How did you guys realize you had ocd or something else than just anxiety going on? Like what was your discovery For me I always knew my anxiety was very different than what my peers were experiencing and in general just knew something was a bit off with myself, I was afraid to get help for so long bc I was afraid that my ocd was just who I was but then I started doing research and things started to make a whole lotta sense. I’ve been doing the work and have been in recovery for approximately a year

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

For me I started having really graphic intrusive thoughts and thought I was genuinely going crazy. Without sharing the content of my thoughts with him, I told my boyfriend I thought I needed to be admitting to the hospital because I couldn’t control what was going on my head. The harder I tried not to think about something, the more brutal the thoughts about it would become. I would panic and get horrible dissociation when it happened. And when I thought about something I didn’t like, I would have that same thought every waking moment of every day until there was a new bad thought to obsess over. At the time, I had no idea what intrusive thoughts were. I actually thought I was going insane. Then I saw a post on Instagram that said something along the lines of “What people think OCD is: being neat and tidy, liking things a particular way What OCD actually is: horrible obsessive thoughts, feeling disgusted and ashamed by thoughts you wish you didn’t have, feeling like you’re going crazy because you aren’t in control of your thoughts” and I was like OH MY GOD! this is what’s been happening to me for 3 years!!! And then I started researching it a little bit and everything made perfect sense.

Gela💞

Date posted: 4y

I can entirely relate I had/ sometimes still struggle with the ocd theme that I think I am god in some way and my intrusive thoughts control what happens to people when they aren’t and it’s tough I understand your struggle

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@Gela💞 Sort of like magical thinking? That’s a rough theme. I actually saw a great post where someone said “if you have a thought about a million dollars appearing in your bank account, you won’t get a million dollars because your thoughts can’t make things happen. So why do you give that much power to your OCD thoughts?” And it really made sense!

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@Ald21 Unfortunately though, OCD doesn’t listen to reasoning or anything that makes sense 😂

Gela💞

Date posted: 4y

@Ald21 That is true my friend and that is a great quote

^ - ^

Date posted: 4y

I was having violent intrusive thoughts, images and urges for a while and was terrified to be around people bc I thought I would kill them. I had no idea that it was ocd or that ocd could present like that until I ended up in a mental hospital. It’s so relieving to have an explanation and know I’m not alone

dolla0

Date posted: 4y

When my intrusive thoughts were so reoccurring and i couldn’t stop googling ( my compulsion) online tests to Make sure I wasn’t crazy lol! Amd also when I would start doing compulsions like locking my door and stuff

Justmesadly

Date posted: 4y

I kept posting on the anxiety page on Reddit and eventually found out that it was more than just anxiety

Nica

Date posted: 4y

I showed signs of OCD in kindergarten.

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