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- Isabella
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I’m in the same situation as you. My anxiety is barely there now, which in hindsight I am thankful for, but now I feel worried as to why I’m not anxious and I’m so doubtful about who I am all while being concerned. It’s just a bundle of negative emotions and confusion on my end. I’m trying to do my higher exposures but I’m worried once I start doing them it will prove they are my desires. What I’m doing personally right now is trying to accept myself unconditionally and accept uncertainty while slowly getting myself to do the exposures. But it’s so hard
I know. It really is... wow, so hard and so unfair. But please know, of all the mental illnesses out there this is one of the most unruly and I truly know that the people who suffer from it and at any tough level really are some of the more caring and you will always be ok. But I know that that doesn’t stop the fear. Please chat about it any time because I think it is good for people at same point to take. I hope that is ok any now
@PoetART *i hope that is okay anyhow
@PoetART Thank you so much. And of course that is okay! And if you ever need to talk about it also, I’m here to talk. Ocd is definitely a tricky monster
@c.cat Thank you. You too. Yeah it is. I mean my mother returned home and asked how I was and I told her “I’m trying to let it be, mom.” She’s been here for me for all my life, surround yourself with the best people and trust yourself. I know it’s all wishy washy talk but to be fair it is a rather deep subject matter
Be really good with yourself right now. You’re at the point I’m at. Not knowing what it is to not think about the themes and about ruminating as a result. You’re probably extremely scared but much better than when it’s at it worse. Be so so good to yourself and just do what you wish to do, for me there is a point where the imbalance is so trained in me over time that it’s not helping how busy I stay. You just have to be good to yourself and trust yourself until you are calm. Look for the calm or as calm as possible. Always. Right there with you
You have to do the high exposures sooner or later.
Yeah I’m just scared I’m going to find out it’s true or make my ocd bad again.
Hi Friend, i also feel this. Lot less anxious but certainty uncomfy accepting that uncertainty. Do the exposures. Let me know if you’d like to talk!
There is this time in treatmemt or recovery when you feel less anxious (or depressed if thats an issue) because you are commiting to process doing exposures and its working. But then you start saying "what if I didnt have ocd"? "What if I made it all up"? "What if Im just weak"? Obviously this is just more ocd doubt. But it starts a slippery slope. Amy tips for navigating this fragile part of recovery?
I've been working on a really hard exposure recently. I feel bad because I'm doing it, but not following my therapists advice the way I should. It just feels like I've had more clarity and my thoughts really feel like the hocd is true. I'm not feeling as much anxiety and I feel like I don't feel alot of feelings towards men because it's just not what I want and I'm not attracted to them and just thought I was. I'm not sure if I'm just really far down the rabbit hole. I'm not following my therapists advice and I feel bad, but I also feel this way. Just not sure what to do......
I'm trying to do imaginal exposures for my suicidal/existential themes (e.g. thinking about how it is possible that life is pointless and not worth it, etc) but doing these exposures sometimes just makes me feel hopeless and depressed, and I worry that repeating these ideas to myself is actually just going to end up making me believe them? I've fallen into a spiral of hopelessness several times before and it's horrible and scary and I really don't want to do that to myself. Does anyone else struggle with these kinds of worries? How do you carry on doing the exposures when you're so worried that they might have a bad effect?
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