What if I’m not as anxious about my theme but I still feel concerned and very uncertain and doubtful? It feels very real still? Even though I’m in the stay better phase of therapy on here. I’m not sure if it’s just my depression or hormones making it worse, or the fact that I can’t get myself to do the higher exposures. Please help.

c.cat

Date posted: 3y ago

I’m in the same situation as you. My anxiety is barely there now, which in hindsight I am thankful for, but now I feel worried as to why I’m not anxious and I’m so doubtful about who I am all while being concerned. It’s just a bundle of negative emotions and confusion on my end. I’m trying to do my higher exposures but I’m worried once I start doing them it will prove they are my desires. What I’m doing personally right now is trying to accept myself unconditionally and accept uncertainty while slowly getting myself to do the exposures. But it’s so hard

PoetART

Date posted: 3y ago

I know. It really is... wow, so hard and so unfair. But please know, of all the mental illnesses out there this is one of the most unruly and I truly know that the people who suffer from it and at any tough level really are some of the more caring and you will always be ok. But I know that that doesn’t stop the fear. Please chat about it any time because I think it is good for people at same point to take. I hope that is ok any now

PoetART

Date posted: 3y ago

@PoetART *i hope that is okay anyhow

c.cat

Date posted: 3y ago

@PoetART Thank you so much. And of course that is okay! And if you ever need to talk about it also, I’m here to talk. Ocd is definitely a tricky monster

PoetART

Date posted: 3y ago

@c.cat Thank you. You too. Yeah it is. I mean my mother returned home and asked how I was and I told her “I’m trying to let it be, mom.” She’s been here for me for all my life, surround yourself with the best people and trust yourself. I know it’s all wishy washy talk but to be fair it is a rather deep subject matter

PoetART

Date posted: 3y ago

Be really good with yourself right now. You’re at the point I’m at. Not knowing what it is to not think about the themes and about ruminating as a result. You’re probably extremely scared but much better than when it’s at it worse. Be so so good to yourself and just do what you wish to do, for me there is a point where the imbalance is so trained in me over time that it’s not helping how busy I stay. You just have to be good to yourself and trust yourself until you are calm. Look for the calm or as calm as possible. Always. Right there with you

Nica

Date posted: 3y ago

You have to do the high exposures sooner or later.

Isabella

Date posted: 3y ago

Yeah I’m just scared I’m going to find out it’s true or make my ocd bad again.

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y ago

Hi Friend, i also feel this. Lot less anxious but certainty uncomfy accepting that uncertainty. Do the exposures. Let me know if you’d like to talk!

Mika05

Date posted: 14w ago

Worried about not being anxious?

These past few days I was fine. Minimal intrusive thoughts ,no anxiety etc(to add I'm on medication so maybe it's starting to work although it barely is 2 weeks) and today I got a sudden wave of anxiety and it started latching on some thoughts like" what if I'm in denial and I wanna break up with my bf? And what if erp doesn't work for me because I actually wanna break up with my bf?" But they didn't really stay long usually those thoughts would make me spiral for days or so, now they lasted for some hours. And now I'm trying to trigger myself into being anxious again because if I don't it means I don't have ocd and if I don't have ocd it means I don't love my bf and if I don't love my bf it means I have to break up. Idk if it makes sense but the lack of anxiety makes me wonder if I actually have ocd or not.

lalalalal166373

Date posted: 12w ago

what if it’s not ocd

so i was on instagram and it came up with other signs of ocd then someone commented this doesn’t mean you have ocd now im stressed that its not ocd background - i had so-ocd for a few years then got treatment for it but am now on the waiting list for further treatment for other stuff but i dont have another theme which makes me feel like its not ocd my day to day life consists of touching the door handle every time you go past it or someone will die, and inability to send emails without re reading loads of times and getting other people to check because im scared i wrote something bad but the what if it’s not ocd thought is triggering me now and i don’t know what do

spelamarela

Date posted: 7w ago

Is this happening to you?

Does anyone else ever feel like they don’t feel “bad enough” to have OCD, or that they don’t feel “the right way” for it? Or like they’re just saying they have OCD as an excuse? Because i was so much better for like 3 weeks now and now im on my period and i started doubting again. So because of that im scared that i was feeling to good and that my fear is actually true.

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