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- Pink Dinosaur
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- 5y ago
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- nlnnoaianlnnoaia
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yes absolutely! Constantly! Sometimes it’s so bad that whenever someone is saying something like „We’re all in this together let’s beat this illness“ or something like this I feel like I am a faker/liar and not someone who’s meant/deserves such sentences and being a sufferer from OCD. Really wears me out sometimes. Moreover I have thoughts like I enjoy having OCD and wanting it, not wanting it to go away, mostly after reading about people who want it to go away. It makes me feel so confused and bad.
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- nlnnoaianlnnoaia
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@Eden :) yes I can relate oh my god I have had thoughts like this and feeling so guilty like everyone wants it to go away but I have thoughts of enjoying it even tho I definitely DONT
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- garden garden
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I HAVE EXACTLY THAT! The way that I found out about harm OCD (my first ever theme) was through an article which then made me think I had it. And so I feel like if I hadn’t seen that, then I would never have naturally developed those intrusive thoughts.
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- garden garden
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I always question it!
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- garden garden
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I also have a thing about enjoying it, because I feel like even though it sucks, my life would feel empty without it.
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Im glad im not the only one then because lately the depression has kicked in harder and i constantly think like what it i grow to like this and then i get scared and say no thats not who i am.... a lot. And then ill question but what if i dont have ocd its so dumb how ocd plays its game
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- garden garden
- Date posted
- 5y ago
It’s so hard. I hope you get the recovery you deserve.
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I do this a lot as well, i look up symtoms and take test to make sure that is ocd and not me losing my mind
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- nlnnoaianlnnoaia
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I also did a lot of tests and tell my therapist nearly every week about my doubts. Some issue I’m struggling with is that I’m afraid I develop certain OCD themes because I read about them and that I’m not really suffering from them. For example I read about ROCD and at first I thought „nah i don’t have these symptoms.“ but now it seems that I developed them and I am trying to refer certain situations from the time before I had heard about ROCD to ROCD. Makes it worse because I feel like I am using it as an excuse for my thoughts/feelings etc. And makes me think I’m faking OCD.
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
You guys too thank you!! I itsnhard now but im hooping soon it wont be
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- Sully0421
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Does anyone else ever get obsessions where you worry that your OCD isn’t real or isn’t bad enough to be OCD?
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- zeep
- Date posted
- 4y ago
does anyone else worry that some of their ocd symptoms/ proof of your ocd are invalid because they already knew about their ocd theme, and maybe they copied other people with the same theme and have now adopted other peoples experiences and mimicked them? so they don’t really have ocd, they just convinced themselves that they do and subconsciously copied other peoples compulsions and thoughts? because i’m undiagnosed and i have some symptoms of ocd before i found out about soocd, but after i started researching it, what if i subconsciously copied other people to convince myself i had ocd.
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- ellphe
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Feeling like I’m not worried enough
I’m at the stage where I’m doubting if I even have OCD (which is driving me mad) and now I’m worried I’m not obsessing enough over things. At the same time, my OCD is playing whack-a-mole with loads of different themes, and because I’ve already been through the ringer with SO-OCD, I feel as though I’m not obsessing enough over it even though I’m still scared I’m gay/bi and the compulsions are getting sneakier (internet searches, checking, panicking and talking about things, avoidance) and I just feel like a mess constantly, like I don’t know what’s going on with me from day to day.
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