Omg help. I felt like for a brief second I liked my thoughts. And now I feel like they’re convincing me, I’m so scared I don’t know what’s going on.

Are u sure? I feel like I’m gonna act on them, or I feel like I like them omg help

@Anonymous Your brain is just messing with you. You have to not give into the tricks it's playing with you.

@PRYM Yes omg it’s never felt this real, but ig it is my mind messing with me

@Anonymous Yeah sometimes it can feel super real. The mind is so powerful. But look how much you're resisting it, how much anxiety it gives you. This is not something we'd usually associate with true sexual desire. I'll try not to give you too much reassurance because that's what keeps this going. What I do to help is practice mindfulness and loving-kindness meditation. It's fairly similar to ERP and ACT. All you gotta do for mindfulness is just pay attention to whats going on. You can start from your feet and slowly move up till you get to your mind. When the thoughts come, don't shame them, try to stop the feelings, just let it come and pay attention to the thoughts and how your body feels in response. Are you tense? Breathing rapidly, sweating? What's happening in your body? Next you go through the body just like before with mindfulness but with loving kindness you think to that body part, "arm I love you so much, you do so much for me, you puck up things I need, help me do the tasks I need, you deserve to relax." You do this with each part until you get to your mind. Then you do the same, sometimes your mind will immediately calm down, sometimes it will resist. If it resists ask your mind why are you resisting? See what thoughts, feelings, memories, urges come up then try to address them with love and kindness. I know it sounds silly but it really helps! Can't say it cures but it definitely helps.

@PRYM Thank you so much!! I will try that out!! The worst part is that my thoughts are not sexual they’re violent, and I felt like I liked/agreed the thought for a brief second, I’m starting to feel like I’m really my thoughts damn it. I feel terrible rn, maybe I’m in denial.. I want to cry so I make sure I don’t like any of this

@Anonymous You don't have to like them, you just have to love them. Think of it this way, people might not like when their kid is acting up throwing a fit but they still love their child, just not what they're doing. But even when children are acting out they usually do it because they want attention, they want to feel loved and cared for. Your mind wants to as well! Your mind misses you, it wants you to acknowledge it and sometimes if you only respond when it's throwing a fit, it learns that's the way to get your attention.

@PRYM Makes sense, is that true? I hope my brain is working that way, bc I just hate how real it feels

@Anonymous Well it's just how I approach it. I incorporate a lot of buddhism because it's helpful and this is how they address issues like intrusive thoughts. At least in my use of these concepts it helps. There are some secular psychologists that are using some of these concepts because they see it works so really just depends who you ask. But if you approach it like that and it works and you can find some peace then I think it's helpful :)

@PRYM Thank you so much!! Very helpful tips, u are so nice :)

@Anonymous You're welcome! I just know how miserable intrusive thoughts are, especially when you're at the point you think they're true and the urges are strong. It's so scary! I wouldn't want anyone to go through that.

@PRYM Yes it’s so scary!! And all the doubts that come along, it sucks so much. I was having a good day but then I got scared I didn’t have OCD bc I was feeling better. Turns out I’m feeling like crap again. Worst thing ever, it sucks we’re all going through this

@Anonymous Yeah relapses happen. Just something you have to accept can happen. But if you stay as relaxed as you can and just let it come and go and continue doing the things in life you want, it helps a lot.

@PRYM Thank u so much :)

@Anonymous You're welcome! :)

Thank u:( but I actually felt like I liked the thought, like I agreed, not like I had less anxiety omg 😭😭

Really? Omg I’m glad I’m not the only one, but I’m sorry u got it too. Yes omg it felt so real like a desire, but it was a brief second, it fucked me up so bad, I thought : omg no! I am really like that! And it made me so uncomfortable and confused... and I feel like I’m in denial damn it, idk how to make sure this is not what I want :(