False memories and past event obsessions are making me feel so isolated. Like I can't relate to the talks about needing to accept that bad things could happen because I feel like I've already ruined my life by accident and I cannot trust anyone because of false memories and I suppressed my dark side/personality disorders. I know you all cannot really reassure but is anyone else out there in this situation?

I have false memories too. I think that a lot of people struggle with this but it’s not the majority of ocd most people have intrusive thoughts and compulsions. For me a lot of my compulsions is based on false memories. Please don’t despair there is treatment for this as well. I’m receiving treatment right now and medication has helped me a lot. May I ask what theme you have? Mine is pocd and it feels like the worst but I know others can be very hard as well

I have false memories

Hales I know exactly what you are going though. It’s horrible, but it’s improving!

So sorry ?? well I’m really new into therapy right now I’m just tracking my thoughts/ compulsions but it has been super relieving just to be able to talk to somebody about my false memories (hope they are false) and fears. I definitely recommend therapy xx

I have false memories and recently they made me believe that I sexually molested someone.

Thanks halespineapple I started therapy. Jelpk that sounds horrible I'm sorry

Was it therapy that helped? I'm just confused how false memories are treated and what if my therapist believes them.

Also your therapist isn’t going to believe them. False memories is a key part of ocd and can seem so real. If you knew they were real you wouldn’t be on this app you wouldn’t be checking to see if they were real or ruminating about them. You would trying to figure out how to deal with the consequences. That is what I tell myself anyway and some days I’m not sure if my memories are real or not. Your therapist can’t tell you whether or not they think your memories are real or not because that would be reassurance but they can “normalize” your behaviors and let you know what they consider is behavior characteristic of ocd and false memories are

Yeah I know trauma can play a role but not always. My ocd has tried to tell me I’ve been abused but i know I haven’t. Some non ocd specialists try to do talk therapy and convince sufferers they’ve been abused and it’s causing their ocd but it’s not always the case. In any case, ruminating is always a futile search :) Best wishes to you!

Thanks everyone. Halespineapple I have harm, pocd and sometimes afraid I'm attracted to or done things with family members. It kind of jumps around and gets confusing. Harm was the main one for a long time

Also did therapy help? I'm thinking of trying meds but SSRIs made me worse because turns out I probably have bipolar also

Rollt1805 sorry you have them too

Thanks Pluto, it’s getting better slowly❤️

My fear exactly jelpk

I believe you can like write scripts about your worst feared false memory and you exposure yourself to that fear. It’s called ERP. Also most ocd specialists will teach your acceptance commitment therapy which is accepting your fears. I know that sounds crazy but you have to accept- ok maybe I did that maybe I didn’t and it’s the only way to move forward. The phrase “confidence over certainty” really helps me. Like I don’t know for certain that I didn’t harm a child, but I’m choosing the confidence that I didn’t because I don’t want to do that and I don’t think I’m capable of such an act. I’m not certain of that but I’m confident that I wouldn’t have the guts to do it.

Thanks this helps! I'm doing ACT but not ERP yet so I'll talk to her about that. My therapist thinks I might have trauma which may be true, but now I'm ruminating about that and having fears that aren't true about that. OCD is so tricky like that.