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Thank you, sending you love and support also š
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I'm right there with you š
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It's horrible isn't it, feel free to share your feelings on the post ā¤
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I totally understand how you feel. Itās gonna be alright though hang in there friend and keep living.
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I relate to this a lot! I feel like my thoughts aren't my own, like my mind is a separate existence that's dictating my life, but at the same time I feel like I'd be nothing without it. Like it's a part of who I am that can't be changed. It's hard to accept that you can get better, but you can do it!ā¤ļø
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What you said is so relatable! Sometimes I feel like I'm a puppet and my mind and thoughts are my master, it makes me wonder how much control we really have over our thoughts. Thank you! š
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@Tanaya I guess we have very little control over our thoughts and our lives, but when you've been experiencing OCD for so long, you are scared to let it go. You know yourself that way, the people around you know you that way, as sad as it sounds, and don't know how your life will be if you don't have it. The road to recovery is long.
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@Marinaa The road to recovery is a rocky one but it's one worth taking I suppose
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Thank you! I'm still alive thankfully so I'm hopeful :)
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@tanaya hang in there. Weāre all here for you. Donāt worry nothing wrong with ocd. I donāt know you but I bet your great kind person and have a lot of friends. Iāve had these thoughts many of times also like would have I done things in life differently if I was ānormalā. But think about it we are normal maybe people without ocd arenāt LOL :) hopefully that made u smile. Donāt worry stay strong and do the erp.
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Thank you! You're too kind. I try to keep a level head but sometimes I get a little tired fighting OCD all the time, I dont stop no matter how tired i am because i know it's worth it
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Yes itās exhausting. Iāve had it my whole life I just turned 40. I got an amazing wife, dog, place to live and great family. I wouldnāt change anything. Maybe the ocd helps we donāt know lol. I look at it like a reset. You get bad episode you have to learn everything from scratch again. Remeber life is amazing no matter what and stay positive. I just went through a 2 week full episode nonstop while on a vacation and look Iām still here and after 4 weeks of erp Iām happy again. Believe in yourself is the best advice and believe that ocd is just triggers things you love and care about that you would never do.
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Wow, thank you. You give me hope! I
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Iāve been feeling the same way (shifting moods, emotions, thoughts) for a year. Iām sorry youāre going through this, and thank you for being brave and sharing your experience. OCD makes me feel so alone. Itās helpful to hear people who understand.
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It's crazy, it makes you feel like an imposter in your own mind/body sometimes but I'm trying to find some clarity in all of it. Having this app helps tho, because whilst I hate others are suffering it makes me feel less alone
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