can someone help me with my post from 6 hours ago please. just please.

Just looked it up , you might be depressed. I would look forward to an event but my ocd gave me so much anxiety and got me depressed I couldn’t really enjoy anything.

that sounds like it makes sense! i know plenty of people who have depression who can enjoy it though, i suppose it’s different for everyone?

yeah once u start treating your depression it’s easier to start enjoying things again. But u also need to start with ur ocd and anxiety as well.

the anticipation felt better imagining it. that was so weird.

To be honest with you I don't think it's depression. Your mind was preoccupied with your OCD. Your mind was busy. When you're doing a math test it's kind of hard to enjoy a movie right? Why? Because your mind is preoccupied with the OCD thoughts and they concern you. They cause stress. Of course you wouldn't enjoy the concert that much your mind was still thinking about those thoughts. And then you got obsessed about not enjoying the concert

i think the last part might be right. however i wasn’t actually obsessing when i got there, and an hour before i managed to get over the thoughts and feelings. but i think from there onwards i was obsessing about the obsessions having ruined my excitement, which i guess had something to do with me not being excited. it could be that with a mixture of that’s just the way i reacted? idk, even if OCD was in my face i don’t think that would’ve ruined my excitement, reflecting back on it.

i just keep thinking there’s something wrong with me for not reacting the way i planned. i thought it was going to be so amazing, and whilst it was, my reaction to when they came out was underwhelming, and maybe me overanalysing it is an obsession in and of itself. who knows.

it’s also not that i didn’t enjoy it so don’t get that confused - i did. i just didn’t react with an overwhelming feeling like i planned and i thought there was something wrong with me when i was super chill when they came out.