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@swill297 - thank you for the advice, I've tried that but then I get paranoid about things like pesticides and diseases like E. Coli and Listeria
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@J - thank you so much, I'm also emetophobic so I understand how scary that is. I was misdiagnosed with anorexia originally as I just wouldn't eat, it took them a while to figure out the obsessions behind it and that I was ritualising a lot of other things too. I'd love to talk, not many people understand how scared I am, and think I'm overreacting. Take care
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I have gotten sick once before in the last decade, but it was quite mild. It helped me. That was 3 years ago. 4 days ago was our nightmare. Sick for hours. Actually getting sick. Violently. It was awful. I wanted to die. The next day and the next day and even now I am afraid of everything. I also know that I am alive, the world has a lot to experience, we are stronger than we think and we have to keep going. I am trying to not think about it. Obsess over it (I am, but I am also allowing rational thoughts to penetrate through as well.) This has controlled my Life for a decade... ruined so many things. I am trying (and I fail. I am scared. I am scared it will happen again at any moment. I still am not 100%, but I keep trying to put one foot and one thought in front of the other and no matter how slowly... move past, and forward.) It is just a moment in time. Remember that. A terrible moment, but just a moment.
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Maybe try eating things that don’t have to be cooked I’ve had bouts where my contamination ocd acts up and eating fruit or veggies usually helps until it calms down
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I get it I’ve had those times too hopefully you will be able to eat soon
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Been there... I have struggled with OCD and gastritis for years and also emetophobia. On Sunday, I got violently ill out of nowhere. My nightmare. I can tell you I’m still struggling. But you’re strong. I got down to 118lbs (I’m a 6’1” male) I would only eat like 3 things. ( I am up to 155lbs) You can do this. It sucks, but you’ll Live through it all. I am freaked out about everything at the moment. What comes next? But, I ran towards something I couldn’t stop. If you need help, I’m here to talk. We have to find ways through this fear and thoughts. We can do that together in this community. In my thoughts stuck in bed.
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@tigerlia I’m sorry to hear that, and I understand. We should absolutely talk. Hang in there! You’re not alone.
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I on the other hand don’t have that kind of ocd, but when I’m feeling too anxious I can’t eat at all, so I can only imagine what you’re going through. You are strong! Take care ?
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@J how did you deal with getting sick, any tips? Also an emetophobic and it's hard to eat.
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@J thank you for sharing your story, very helpful. Stay strong!
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Recently, I’ve been struggling a ton with what I eat/put into my body? I’m a first year college student with a few different health issues (including IBS), and lately it’s been hard for me to find food on campus that doesn’t upset my stomach. I also have pretty severe emetophobia, and feel extremely anxious when I feel sick. The ironic thing is that being anxious makes me feel even worse, so I end up sticking myself in an impossible loophole. My OCD has taken hold of these fears over the past few months, and it’s been such a struggle. Especially since people have been getting food poisoning from various dining halls on my campus lately. My OCD has gotten so bad that sometimes I’m too afraid to eat food other than what I buy myself. I feel so trapped. I don’t want my OCD to affect my physical health or prevent me from eating, bc I love eating!! It’s the fear of getting sick that’s the problem. And it’s even harder when everything is so unfamiliar. Just wondering if anyone could relate. Advice is appreciated!
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venting cause im tired of this: sorry for yelling it’s for emphasis, HAVE ANY OF MY FREAKOUTS CAUSED BY OCD ACTUALLY HELPED ME?? PROBABLY NOT? (no seriously they havnt this is exposure therapy now I ain’t reassuring myself) HAVE THEY MADE ME SLEEP DEPRIVED? YES HAVE THEY MADE MY HANDS CRACK AND BLEED FOR YEARS? YES (ouch currently can’t even move my hands without them cracking open) HAVE THEY MADE ME TAKE WAY TO MANY SHOWERS TO THE POINT MY HAIR IS LIKE STRAW? YES HAVE THEY MADE ME LOST WITHIN MY SELF AND RUIN RELATIONSHIPS? YES :( HAVE THEY MADE ME AVOID AREAS OF MY NICE HOME? YES (double sucks cause i only moved late last year) legit in the last couple of months i thought i had could have tetanus, insecticide poisoning, mould in my hair and bed, that somehow bleach and alcohol or ammonia got mixed and i made a toxic gas (I don’t even own bleach etc) thrown out towels and clothes and so so much more. just wtf is ocd, why? Why does it do this?? Surely people without ocd are just wondering what they’ll have for lunch or something?? NOT OMG ITS GOT MOULD ITS SPREAD EVERYWHERE. I’m so tired, just want to live life without being terrified all the time. Please join in with what you’re over with when it comes to OCD, it’s good to vent sometimes.
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I have contamination ocd, and one of my compulsions is avoiding eating non-cooked food prepared by other people. I had a session with my family to plan accommodation reduction two months ago, and this compulsion was on there but we decided to focus on other accommodations first. Tonight my mom made fresh food (totally fine), but acted very offended and angry when I couldn’t eat it. I get where she’s coming from, she worked hard on the meal and it sucks that I couldn’t make myself eat it. But it also sucks that she knows this is a compulsion and can’t be understanding. Maybe I need to explain this compulsion to her better? In the family session we talked about the compulsion but not about the specific underlying obsessive thought (today my mom specifically said that I had to explain why I wasn’t eating and I didn’t). I’m really sad that OCD is affecting my relationship with her in this way.
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