Anonymous
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chellybeanzchellybeanz
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- OCD Conqueror
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Yes yes yes
AnonymousAnonymous
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Hi! Thank you for responding 😊. Do you ever feel like your OCD puts a strain on your relationship or makes it harder to feel what you want to feel with your partner?
pennydreadfulpennydreadful
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hello! im alix, and i struggle with rocd, as well as hocd. i have a boyfriend, who is aware of the fact that i am in the lgbtq+ community, as well as my ocd and its themes. ocd definitely puts a strain on my relationship with my boyfriend, especially after tense disagreements where all i can think about for days afterward was the argument (despite us closing it in a healthy matter). my rocd gets me extremely anxious, to the point where i get scared of whether not i really love him, and if i’m just using him for ulterior motives. i’m aware this isn’t true, but i cant help but freak out at the notion that i may or may not love the one person i love more than the world. to answer your other question, it definitely makes it harder to feel what i want to feel with my partner. i act the same as i used to before my ocd began, but i’ll always have these underlying thoughts. i just need to learn how to cope with them :)
pennydreadfulpennydreadful
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sorry for the long response! if you have any more questions, i’m down to answer them :)
AnonymousAnonymous
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@alixacceptance Thank you so much for the response! That must be really difficult. I don’t feel like I have ROCD, but I also struggle with HOCD. I can’t imagine being LGBTQ+ in a straight passing relationship and also having ROCD. I’m so sorry you go through that. Have you found any ERP exercises that are helping you? I’m not sure how you’d go about ERP for ROCD. The issue that I struggle with is mainly that my whole life I have been in same sex relationships and identified as lesbian. A couple years ago, my best friend who also happened to be a guy told me that he was in love with me. And I thought to myself “well, I guess I’ll try it. I didn’t know I liked girls until I tried it, and I do, so maybe after I try to date a guy I’ll actually like it.” So now we’ve been together for 2 years and he is absolutely my best friend and also my safe space. He knows about my OCD and he is the only person that makes me feel okay. But that’s about as far as my feelings for him go. I am not attracted to him and I can’t stay with him anymore because I feel like I’ve led him on for too long and I’m missing out on being in a relationship with someone I want to be with. I don’t know how to break up with him, because I don’t want him to be devastated. And I know he is a huge source of comfort for me and I selfishly don’t want to give that up. But I also feel like being in a relationship with someone who I’m not attracted to may possibly be making my OCD worse in some ways. I’m sorry for the long response! I’m just trying to see if anyone else has ever been in a similar situation that they’d be willing to share.
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