Can't eat cos Contamination OCD says that nothing has been cooked correctly and I end up burning everything I cook. Fml I'm hungry, sorry I'm just done with this illness. I don't want to get sick by eating something but screw it, I haven't eaten in two days you know? Rant over, take care guys :)

@swill297 - thank you for the advice, I've tried that but then I get paranoid about things like pesticides and diseases like E. Coli and Listeria

@J - thank you so much, I'm also emetophobic so I understand how scary that is. I was misdiagnosed with anorexia originally as I just wouldn't eat, it took them a while to figure out the obsessions behind it and that I was ritualising a lot of other things too. I'd love to talk, not many people understand how scared I am, and think I'm overreacting. Take care

I have gotten sick once before in the last decade, but it was quite mild. It helped me. That was 3 years ago. 4 days ago was our nightmare. Sick for hours. Actually getting sick. Violently. It was awful. I wanted to die. The next day and the next day and even now I am afraid of everything. I also know that I am alive, the world has a lot to experience, we are stronger than we think and we have to keep going. I am trying to not think about it. Obsess over it (I am, but I am also allowing rational thoughts to penetrate through as well.) This has controlled my Life for a decade... ruined so many things. I am trying (and I fail. I am scared. I am scared it will happen again at any moment. I still am not 100%, but I keep trying to put one foot and one thought in front of the other and no matter how slowly... move past, and forward.) It is just a moment in time. Remember that. A terrible moment, but just a moment.

Maybe try eating things that don’t have to be cooked I’ve had bouts where my contamination ocd acts up and eating fruit or veggies usually helps until it calms down

I get it I’ve had those times too hopefully you will be able to eat soon

Been there... I have struggled with OCD and gastritis for years and also emetophobia. On Sunday, I got violently ill out of nowhere. My nightmare. I can tell you I’m still struggling. But you’re strong. I got down to 118lbs (I’m a 6’1” male) I would only eat like 3 things. ( I am up to 155lbs) You can do this. It sucks, but you’ll Live through it all. I am freaked out about everything at the moment. What comes next? But, I ran towards something I couldn’t stop. If you need help, I’m here to talk. We have to find ways through this fear and thoughts. We can do that together in this community. In my thoughts stuck in bed.

@tigerlia I’m sorry to hear that, and I understand. We should absolutely talk. Hang in there! You’re not alone.

I on the other hand don’t have that kind of ocd, but when I’m feeling too anxious I can’t eat at all, so I can only imagine what you’re going through. You are strong! Take care ?

@J how did you deal with getting sick, any tips? Also an emetophobic and it's hard to eat.

@J thank you for sharing your story, very helpful. Stay strong!