Is there anyone in here who is in recovery from alcohol and/or drugs?

September will be 4 years sober 😺

7 years clean here! My OCD has gotten worse and worse since I got clean - was just diagnosed finally this year.

It is awesome. I can’t tell you how peaceful and fulfilling life is with total clarity of mind. I did not have daily dependency, but I was a severe binge drinker, hospitalized/ blacking out/ puking, even started a fight once in college. Now my life is very wholesome; so good, I often feel I do not deserve it. The only struggle now is fighting the self-doubt, but it’s definitely worth it. I hope it works out for you all, too 😺😺

Amazing! I was also binge drinker and I suffered with an eating disorder and now I’m struggling with harm OCD but the one thing I’m reminded of in my AA meetings is that if I wasn’t sober I wouldn’t be able to work on the OCD and this is where I need to work very hard because this is to me is equally as difficult! there is such a great amount of truth in emotional sobriety as well so I’m so happy to hear you’re doing so well…. keep up the good work!!!

I’m in AA

Awesome!!

Thank you all for commenting. I’m in AA too, coming up on 10 years. Sometimes I get intrusive thoughts about drinking, they’re just like my other intrusive thoughts. Like you’re gonna drink again, you’re hopeless, you’ll die from alcohol. Its insane. Because I’m very involved in AA and very open about my thoughts. That one really freaks me out though :( I have no desire to drink but it’s like my ocd knows that’s my biggest fear and starts doing that, on top of the other themes I have.

Anyone have recurring nightmares about blackouts?