? It feels so real but I hate it!! I tried not giving into rumination about the thoughts or other compulsions but then I felt like it was definitely true 😣

Thank you ❤ i think i may ride my bike. It's calming and good for me to

@Ocdismean Yes!!! Great idea! I hope that will help you! Maybe while you ride your bike you can try to be observant of things around you and colors of things !

@Justmesadly I rode my bike and it was really nice but I am feeling a bit anxious about this obsession. Can I ask you a question about it?

@Ocdismean Yay that’s awesome! Sure but I’m not a therapist so only if you don’t get mad if I can’t answer it and I’m not going to give reassurance Bc a lot of people gave me reassurance and prevented me from getting better ! Go for it!

@Justmesadly Of course! Thanks!! I guess it's just confusing me if its OCD because the person my brain is trying to say i have a crush on is a guy and Im a straight girl so it doesn't make sense. This person liked me though but i didn't have like him so i think my OCD was trying to freak me out and say i really did or something. Idk. Feel free to tell me if you think i am asking for reasurance

@Ocdismean Oh right I have seen you post this before. I personally have no idea if this is ocd or not. I haven’t heard of a theme or topic like that. (Don’t panic I’m not a therapist). This is for sure seeking reassurance though. Have you spoke to a therapist about this or tried to get a diagnosis? That might help you feel better and then you’ll know what you need to do to better this

@Justmesadly Oh. Yeah I have talked to my therapist. I think its ocd because I knew I didn't like him but then my mind was trying to get me to list the reasons all the time. I think bc I felt bad about it. I am really scared it isn't OCD though becuase it isn't a common theme

@Ocdismean So what did your therapist say about it? They should be able to tell you if it’s ocd or not and then an erp to do for it if it is.

@Justmesadly They seemed to think so. But part of me feels like they didn't. I am just so worried about it

@Ocdismean Okay so you’ve been told the answer by a therapist , then I think you’re seeking reassurance which I don’t want to give you because I want you to get better. Did they tell you erp to do for this? That will help you if you practice that maybe everyday a tiny bit

@Justmesadly I guess I don't see why it couldn't be OCD. If someone is afraid they like a girl when they don't and I am afraid I like this boy that I don't even if I am straight

@Justmesadly They did tell me to do ERP. I guess it just is confusing because they almost didn't seem sure which scared me

@Ocdismean Because we are afraid of liking a girl because it’s against what we believe of ourselves , our identity, life dreams, how they have lived our lives up until now. They should have given you erp excerises to do. So you should practice those to help you. If you’re confused or worried about your therapist then it’s best to speak to them directly and honestly. I just spoke to my therapist today about this

@Justmesadly Oh. I didn't mean to offend you! I just meant I don't want to be with this guy so I think my OCD latched onto it kind of how people don't want to be with girls and their OCD latches onto it. Maybe I am wrong and just in denial though :(

@Ocdismean No girl I’m not offended at all ! I’m explaining the difference between ocd attacking you in the sense of liking a gender you’ve never liked or a child verse liking someone of the same gender you’ve always liked. I don’t think there’s anything for you to be in denial about! Maybe you’re just confused if you like him or not! If this is ocd then you should be able to do erp and feel better about It

@Justmesadly Oh okay. I mean I have alwayd liked this gender but I knew I didn't like him. I don't like him. But now I feel like I need to check again :(

@Justmesadly I guess maybe it isn't ocd. I just feel so sad though because I was feeling so good these last few days but now i feel confused all over again

@Ocdismean Checking isn’t going to help. You should speak to your therapist about it and come up with erp to do

@Justmesadly Okay. I will. I just feel like it must be real now and its making me sick :(

@Ocdismean What’s so bad about liking him? What’s going to happened if you do? Nothing I would assume. So tell yourself maybe you do maybe you don’t. And just do a hobby or craft or watch a show, listen to music etc

@Justmesadly I know. Its not like bad if I did. Its just I don't but my mind is making me constantly make sure. I don't even know why :( i guess i will just talk to my therapist

@Ocdismean You can do it. Practice the erp your therapist should be giving you

And you didn't like him? Or at least didn't think so?