I’ve already posted this once but I only got one response so I’d appreciate it if someone could offer some advice :) also possible TW (I mention eating disorders) I’m aware you can get OCD about pretty much anything but I’m wondering if I have OCD about this- I am quite skinny and tbh I’ve not had the best relationship with my body image in the past BUT recently I’ve decided I love my body. I genuinely love how I look and I’m finally happy with my weight and body shape. This is great but I’m also scared that it’s going to change and that I’m going to get fat ( I don’t think there’s anything wrong with being fat, I don’t mean to be hurtful but I guess it’s just an irrational fear of mine). I’m pretty sure I don’t have an eating disorder because I eat all three meals and snacks every day, I don’t want to loose any weight and I rarely restrict but I do weight myself a lot and because I spend a lot of time on tiktok, I’ve become very aware of calories (because it feels like that’s all anyone talks about right now). Basically, I just want to stay at the same weight I am now because I love how I look and I’m scared I’ll randomly gain weight (even though the logical side of me knows this is very unlikely). The reason I think this might be OCD is because I keep getting thoughts telling me that I have an eating disorder or that I’ll get really fat in the future. I try and reason with myself and stay logical but the thoughts don’t stay away for long. If it’s OCD I know it’s pointless trying to reason with it but I’d appreciate it if someone could share their thoughts on whether this might be a theme of OCD so I know how to deal with it instead of answering back to the thoughts. It just feels obsessive and it’s annoying because I love my weight and I want it to stay the same but there’s these thoughts always telling me that I’ve got an ED or I’ll get fat. Thank you for reading all of that, I’m sorry it’s such a long post. I hope it all made sense :)

tahls

Date posted: 4y

It’s just because it’s a long read I think. Ok so: the rumination is probably ocd, but the fact that you do have fears associated with food/weight can indicate disordered relationship with eating/food/body image. I’m no expert so i don’t want to be too specific, just share what I also relate to. Separately, I want to say that it’s such a good step to love your body as is. The next step can be to accept that it will change over time, with age and circumstance. Staying healthy (not just looking healthy) is the ultimate. I’m definitely not there yet, but this is where I currently am.

Clementine

Date posted: 4y

True, it is a long post aha. Thank you for taking the time to read it :) It feels obsessive so I’m going to treat it like OCD but I don’t want to have an eating disorder. I definitely eat enough so I doubt I’ll gain weight randomly cus my body is used to me eating a normal amount but you’re probably right. I need to just accept that if I want to be healthy (mentally and physically) I need to accept that I can’t control my weight all the time. I just love how I look right now for the first time in my life and I don’t want that to go away. I guess it’s just that OCD attacks what you love :( Hope you’re doing well

Clementine

Date posted: 4y

Why is nobody responding 😭

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