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September will be 4 years sober đș
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7 years clean here! My OCD has gotten worse and worse since I got clean - was just diagnosed finally this year.
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Same!â
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It was so bad last nightâŠI literally realized why drinking was so good âŠI could avoid thinking but then I was drunking..,but the thinking is crazy now ! I compare ocd thoughts to taking a drink because if I take a thought I spiral so I try to look at it that way . But itâs so fucking hard the anxiety that comes with it. đđ»
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Oops I meant to say but then I was drinkingâŠ.! Havenât done that in 14 years!
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@Anonymous Yes I can look back now and see why I was self-medicating!
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@EC Me too!
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It is awesome. I canât tell you how peaceful and fulfilling life is with total clarity of mind. I did not have daily dependency, but I was a severe binge drinker, hospitalized/ blacking out/ puking, even started a fight once in college. Now my life is very wholesome; so good, I often feel I do not deserve it. The only struggle now is fighting the self-doubt, but itâs definitely worth it. I hope it works out for you all, too đșđș
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Amazing! I was also binge drinker and I suffered with an eating disorder and now Iâm struggling with harm OCD but the one thing Iâm reminded of in my AA meetings is that if I wasnât sober I wouldnât be able to work on the OCD and this is where I need to work very hard because this is to me is equally as difficult! there is such a great amount of truth in emotional sobriety as well so Iâm so happy to hear youâre doing so wellâŠ. keep up the good work!!!
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Iâm in AA
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Awesome!!
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Thank you all for commenting. Iâm in AA too, coming up on 10 years. Sometimes I get intrusive thoughts about drinking, theyâre just like my other intrusive thoughts. Like youâre gonna drink again, youâre hopeless, youâll die from alcohol. Its insane. Because Iâm very involved in AA and very open about my thoughts. That one really freaks me out though :( I have no desire to drink but itâs like my ocd knows thatâs my biggest fear and starts doing that, on top of the other themes I have.
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Anyone have recurring nightmares about blackouts?
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People who went from a really bad time with OCD to a better time now. Is it really possible? What was your theme? Did you take medication?
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Hi everyone, Iâm Andrea and I am a member of the Intake Team here at NOCD. In junior high, I was known as the âaneurysm girlâ because I was convinced any small headache meant I was dying. At just 12 years old, I read something that triggered my OCD, and from that moment on, my brain latched onto catastrophic health fears. Any strange sensation in my body felt like proof that something was seriously wrong. I constantly sought reassurance, avoided being alone, and felt trapped in an endless cycle of fear. Over time, my OCD shifted themes, but health anxiety was always there, lurking in the background. I turned to drinking to numb my mind, trying to escape the fear that never let up. Then, in 2016, everything spiraled. I was sitting at work, feeling completely fine, when suddenly my vision felt strangeâsomething was âoff.â My mind convinced me I was having a stroke. I called an ambulance, launching myself into one of the darkest periods of my life. I visited doctors multiple times a week, terrified I was dying, yet every test came back normal. The fear never loosened its grip. For years, I cycled in and out of therapy, desperately trying to find answers, but no one recognized what was really happening. I was always told I had anxiety or depression, but OCD was never mentioned. I was suicidal, believing I would never escape the torment of my mind. It wasnât until 2022âafter years of struggling, hitting rock bottom, and finally seeking specialized OCD treatmentâthat I got the right diagnosis. ERP therapy at NOCD was the hardest thing Iâve ever done, but it saved my life. Today, Iâm 34, sober, and living a life I never thought was possible. Do I still have hard days? Absolutely. But I am no longer a prisoner to my fears. The thoughts still come, but they donât control me anymore. They donât dictate my every move. Life isnât perfect, but it no longer knocks me off my feet. If youâre struggling with health OCD or somatic OCD, I see you. I know how terrifying and isolating it can be. But I also know that it can get better. If you have any questions about health & somatic OCD, ERP, and breaking the OCD cycle, Iâd love to tell you what Iâve learned first hand. Drop your questions below, and Iâll answer all of them!
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