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You’re not alone. I also think I have Harm OCD and I was really nervous about telling my therapist. When I told her, she was very kind and compassionate. She didn’t think I was insane.
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I have the same as you ❤️your not alone
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I'd start with talking to your therepist about this. They know what OCD is. The longer you let this fester the worse it will get. Start by saying I think I have harm OCD and then explain why. If that's hard write down what you want to say and practice it.
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I was fine just two weeks ago, I mean, I’ve always suffered from anxiety but not this. I’m the type to not even be able to say anything rude because I later on feel really bad about it. Before I use to fear physical sickness now I fear insanity.
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The thoughts make me feel really guilty and I literally want to throw up every time.
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Take it from me--as soon as you feel like something is wrong, something probably is wrong . I would tell your therepist you have these thoughts. Don't worry it's not bad enough or hasn't been happening long enough. My OCD just appeared out of the blue too, and I waited a year to ask for help and I regret that. The sooner you get help, the better.
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And yeah OCD can make you feel that way. Btw my OCD started as fear of sickness, then turned into scrupulousity and harm OCD. And just so you know, the fact that you are terrified of those thoughts is a sign you wouldn't act on them. But seeking reassurance of this is in itself a compulsion of sorts.
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I have therapy again on Wednesday and I’m looking into trying online counseling too. I just want to feel like myself again. I also have a puppy and I’m afraid of getting close to him because I fear accidentally hurting him. He’s a tiny baby and I feel like I’m missing out on loving him due to this.
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Well Wednesday is a good day to talk about the thoughts. Just explain you've been doing some research and you think you have harm OCD. Then explain why. Just like what you wrote here, your fear of hurting the puppy is an example. The sooner you get help for OCD the sooner you feel better. See if you can do ERP that works best. Ask your therapist about it.
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You know, same with me. I come from a non religious family and randomly started having religious OCD. And no one in my family has OCD. Though we have lots of ADHD, depression, anxiety, and autism but. I think for me the trigger was starting college. I've read where major life transitions can trigger it if your predisposed. Idk lots of things can cause mental illness we don't know the brain well enough yet to discern how it happens. Sometimes it can be genetic, but not always.
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And I'm glad I've been able to help you.
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I’m nervous of telling my therapist too but I want to feel like my old self, I was happy and I even wanted to work at a day care because kids are everything to me and now I can’t even be around my own niece or my 11 year old brother. It’s hard and I crying as I write this.
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Start being honest with your therapist. They’re there to help you, and they won’t judge you for any thoughts you have. The longer you keep it inside, the worse it will get.
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You’re not alone in your feelings, all of us have gone through it so you’re strong enough to do it as well.
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I will, thank you so much! I’m not sure how I can get myself to eat, I haven’t been hungry whatsoever and that scares me too. I’ve just been an emotional wreck, I can’t even get close to my family members because I fear I might lose control. The thing is I don’t know what causes this, none of my parents have OCD, they only suffer from mild anxiety, and I don’t drink nor do drugs. I did stop exercising though and I started eating very unhealthy.
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I feel you ?️
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@bributterfly I’m so sorry
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The thoughts make me want to throw up too. I have harm ocd too from time to time. Lately my ocd theme has switched to rocd. It’s horrible. I’ll get thoughts about “what if I don’t really love my husband?” And it makes me physically sick. I just want to love him like he loves me. Unconditionally
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i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd but I have anxiety about harming other people/family members and it’s like urges and im scared I actually want to do it? I don’t think I’ve ever been violent as a kid (im 21 now) and the intrusive thoughts don’t go away so im just stuck all day everyday for the past few weeks just thinking and being scared about it and im having all these weird emotions like being irritated and angry I don’t want to hurt people I don’t think idk why my mind is making me think I do I’ve had intrusive thoughts before that I could brush away sure it took like a day or two but this one is different it doesn’t go away and leaves me with the worst fear imaginable and nothing I look up that should be giving me relief is giving me relief + I feel like im not in control of my body and that im just gonna lose it and act on these thoughts it’s just all on a loop and im not sure how im supposed to live the rest of my life when im in constant fear of my self
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I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
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I dont know whats going on. I dont know if its OCD anymore. I know it was in the beginning. Ive been through a lot of trauma and had one little scary thought of killing my sister 4 months ago that has blossomed into this giant idea of me being a serial killer and wanting to hurt everyone (I never had any social issues growing up but I have had some trauma). Recently I’ve been having urges to just give in. And my mental images have been horrible and I can’t stop checking if I like them or not. I think I’ve convinced myself I have. This morning I woke up a shaking mess with an urge to unalive my family and when my mom left for work I was alone with my sister and couldnt stop vomiting uncontrollably. I dont know if i’m upset because I cant hurt anyone and I want to, or if I’m scared and just want my old life back. I was an avid horror and gore lover and now I’m convinced I want to do the things I’ve seen in the movies. Someone please help. I’m ready to check into the psych ward.
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