Pink Dinosaur
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- 6y
nlnnoaianlnnoaia
- Date posted
- 6y
Yes absolutely! Constantly! Sometimes it’s so bad that whenever someone is saying something like „We’re all in this together let’s beat this illness“ or something like this I feel like I am a faker/liar and not someone who’s meant/deserves such sentences and being a sufferer from OCD. Really wears me out sometimes. Moreover I have thoughts like I enjoy having OCD and wanting it, not wanting it to go away, mostly after reading about people who want it to go away. It makes me feel so confused and bad.
nlnnoaianlnnoaia
- Date posted
- 6y
@Eden :) yes I can relate oh my god I have had thoughts like this and feeling so guilty like everyone wants it to go away but I have thoughts of enjoying it even tho I definitely DONT
garden garden
- Date posted
- 6y
I HAVE EXACTLY THAT! The way that I found out about harm OCD (my first ever theme) was through an article which then made me think I had it. And so I feel like if I hadn’t seen that, then I would never have naturally developed those intrusive thoughts.
garden garden
- Date posted
- 6y
I always question it!
garden garden
- Date posted
- 6y
I also have a thing about enjoying it, because I feel like even though it sucks, my life would feel empty without it.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 6y
Im glad im not the only one then because lately the depression has kicked in harder and i constantly think like what it i grow to like this and then i get scared and say no thats not who i am.... a lot. And then ill question but what if i dont have ocd its so dumb how ocd plays its game
garden garden
- Date posted
- 6y
It’s so hard. I hope you get the recovery you deserve.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 6y
I do this a lot as well, i look up symtoms and take test to make sure that is ocd and not me losing my mind
nlnnoaianlnnoaia
- Date posted
- 6y
I also did a lot of tests and tell my therapist nearly every week about my doubts. Some issue I’m struggling with is that I’m afraid I develop certain OCD themes because I read about them and that I’m not really suffering from them. For example I read about ROCD and at first I thought „nah i don’t have these symptoms.“ but now it seems that I developed them and I am trying to refer certain situations from the time before I had heard about ROCD to ROCD. Makes it worse because I feel like I am using it as an excuse for my thoughts/feelings etc. And makes me think I’m faking OCD.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 6y
You guys too thank you!! I itsnhard now but im hooping soon it wont be
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