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I am in your exact situation. I just came back from a bachelorette party this weekend. I obviously had a little too much to drink on one of the nights out. Then bam! The next morning I asked for reassurance all damn day. I feel terrible for constantly asking. Alcohol is so evil!! I truly believe alcohol is a major, if not the main contributor in some themes. If you want to talk I am here.
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It’s completely understandable why you drink in response to the OCD; alcohol is a relaxant, so it’s no surprise that the OCD retreats after a drink or two (or more)! As you mentioned towards the beginning, substance abuse is not uncommon for those of us struggling with OCD. What’s good is that you’re cognisant enough to recognise that you’re straying in an unhealthy direction, not everybody has that level of insight, so be grateful of that. And it’s also extremely understandable why OCD can latch onto drunk behaviour, because you’re not human if you haven’t embarrassed yourself while drunk, I definitely have (multiple times). You can look back on moments, and at least for me, it’s almost overpowering the shame, guilt & embarrassment linked to weird or wrong behaviour I’ve done while drunk. My advice with the drinking is to look at it logically. Ask yourself this, where do you wanna be in 5 years? If you continued drinking all the time to bury away the OCD, will you be in your ideal spot? I’m assuming your answer will be no, and I think that’s probably a good first step to take. But please don’t worry about whether you’re an ‘alcoholic’ or not, I don’t think you’re an alcoholic, but the harsh reality is that this could go wrong given time, so be cognisant and responsible, and start trying to get it under control. Read some books maybe, TALK TO A THERAPIST (OCD specialist) if that’s an option for you! Whatever route feels best, do it. You’re okay, and you’re gonna be okay. You sound to me like a responsible person, and I have no doubt that you can overcome the problems your facing. And for for the OCD, ERP, no compulsions! It’s worth it ❤️
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I'm in a similar situation. I always worry I said something terrible after I drink or did something terrible. I just had a bad dream that I did something terrible after drinking and now I feel like crap. It always brings back memories or false memories. :( I can also relate to that vanishing feeling after drinking a bit. I usually feel like, "hey! Everything is going to be okay!" and of course that only lasts while a shirt while. An escape! I'm here if you ever want to talk. We have each other!
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I too overdrink and then OCD comes in and tells me I’m guilty for various things even though I can’t remember such things. I’m sober enough to remember what happened if I’m in a group but then afterwards OCD thoughts make me fearful I did something bad.
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- 18w
First I must say I love children and harming one sickens me. So if you don’t understand pocd please don’t commment. Ive only ever been drunk around children once at a house party , my ocd then convinced me I could’ve assaulted them the next morning as my memory was patchy…I haven’t let this go for YEARS. I didn’t even know what I did? 6 years later I have this whole story, based off an intrusive image I had but still don’t really know what I did? Every waking day of my life I’m trying to figure this out but I’m getting more and more confused. I’ve found clues, coincidences , things I believe could be evidence but isn’t really? I’m mixing in reality and false images….My therapists (I’ve had 3) all say this is false memory ocd? But mine feels different? Mine feels worse? Anyway I need a break.
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I’m curious if anyone else has ever had this. This is my specific theme in regards to my OCD that has been prevalent in my life since 2022. Quick back story: went to a party college for 4.5 years and had a blast, got as drunk as I wanted on weekends and never once felt bad about it. Then, hangovers got worse and I started partying too much. After graduation, I told myself that it’d be a really cool goal to get to the point where I could go out and just have 4 beers. Enough to enjoy myself, not enough to make me hungover. Well, this simple healthy goal turned into a massive obsession. Now, if I go over my limit of 4-5 beers/drinks, two things happen: 1. I give up and binge drink bc I might as well if I’m already over my limit. 2. The next day even if I’m super hungover, unless I can’t bc of work scheduling, I will perform a check where I drink 4 beers and see if I can still get drunk off of those. If I can get drunk, then I feel normal. If I am not as drunk, then this cycle continues. I worry about becoming an alcoholic all the time bc at this point in my life I am very active in my social scene, and alcohol is very much present. While I certainly do not have any family history of alcoholism nor the personality or drive to become one, I still fear that I might one day despite knowing I won’t. I also worry about raising my drinking tolerance by continuing to feed this obsession/compulsion loop. It’s slightly affected my personality and confidence. I’m aware it’s irrational and the solution is to simply cut back as anyone would and go out less frequently, or drink less frequently when I’m out. And yet, my other obsession with alcohol is experiencing the painful withdrawals that alcoholics experience when they stop drinking!! Despite never having experienced those withdrawals when I’ve not drank on a given night. So, it’s a weird one. Thinking the ERP is just going to be not performing those checks. If I’ve reached my limit and am not as drunk, okay. Alcohol absorption is affected by a lot. No need to check my tolerance nor go overboard since I’m not as drunk. We’ll see. I’m on Zoloft too which has helped a ton with other symptoms but this theme is making it less effective and I need to get control of it now.
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- 5w
To me this has probably been my own biggest question I've asked myself in the last couple of years. But I recently went to a social event in my college town for a college football game and had fun while also interacting with a girl and my friend. All of that doesn't matter for this topic. But basically part of me wants to consider drinking because I've been fearful of it for years and always viewed it as a negative. The thing is with my therapist of almost 2 years I've gotten to a way better and confident point in my life and I really want to pursue a relationship with a girl. And I mean something that can go long term so rather serious I understand if the first girl I date wouldn't end up being the one but I want to atleast experience now with my boosted confidence. Back to the question though. I feel like going down the dark side 😂. Which sounds kinda goofy but I'm really considering drinking to ease my nerves. The girl I talked to had a few drinks and she got pretty flirty which in my eyes would help me get to that point with someone I want to pursue. She ended up ghosting me which is perfectly fine but obviously I'd like to try to form a relationship or get another number like I did. I have had addictive stuff with myself and family and I'm genuinely fearful of what might happen if I drink along with what my ocd might make me do or not. Which I understand is my ocd talking but I need honest opinions here. I feel like I'm turning against my old self that I knew up untill 21 years before this day.
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