i think ive ruined my life genuinely. im a sexual violator/maybe even a molester and so many other horrible things. im so mad at myself. ive fucked myself up so bad so quickly and i cant even do anything else useful.

thanks for the offer man. ive just been having a really shitty time this week for some reason lol. all of my ocd fears center around having hurt someone/something and that im a monster for it and its so scary; every little thing ive done makes me feel horrible. this whole meltdown happened bc ive been really scared that i did something that sexually violated my friends and i couldn't do any work i should have been doing and my mom got mad lmao. sorry for the whole dump haha but seriously thank you

@piiper No need to apologize I completely understand what you’re going through. I had a theme that was a lot like what you described. You’re not a horrible person ocd loves to make us feel that way and it will play many tricks on us to keep us stuck in our heads constantly questioning ourselves and feeling like awful people. But remember you feeling so much distress is already telling you that you aren’t that person. Bad people don’t care to be better and they definitely don’t worry about doing things to harm others. People like me and you with ocd on the other hand, get so worked up over the simple thought that we may do something or even if we think we might already have but what I wanna say to that is the things we may have done in our past might not really be as bad as our brains make it out to be bc when we start to develop this ocd it likes to attatch itself to random memories or thoughts we’ve had that make it make sense to us so we blow it way out of proportion and turn it into something it’s not. I’m really hoping this helps you and maybe gives you some of the clarity you may have needed today. I wish you all the best though and I know you’ll get past this. We’re all in this together <3

@GetOutOfYourHead<3 thank you. i know my brain is probably overreacting big time and its probably not that big but i cant help but feel i violated them so horribly and i feel so gross. the more i even think about it the hazier it gets and it makes part of me think that maybe its a false memory but then i feel horrible for even thinking maybe i didnt do that. idk i just feel so disgusting. thank you for the kind words it seriously means a lot