i’m scared again that i’m attracted to my own body. when i watch porn, i tend to watch things with quite sexualised women (tmi maybe) and i guess i *sort of* have similar bodies to them in terms of boobs and stuff. i don’t mean that in a vain way... i don’t even like my body. but just factually, i have big boobs. and big boobs turn me on. so does my own body turn me on?? as much as i question my sexuality obsessively, enough research and reassurance has taught me that being turned on by big boobs doesn’t necessarily make me bi or gay. big boobs are a sexual stimuli! so the fear of being turned on by my own body comes down to the fear of being a narcissist / egomaniac. like it’d be so self-absorbed to be turned on by my own body. but i keep trying to rationalise it and remind myself that if i have the body parts that are considered sexual, then i am a sort of sexual stimuli. for myself even? argh i’m not even sure how to explain it but yeah. i’ve never like looked in the mirror and gotten turned on or thought of myself like that. it’s just i could imagine it i guess. but maybe not.

Hey. I don't know how much of a help my comment will be but I thought I will express something that helps me with my obessions. Stop watching porn or at least limit it to very, very little if you can't help it (you will get over it at some point). Dipping yourself in the waters of your obessions is not good for the brain. You might say that watching porn is something normal, a need but it is really not. Not trying to shame though. Just trying to say that it does have an effect on your mind. And I don't think that it is a good one. And liking your body is something very good, many struggle with exactly the opposite. Don't be concerned. Just don't think about it, push it away. And maybe enjoy some cold can of soda :)

I am not gonna give any good advice cause I don’t know what to say I have HOCD so I can relate to you on that level but have you tried therapy and maybe you get turned on by it cause it’s what you want and you want your partner to like that about you

Well, everyone is attracted to their body in one way, not in you want to have intercourse with someone of the same body. Its like the motives of someone saying "Damn im hot" Thàt being, you know your attractive, which also means you find yourself attractive.

I don't think it's that much of a bad thing to consider yourself attractive because that could be considered high confidence. Not a bad thing at all. However, I think you should stop watching porn or at the very least cut down on it. Porn could be the reason why you may think your own body turns you on, due to big breasts in general. I'm not even saying that it's bad for a straight woman to find big boobs attractive since they are a sexual body part for most people. I'm just saying that this could possible be a porn induced attraction and not something that came about naturally, and cutting off porn could make that attraction either decrease greatly or disappear completely. You finding your own breasts attractive shouldn't be a bad thing since I feel this way about my genitals. I just think it's a form of confidence and there isn't a problem with loving your body.

I thought it was normal to be attracted to ur own body

This has been bugging me a lot

I totally understand