Okay so I just had A HUGE ACCIDENTAL exposure and omg it freaked me out so much. It was something that I never wanted to look at because of my thoughts. I just wanted to start crying but I’m scared and I hated it so much. But what is worse is that I think I got a groinal response and that freaked me out more. I checked and It didn’t look like anything happened down there but I’m doubting that so much. Because even the slightest change or growth down there scares me and makes me worry. But I just wanted to start crying right then and there. I started to sweat as well, at least I think, i wasn’t focused to much on that. But I feel like this is so much proof my thoughts are real and I hate it so much. When will this end. I feel like I cant enjoy life with groinal responses I got with this exposure and past exposures.

Yeah, it was something that I wasn’t expecting. But I just wanted to cry right then and there and it really freaked me out

@Jbgys543 It's ok, I developed a new form of OCD (not theme, just its form) because of an exposure that I did on purpose, and that exposure really did triggered me, so much that like you, I ended up getting worse about my recovery, but that's still OCD, so, don't fall for it! Also, I know that anxiety can make you have a groinal response, did you know that?

@Ambra I’ve had lots of exposures that make everything worse. But I’m scared that the groinal wasn’t caused by anxiety and was just natural

@Jbgys543 But you know that's not natural whenever the cause of that makes you feel really anxious or uncomfortable, why would I get a groinal response for something that makes me feel so bad and sad? I simply wouldn't, it does come the same then that's because of anxiety. With that kind of logic I would start recovery work in a serious way where I truly start to work 🌸

@Ambra Ohhhhhhh, I never thought of it that way! Thank you! :)

@Jbgys543 You're very welcome 🌸

@Ambra That's a great way of looking at that. But then I have aspects of ROCD (without having a relationship), so my mind dissects women, and seeing relationships give me anxiety. Sometimes i wonder if I can manage this at all.

@Jbm421 What do you mean with: "so my mind dissects women"?

@Ambra It tries to find flaws, anything to turn me off. Also, given all my obsessing, I cant feel anything for females sometimes. Its terrible.

@Jbm421 I can imagine, but it still OCD, and OCD is not only a problem about thoughts, it is also a feeling and sensation problem. But it's all a big lie, why I'm so sure about that? Because notice yourself, notice how you feel, to me you don't seem happy or comfortable with that kind of though, because that's not what you want, easy; so, If that's what I don't want to, then, why should I give any importance to that kind of thought? It is nonsense. Also, we tend to forget that OCD is a mental issue and not something which is fine and happy to live with, we have to defeat it simply because it doesn't make feel us happy or fine

Thank you! :) groinals are the definition of hell especially because every time I think of an exposure (like the one I posted about) I get one and omg It makes me hate my groin lol

@Jbgys543 I went through something like that in December. It was dreadful. Just sit with it and let it pass. Try and remember that things aren't always as bad as they seem with this disorder.

@Jbm421 I will definitely try my best to let it pass. Thank you! :)