Isabella
- Date posted
- 4y
c.catc.cat
- Date posted
- 4y
I’m in the same situation as you. My anxiety is barely there now, which in hindsight I am thankful for, but now I feel worried as to why I’m not anxious and I’m so doubtful about who I am all while being concerned. It’s just a bundle of negative emotions and confusion on my end. I’m trying to do my higher exposures but I’m worried once I start doing them it will prove they are my desires. What I’m doing personally right now is trying to accept myself unconditionally and accept uncertainty while slowly getting myself to do the exposures. But it’s so hard
PoetARTPoetART
- Date posted
- 4y
I know. It really is... wow, so hard and so unfair. But please know, of all the mental illnesses out there this is one of the most unruly and I truly know that the people who suffer from it and at any tough level really are some of the more caring and you will always be ok. But I know that that doesn’t stop the fear. Please chat about it any time because I think it is good for people at same point to take. I hope that is ok any now
PoetARTPoetART
- Date posted
- 4y
@PoetART *i hope that is okay anyhow
c.catc.cat
- Date posted
- 4y
@PoetART Thank you so much. And of course that is okay! And if you ever need to talk about it also, I’m here to talk. Ocd is definitely a tricky monster
PoetARTPoetART
- Date posted
- 4y
@c.cat Thank you. You too. Yeah it is. I mean my mother returned home and asked how I was and I told her “I’m trying to let it be, mom.” She’s been here for me for all my life, surround yourself with the best people and trust yourself. I know it’s all wishy washy talk but to be fair it is a rather deep subject matter
PoetARTPoetART
- Date posted
- 4y
Be really good with yourself right now. You’re at the point I’m at. Not knowing what it is to not think about the themes and about ruminating as a result. You’re probably extremely scared but much better than when it’s at it worse. Be so so good to yourself and just do what you wish to do, for me there is a point where the imbalance is so trained in me over time that it’s not helping how busy I stay. You just have to be good to yourself and trust yourself until you are calm. Look for the calm or as calm as possible. Always. Right there with you
NicaNica
- Date posted
- 4y
You have to do the high exposures sooner or later.
IsabellaIsabella
- Date posted
- 4y
Yeah I’m just scared I’m going to find out it’s true or make my ocd bad again.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 4y
Hi Friend, i also feel this. Lot less anxious but certainty uncomfy accepting that uncertainty. Do the exposures. Let me know if you’d like to talk!
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- Date posted
- 21w
therapy
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- Date posted
- 21w
suic. ocd
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Looping
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 21w
ERP/Therapy
I find while doing exposures, rarely does my anxiety lessen. It usually amps up and stays that way for the remainder of the day. I could be having a fairly decent day, but dutifully do my exposures and then the rest of my day is anxiety filled. I guess that’s just how it is now? Also, I’m wondering if my therapist even believes I have OCD. I totally understand my therapist cannot provide reassurance. But it’s to the point it seems my therapist acts like I actually did the thing I fear. I feel so isolated.
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