halespineapple18
- Date posted
- 6y
nlnnoaianlnnoaia
- Date posted
- 6y
Yes I’m trying to learn kickboxing and most of the time I feel really embarrassed and I’m getting anxious if it doesn’t work out perfectly :/
halespineapple18halespineapp...
- Date posted
- 6y
Aw yeah :( I feel you
luciuslucius
- Date posted
- 6y
Yeah I ruminate over past things I've said all the time and it stresses me out really bad.
SoniclenSoniclen
- Date posted
- 6y
You’re onto something here hales. I think there is so much about our thinking process we need to change of which intrusive thoughts are the symptom that send us to therapy. As an example: I had to confide in our IT manager about my condition when he had to have access to my home pc and he saw a document entitled ‘harm ocd script’ lol. He was very understanding but said he reckoned the therapy was working because I no longer got SO stressed out from loosing or playing badly at ping pong. Since giving up, truly giving up the need to be good or impress, my brain is more responsive, relaxed and in the zone so I’m playing better than ever. This is much harder to do with horrid content like ‘what if I’s goes crazies and start buttfucking small girls......OH I’S IMAGINIZINGS IT’ Process is the same though. Fuck fear. Fuck the thoughts it produces. Fuck our avoidance of horrid content. Get back up. Try again, practise being happy ENOUGH with the progress you make. Happy enough. Not happy with some stupid ass bar you set for yourself. One of these days I’m going to write out my worst intrusive thought 100 fucking times in this app and then hope it triggers everyone else. I’m so done being controlled.
luciuslucius
- Date posted
- 6y
Dude I understand your frustration but try to use trigger warnings at least if your going to write this stuff. It might not trigger me (still extremely uncomfortable to read) but it will trigger other people real bad.
SoniclenSoniclen
- Date posted
- 6y
I’m going to reject trigger warnings. Maybe I’m being insensitive but trigger warnings = avoidance = ocd maintenance
SoniclenSoniclen
- Date posted
- 6y
I come across as a right tw@ I know. But I genuinely do it because we need to get triggered. The more you chase triggers the more the brain gets a chance to process and REFILE the information. Every time you interrupt that it can’t do it’s job. Think of it like defragging your hard drive. It has to pull all the files out to rewrite them in sequential order so at the end of it, stuff loads quicker and crashes less. Or even spring cleaning your house. During, it’s a tip. After, it’s organised and fresh.
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