i’ve just been on the subreddit of the thing i fear to check if i relate to them, and some of the things resonated with me. i’m very anxious now and don’t know what to do because it’s filled me with hopelessness. like maybe i really am my worst fear after all this time. it feels like there’s just far too much proof.

Hey I’m glad you’re open about what you are going through. One hugeee thing to remember is that ocd blows things way out of proportion to scare you. Often I would have intrusive thoughts but realized that just because I’m having these thoughts, does not mean I actually agree with them or mean them. The are just thoughts, and I learned this through the help of my therapist. I was able to learn about anxiety and that often these thoughts are just thoughts and do not mean much. If you are able to remind yourself these things you may be able to feel better. Trust that there is really hope because I know there truly is. I got help and did not know what to expect but I’m glad I went through erp and therapy because I honestly do feel 100% better.

I peeked at your profile and I have the same fear as you. This might be reassurance but apparently it’s normal to relate to a ton of things on the narcissism scale (idk the word?) without actually being one. Like anthony said, ocd blows things way out of proportion. I’ve also had therapists that work with narcissists and they both said that if you’re worried abt being one ur not one

Reddit is so bad for ocd, I know how you feel :(

Sorry if I’m spamming but I’ve been trying to accept the thought that maybe I am. When I tell my boyfriend I’m worried about being one, he says “so what if you are” and I’m just like “well then I guess I’d just be one” the worst case scenario (which I HIGHLY doubt is true) is that u are one. Then if u are, you can go to therapy and fix it. It wouldn’t make u a bad person, it would just mean you’ve had trauma and that’s how you learned to cope

Oh god, I appreciate the trigger warning on that 😅 well that goes against everything my therapists have told me, shit. Same with the empathy thing, I’ve always been super empathetic but I doubt it too. Have you talked to a therapist about it?

Either way it’s comforting to know that other people on here have the same theme, I don’t wish it on anyone but it felt like I’d never seen anyone w that specific theme

It was triggering but I would’ve found it eventually and I’m just glad to talk about it with someone tbh. Don’t be sorry!!! I think a therapist will help a lot, mine did for sure. Also yeah it’s definitely reassurance but it rly does help sometimes. I read that the average person is actually p high on the scale/ checklist whatever so yeah