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You’re not alone. I also think I have Harm OCD and I was really nervous about telling my therapist. When I told her, she was very kind and compassionate. She didn’t think I was insane.
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I have the same as you ❤️your not alone
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I'd start with talking to your therepist about this. They know what OCD is. The longer you let this fester the worse it will get. Start by saying I think I have harm OCD and then explain why. If that's hard write down what you want to say and practice it.
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I was fine just two weeks ago, I mean, I’ve always suffered from anxiety but not this. I’m the type to not even be able to say anything rude because I later on feel really bad about it. Before I use to fear physical sickness now I fear insanity.
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The thoughts make me feel really guilty and I literally want to throw up every time.
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Take it from me--as soon as you feel like something is wrong, something probably is wrong . I would tell your therepist you have these thoughts. Don't worry it's not bad enough or hasn't been happening long enough. My OCD just appeared out of the blue too, and I waited a year to ask for help and I regret that. The sooner you get help, the better.
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And yeah OCD can make you feel that way. Btw my OCD started as fear of sickness, then turned into scrupulousity and harm OCD. And just so you know, the fact that you are terrified of those thoughts is a sign you wouldn't act on them. But seeking reassurance of this is in itself a compulsion of sorts.
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I have therapy again on Wednesday and I’m looking into trying online counseling too. I just want to feel like myself again. I also have a puppy and I’m afraid of getting close to him because I fear accidentally hurting him. He’s a tiny baby and I feel like I’m missing out on loving him due to this.
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Well Wednesday is a good day to talk about the thoughts. Just explain you've been doing some research and you think you have harm OCD. Then explain why. Just like what you wrote here, your fear of hurting the puppy is an example. The sooner you get help for OCD the sooner you feel better. See if you can do ERP that works best. Ask your therapist about it.
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You know, same with me. I come from a non religious family and randomly started having religious OCD. And no one in my family has OCD. Though we have lots of ADHD, depression, anxiety, and autism but. I think for me the trigger was starting college. I've read where major life transitions can trigger it if your predisposed. Idk lots of things can cause mental illness we don't know the brain well enough yet to discern how it happens. Sometimes it can be genetic, but not always.
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And I'm glad I've been able to help you.
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I’m nervous of telling my therapist too but I want to feel like my old self, I was happy and I even wanted to work at a day care because kids are everything to me and now I can’t even be around my own niece or my 11 year old brother. It’s hard and I crying as I write this.
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Start being honest with your therapist. They’re there to help you, and they won’t judge you for any thoughts you have. The longer you keep it inside, the worse it will get.
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You’re not alone in your feelings, all of us have gone through it so you’re strong enough to do it as well.
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I will, thank you so much! I’m not sure how I can get myself to eat, I haven’t been hungry whatsoever and that scares me too. I’ve just been an emotional wreck, I can’t even get close to my family members because I fear I might lose control. The thing is I don’t know what causes this, none of my parents have OCD, they only suffer from mild anxiety, and I don’t drink nor do drugs. I did stop exercising though and I started eating very unhealthy.
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I feel you ?️
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@bributterfly I’m so sorry
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The thoughts make me want to throw up too. I have harm ocd too from time to time. Lately my ocd theme has switched to rocd. It’s horrible. I’ll get thoughts about “what if I don’t really love my husband?” And it makes me physically sick. I just want to love him like he loves me. Unconditionally
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Hey so a couple months ago (7-8) I remember being upset at my family member. Like she was talking too much while I was annoyed and remember wanting her to be quiet. I got an intrusive thought like a really bad image of doing something really bad to her, and my hand twitched to the side a little? Like it felt like I was about to?! And I remembered thinking "if I do this, I'll get in trouble". I got up and left to the bathroom and felt horrified! I was thinking "did I want to act out? Did the only reason I didn't act out was because of getting in trouble? If there was no consequences, would have I done it?! Does this mean this whole time I've been using OCD as an excuse?" I remember I couldn't sleep for 3 nights because of how bad the anxiety was, I was crying and I felt very guilty like I should turn myself in to a mental hospital. I couldn't eat for many days or be near her because of that thought and twitch I had! I'm worried it was an impulse or I actually wanted to hurt her. And even to this day I still ruminanate about this. Like last night I couldn't sleep well I kept waking up every two hours and asking myself "am I capable?" I couldn't eat last night. Sometimes I move on from it like I forget that happened but when I remember, I feel distressed about it! I don't want to be an evil person or do bad actions towards anyone! I'm even scared to be angry because of this because I'm scared I have more "chance" of acting out due to anger. Like was it an impulse and I held back? Is this even OCD? Please help, I'm really scared!
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man these few weeks have been so hard. i’m in the process of getting diagnosed with ocd, im almost positive i have it because everything on here relates to me on an insane level. but im just so scared dude. these thoughts of me harming someone are so scary and im so scared im gonna eventually act on them and i know i never want to but its still so scary. like sometimes when i talk to my mom about it i think in the back of my head “you know you want to” when i dont, and it makes me think or gets me scared that i do. these thoughts literally just happened out of nowhere and it messes me up so bad my literal perspective on life in general is just messed up. like i view life as its more common to be a bad person and its rare/hard to be good. can someone please just pray for me or just wish me better days. i dont even like looking at myself anymore and im scared i give off creepy vibes to myself or others now, this sucks so much
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i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd but I have anxiety about harming other people/family members and it’s like urges and im scared I actually want to do it? I don’t think I’ve ever been violent as a kid (im 21 now) and the intrusive thoughts don’t go away so im just stuck all day everyday for the past few weeks just thinking and being scared about it and im having all these weird emotions like being irritated and angry I don’t want to hurt people I don’t think idk why my mind is making me think I do I’ve had intrusive thoughts before that I could brush away sure it took like a day or two but this one is different it doesn’t go away and leaves me with the worst fear imaginable and nothing I look up that should be giving me relief is giving me relief + I feel like im not in control of my body and that im just gonna lose it and act on these thoughts it’s just all on a loop and im not sure how im supposed to live the rest of my life when im in constant fear of my self
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