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YESS!! good for u!! dont let it tell you who you are, only u get to do that. :)
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Thank you đ...
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I hear you and understand where you coming from. Ocd is a sneaky punk. What made this ocd tough was the groinal responses they really are like the best weapon ocd has. It can really mess with you. The body feels one way but the mind isn't agreeing with the body if that makes sense. Then the mind doubts if your right it's just a big circle game lol. I laugh because I can literally say I beat ocd today I won.
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I started experiencing symptoms long before I knew it was OCD. It was h o r r i b l e. One day I was sitting in my room doing compulsions for an hour and a half until 2am and I couldnât get it âright.â This night was a huge turning point because 1) I refused to do them and learned that I actually donât HAVE to do them (I didnât think I had a choice in this bc all I knew was my body was telling me I had to) and 2) It pushed me to look up what was happening and I realized I had OCD and that so many other people are experiencing what I am
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Looking back, I realize Iâve had OCD since I was 7. though I wasnât diagnosed until I was 30. As a kid, I was consumed by fears I couldnât explain: "What if God isnât real? What happens when we die? How do I know Iâm real?" These existential thoughts terrified me, and while everyone has them from time to time, I felt like they were consuming my life. By 12, I was having daily panic attacks about death and war, feeling untethered from reality as depersonalization and derealization set in. At 15, I turned to drinking, spending the next 15 years drunk, trying to escape my mind. I hated myself, struggled with my body, and my intrusive thoughts. Sobriety forced me to face it all head-on. In May 2022, I finally learned I had OCD. I remember the exact date: May 10th. Reading about it, I thought, "Oh my God, this is it. This explains everything." My main themes were existential OCD and self-harm intrusive thoughts. The self-harm fears were the hardest: "What if I kill myself? What if I lose control?" These thoughts terrified me because I didnât want to die. ERP changed everything. At first, I thought, "You want me to confront my worst fears? Are you kidding me?" But ERP is gradual and done at your pace. My therapist taught me to lean into uncertainty instead of fighting it. Sheâd say, "Maybe youâll kill yourselfâwho knows?" At first, it felt scary, but for OCD, it was freeing. Slowly, I realized my thoughts were just thoughts. ERP gave me my life back. Iâm working again, Iâm sober, and for the first time, I can imagine a future. If youâre scared to try ERP, I get it. But if youâre already living in fear, why not try a set of tools that can give you hope?
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I want to beat OCD because I have seen and felt the benefits of clearing my brain from unnecessary, pointless, thoughts. OCD is like 0 calorie food. Itâs pointless. No nutrition or benefits come from my obsessions or compulsions. I donât care to have answers to everything anymore. I catch myself just trying to stress myself out so that I have some worry to feed on. But like I said, itâs a 0 calorie food. I get nothing from it but wasted time and energy. My brain feels more spacious when Iâm not consumed by OCD. Iâm present. My personality has room to be herself without making space for bullshit. I tell myself now that worry is poison. I think Willie Nelson was the person I got that quote from? Anyways, that imagery of worries being poison for the mind has been transformative for me. Iâm evolving. đ Thanks NOCD community.
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