I feel down right now. I did an ERP on my own i watched a video by stanford lectures and it was a lecture about schizophrenia. I was anxious as hell but I stayed through the video. Today before that ERP video was rough idk what to do or where to start.

My compulsions is checking my past or different things about myself. Pretty much projecting their syptoms on to myself

@clout Can I just say the psychotic break parts of that video were really triggering lol

How are you doing today bro ? I felt like i shouldn't have watched that video

@OCD-PROOF Ughhhb it’s still on my mind, my intrusive thoughts are kind of centered around that video.

@clout Mine is too. We both watched yesterday. I learned a lot from it but godamn it im 23 years old too

@OCD-PROOF Yea I’m 22, that part also got me.. but all the graphic stories is what triggered me the most ngl

@clout Yeah same the gential part and suicides. I fucking hate OCD

Stories in the video? Also I don't get it. What causes that disease and I know he said too much dopamine in receptors. Is it genetics?

@OCD-PROOF Yea like ten psychotic breaks and stuff. Those just stuck with me really bad. I’m gonna get over it, but these last two days it’s been really taking a lot of my energy

@OCD-PROOF Idk, they said it’s from a over release of dopamine

@clout I feel it in January i had a massive panic attack and anxiety attack from that theme. Eventually took care of myself and therapy on here and i got better

@clout I just watched this video to be brave but kinda wish i didn't

@OCD-PROOF Def don’t watch the video if it was triggering! If there’s specific parts of the video that bothers you then you have to watch it piece by piece until you get comfortable with it.

@clout Def only do erp if you’re comfortable with it tho

@clout Yeah i should i have done that. How are u holding up now?

@OCD-PROOF Uhhh still tough, I did a different erp session with my therapist and it was really hard to stop my compulsions

@clout Nice at least your doing ERP when did you do the session? My theme switching from schizo and HOCD

It’s so dumb bc the examples he gave about schizo people literallr can be applied to many others. Like socially awkward, the age, weird behaviors/ thoughts. It’s like so many of those things are the same with ocd, yet bc schizophrenia scares me so much I feel like I just can’t help but compare my thoughts, feelings or experiences to it

@clout Exactly as a kid i was talking to myself as if I was an actor especially i was into dinosaurs. Honestly man at this point im just trying to forget and move on from that video.