TW I just learned a few minutes ago that searching the phrase “child pornography” on google can get you arrested because it can go into your browsers cache and then it’s considered possession of child pornography. Now I’m terrified because I’ve searched that a lot recently on a ocd compulsion binge especially since my ocd has turned to sexual taboo stuff. I never searched it to actually see anything. I think child pornography is awful. I just felt like that was the only way to get rid of the feeling of anxiety.

I don’t know but it’s still scary

People that search it up and like it ought to be getting arrested now actually. But I think it depends on how much someone searched it, videos they've made, downloaded or upload also come into play. It just has to be insanely intentional. I also think people get away with it a lot if it's fictional even if they mean it a lot. Unfortunately there is a demand for it. I just try to stay away from all kinds of porn now even if I get shitty about porn that I worry about in the past.

Mine was cartoons as well, at a young age and a false memory of it. I'm not watching it anymore and won't go back. I even saw that same shit on Instagram being made as a joke so who knows honestly. What you did was the same thing this other OCD sufferer did. She searched the two words fully (don't even want to type that gross shit to be honest) just to prove that she wasn't attracted to it but quickly realized that her searching it at all was pretty bad. Listen man... Please stop the googling. It isn't going to help you and it can create situations like this that will make you worry. Googling compulsions are NEVER worth it. If you have to do compulsions, even if you know you don't want to, try to only do it here maybe and nowhere else. But still, try not to google or check at all. Especially checking. NEVER CHECK EVER.

Oh sorry, CJX. Disregard the rest of that, it was for OP. I forgot I was responding to you

@BigGip09 Thank you for responding. I’m trying to resist compulsions abs move past ocd. I’ve started medication to help with it and I started a new job. Ocds favorite thing to do lately is convince me I’m gonna get arrested for everything especially the googling that I try not to do. It’s like ocd says “ oh that wasn’t in privet mode you’re so screw!” Or “ dude you googled that? You’re gonna go to jail”. I constantly try to ignore it because I know ocd is like the devil on my shoulder.

@Rhys34 Yeah I have the same problems I feel you. It's best just to disregard

@BigGip09 You’re right. I have to get better at listening to the rational realistic side of my brain not the side that likes to make shit up