Hey guys I just wanted to share something with you, please read I'm a 15 year old guy suffering from HOCD and it just doesn't seem to go away. It feels like everything is so real and my life was just a lie upto this point. I am starting to believe that my attraction to girls was false and I am actually attracted to men. Idk up till I was 14 I was attracted to girls but now I feel that during puberty my real sexuality is emerging. Now these thoughts are becoming increasingly annoying and these thoughts are starting to affect my personal life. My relationship with my parents is getting bad and these thoughts are starting to have bad effects on my studies and school life. It feels really bad and just doesn't seem to go away. I can't tell you how many hours of my life have been wasted thinking about these thoughts. This was just my rant and if anyone read till the end thanks a lot for reading this and I hope everyone here becomes free of their ocd and I pray that your ocd will vanish and you will start living a healthy life again. Thanks for reading.

I’m dealing with the same thing, anyone else’s libido messed up as well?

yes @JM1998 everything is messed up with HOCD

I understand. I waste hours a day just thinking about useless shit and moping over myself. There’s no light at the end of the tunnel for me so far, it’s been like 5 years since I’ve had OCD, and 1 year since I had depression.

I'm a 17 yr old girl who is bisexual, and let me tell you, feeling anxiety and disgust when you think about being with the same sex definitely means you aren't gay-- unless you grew up in a religious household like me, but even then, you always know throughout your life that the attraction is there. It isn't something that springs up on you and destroys your life with agonizing thoughts and images. Accept uncertainty, don't push your thoughts away. I know they hurt and it's so hard to make them go away but there's no way to actually have them disappear. Sexuality is complicated, you're always going to find a way to make yourself believe in the obsessions more and more through every article and story but focus on yourself, and who you are. Make peace with your thoughts by accepting them. And if you haven't already, try and see a therapist to work on erp. I wish you the best of luck, sorry if my words aren't helpful, I haven't dealt with this type of obsession before, just pocd ? stay strong

I totally understand what you are going through. I am a 17 year old girl who has liked guys her whole life. I hate HOCD, but it will always feel real. just keep on pushing through and one day things will be better

One thing g that helped me when I was younger and this was my theme back then was if I fear it, it isnt true. I feared for a while that i was going to be one and I thought I liked girls and the realization came to me that I was scared that I would be. If I'm afraid of it.. why would I be? Idk if this helps but I hope it does!

Thank you so much everyone for all of your kind words??❤❤