Hi all. Just wondering, I guess it's anxiety, who of you have experienced just a sudden feeling of fear for no apparent reason, like this uneasy feeling like you're scared but there's no reason and then your mind starts racing and searches for why you feel like this and all kind of bizzare stuff pops up. ?

Everyone suffering from OCD have felt this at least once.

I can even predict when it'll come sometimes

I know when I feel anxious or when I feel sad or worried about something it sometimes hits me out of the blue. Especially when I'm alone theb my mind just wanders off

Many times I can’t even count them

Unfortunatly it doesn't help us at all to focus in what we lost in the past, it's what we do today in the present that counts. :)

That’s right, I’m afraid to get in a relationship now, maybe I’m afraid my ocd will go back specially this kind of ocd , I’m afraid I will have the same bad thoughts and lake of trust in the past, that’s makes it harder to me to have new relationship

I used to be sociable person athletic funny no matter how much people compliment me i still have insecurities and I’m afraid to be cheated on for no obvious reason , my mind didn’t stop thinking sometimes I just want my mind just stop working so I can have calmness and enjoy life

Haha yeah I guess it's anxiety and stress. I just don't understand the bizarre contents of my thoughts.

You all get bizzare thoughts with it?

Can you give an example?

Like things that aren't possible in reality or that aren't part of your current reality...

Okay ,my situation is worse cause my thoughts could happened in reality so it’s more harder for me to resist thinking about it and worrying that it could happen one day

Totally get that, my ocd started like that aswell, but eventually because I didn't control it it started to develop into if I have anxiety or whatever I can get borderline psycotic. I guess if a person worry about anything actually that has no proof that it will happen or whatever it constitutes as a delusion.

I’m getting better now but I’m afraid getting better will make me realize how much time I wasted and how much people i lost because of my thinking and anxiety that’s what scares me the most

It’s like looking back and see the aches of your life and regretting that you didn’t stopped the fire earlier when it was just spark

The people who stuck by you are the people that matter. Those who didn't aren't really worth your time. A mental illness is the same as any other illness and anyone who push you away for a mental illness can do the same with some other illness. I know how you feel but remember it's not important how much time you wasted, i went through a rough patch for 6 months a few years ago, it's about what you learn during those times. You will never get those times back, everything you missed, but that's why it's always important to even on your harderst day still get a thought, accept it and MOVE ON... go about your day as normal

@lano92 I am scared about thinking of the time I wasted to depression and OCD as well. Sometimes I don't even want to think about it.

My OCD was cheating thoughts and lake of trust in people, i lost my love because my anxiety and anger about these thoughts I heart my partner alot , this person tried to understand and stay with me but I kept push her away and heart her more, and every time I promise I will get better I broke my promise , she was the only person who stand by me and i lost her and I can’t fix it anymore

My mom suffered also from my anxiety but I’m trying to make it up for her as much as I can now

@dalisay Thanks for this advice I will try my best to enjoy the moment and don’t think about what I lost in the bast

And I am sorry you lost someone you love so much because of ocd, it's difficult to be in a relationship with someone in general, put ocd with it and it's extremely difficult, my fiancé had his fair share... but I told him when we met, I have this and either he will have to accept it as a part of me or it won't work, 2 years later and although he got super frustrated in the beginning, today he stands by me. You will find someone who commits to not only good days, but bad days too

Specially because I live in a part of the world that have a lake of knowledge and education about a mental health illnesses

I have lack of trust aswell, it's a bit ocd and a bit insecurity, something to work on...

I’m afraid also to hurt more people because of my thoughts

Oh man, insecurities can skrew a relationship hey. I've been there and the ocd makes it worse. Suspiciousness etc... my fianceé has a baby mama aswell, so yeah I have to deal with this woman permanently... I had insecurities, until one day it just dawned on me... what the hell am I doing comparing myself to someone else... I am me... either someone loves me for me or they can move on.

Never let insecurities break you down. You are worthy!