guys this is so cruel and i feel so bad for this, but i blocked my boyfriend from messaging me. (besides the cruelty of it i want your input as to how you think it could help). my rationale was that each day as of now is just a day of brain fog, tears, stress and hopes i could just have that one hour of bliss on the phone with him. but.. am i wrong for thinking it’s not healthy to depend on someone emotionally like that? he insists that we need people for connection, and while i agree, i think ive really been using him for emotional dependency. i feel like i just need to cut off my expectations of him giving me happiness. am i wrong in doing this? should i have gone about this a different way? god i hope i havent gone crazy

Help, my new bf just went away for the weekend. We talked for hours yesterday, and today he texted me 7 hours ago. I haven’t heard from him since then. In these 7 hours my brain has gone from normal content about him— to my heart racing thinking about how we probably actually doesn’t even like me that much/maybe he’s cheating/he has all these character flaws I ignored beside/writing breakup texts to send because I can’t stand to see him tomorrow anymore. I can’t stand my brain!!! I can’t tell if these thoughts are real or just my nightly ruminations where I always think everyone hates me and is trying to leave me secretly.

Hey everyone, I’m hoping someone can help. Long story short, I have a childhood friend who in HS we became romantically interested in each other, loved each other and then over the years it was to painful because we couldn’t be together because of religious reasons. I blocked him because of the pain, and then we would run into each other a lot and I would block and unblock him as we reconnected over the past 5 years. Well I unblocked him, and we reconnected again - just as friends, but emotionally every time I unblock I feel like I’m a mess. Like I have the obsessive thinking about him and I just feel emotionally tied down even though we are not together. It then makes me want to block him again (which I don’t want to do bc I know that’s messed up), but idk how to just have my brain realize it’s okay we are just friends. Idk if this even makes sense, my brain just feels so black and white and it’s so anxious.

so back in july i made a mistake of going behind my partner’s back and hanging out with an old guy friend (who i had a romantic past with) and while i was hanging out with him i had a great time but man my thoughts were going crazy. i found him attractive, funny, etc. i’ve known him for years and everytime we would talk i felt there was some type of tension. like romantic or something. well i felt it again when we hung out and immediately regretted it because i know i love my boyfriend a lot and i felt like a horrible person for doing something like that. i couldn’t hide it from him any longer than i did (not even 3 days) so i told him and he got really upset. at the time i didn’t know what i want, either my boyfriend or that friend. i decided to stay with my boyfriend and ever since i’ve been getting crazy intrusive thoughts about my old friend (i blocked him so i don’t have contact with him). a few months later (now) i know that i want and love my boyfriend, i don’t want to be with anyone else. but i’ve been getting so many intrusive thoughts about that guy and seeing certain posts just remind me of him even when i don’t want them to. then my brain starts to spiral - ‘what if you actually want to be with him instead and you’re just in denial right now’ or something like ‘you dont love your boyfriend, if you did you wouldnt be having these thoughts’ and i’m just so..drained. i’m so tired of thinking about this guy, i seriously don’t want to think about him. i just want to be happy with my boyfriend. i keep telling myself i know what i want, because i do. i want to be with my bf and i want to be happy with him…i love him so much. but my brain just tries to tell me otherwise. i know i messed up and i’m paying the price for it. maybe i do deserve this. i just wish i could erase everything, my past, etc. and just move on. my boyfriend doesn’t hold what i did against me but he’s well aware of what happened and i know how it made him feel. i would do anything to take it back because he doesn’t deserve that, he never did. and i seriously want to be better for him. but these constant thoughts i get are always getting in the way and almost making me feel hopeless. i haven’t told my bf about these thoughts because i’m worried he would take it the wrong way. i really don’t think i should tell him because i know for a fact it would send us both down a spiral and i don’t want that. but, ocd will always try to get what it wants. anyone else going through something similar? some common humanity would probably ease my mind a bit. (in a non-compulsive way. or maybe this is a compulsion. idk.)