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This goes out to everyone who’s commented on this, thank you so much since joining this app it has definitely made me feel a little less alone. It’s so nice to see so many people who are going through such difficult times supporting each other. I hope we can all get through this. ❤️
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I really appreciate you all replying and offering your support and sharing your stories. Thank you!
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Yeah, we all will get through this. Everyone has crisis in life and we have our ones now. We learn so much of this and thanks to that we can later improve our lives in many areas to reduce anxiety and useless worry. Life is up and down, and one must not forget how awesome and beautiful the good times are in life ??❤️?⭐️
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@leelea honestly it’s so horrible. I struggle to enjoy so much of the stuff my friends do so easily. Sorry you have to go through this too
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@Belll You are not alone! When the worst periods happened for me (some months ago) I felt like you describe in your post. You will get over it but you must seek help! Start to talk with someone you trust at least ? People out there that enjoy their lifes could also have problems from time to time, mental illness isn’t always visible on persons. The right help exists for you ?
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Also, don’t wait to start doing things you normally like to do. A huge part in the treatment is to stimulate your mind with good stuff. Even though the negative thoughts could say nothing is funny, all funny things you do will point you in the right direction.
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I’m sending you a hug right now ?? OCD is a nightmare. We love you!!!
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I get it, fr. @leelea summed it up for me. It’s supposed to be the most fun/carefree time of our lives and I feel like I’m wasting it worrying about things my friends don’t even think about (and go the opposite extreme of being irresponsible)
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It will get better if you put in the work in therapy. I had a long list of symptoms when I was at my worst, too. And I did not want to live like that at all. It may be difficult to find, but the right therapist will help with everything and give you the tools you need to live your best life. It’s hard work doing ERP, but it works. Stay strong and seek help.
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Me too. I feel so very depressed lately. I’m 19 too. Several forms of OCD, depression, thoughts about suicide as an option to escape and end all of this. I hate it so much, I’d rather be worried/thinking about stuff like grades in college, how to surprise my boyfriend on his birthday, moving out into my first own flat. But instead of this, I’m stuck with terrible thoughts and ideas, depression and anxiety. Every day is challenging. I know that I have to keep going and I want to fight and I want to be hopeful. But it’s hard sometimes.
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I’m 22, I feel the same. The last 2 months have been hell. It’s completely taken my life away from me. ‘False Memories’ are making me feel like a horrible person. I can’t be happy, it won’t let me! Over 2 months ago I was the happiest guy ever, then something triggered it and boom...I’m stuck.
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I don’t have POCD in the present. Like I don’t have an issue being around kids and don’t have those thoughts My POCD is based on ‘what if’ Memories. Like what if this happened?! It’s based on a Facebook conversation I don’t remember 2 years ago ? Leela, look up Ali Greymond on YT she may help you. But seeking reassurance is honestly the worst thing ever to do
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Yes! I had like 20 at once on the same theme. I have cleared them all up but this one is sticking around. But it’s exactly like that. I spent a whole month ruminating and seeking reassurance. Over an event that happened 2 years ago! I’m not seeking reassurance anymore, so I’ve improved a bit. I’m trying, it’s ruined my life at the moment.
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@kately thank you so much !!
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Me @leelea
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It’s really hard when it makes me feel horrible all the time :/
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I know what you’re talking about Lewis :/ Try to see it from another perspective; what is telling you that you should feel horrible? Could it be a thought? What is a thought?
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@Anndroow that’s a really good point about not waiting to have fun! I’m coming off of a really bad bout of health anxiety rn and I was putting off doing things I like bc I was convinced I couldn’t be happy until I knew I was ok. I still don’t know I’m ok (even w/ my dr’s reassurance) but I felt ok for the first time in weeks today bc I did the things that make me feel like me!
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Also I’ve been through pocd (worrying about past interactions and celebs who are under age) as well as worrying people close to me could be pedophiles which kind of takes on an rocd vibe (checking if my friend/crush/etc is a good person or if I have to “cleanse myself” of them)
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I had an episode with that shit but overall it has been harm ocd.
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Andrew it’s based on ‘memories’ or ‘false memories’. What if this happened etc etc. It’s so difficult!
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@Lewis Oh, yeah those thoughts are the most difficult ones.. are you like feeling an excessive guilt for things you’ve done or not even have done? Are you sharing these feelings with someone or talking to a therapist? I bet you can clear things up and get other perspectives. Don’t forget that we are humans and we all make mistakes that we can learn from. But in the moment, I know it’s hard.
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Got ya, must feel so exhausting. I know it exists help focused to overcome false memory OCD and this excessive guilt in general. Have you talked to a therapist about this? In your case it might be more processing techniques than ERP. Mindfulness and acceptance is definitely something you should learn and perform ?
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I’m just waiting to start some CBT? What is mindfulness? Is acceptance something a therapist would help with?
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That’s super awesome, CBT is the therapy form. A therapist will definitely help you with mindfulness and acceptance. There’s a lot of information and youtube videos. But it’s basically about practising on being in the moment and accept all kind of feelings and thoughts without judging them. Just observe and not react. You have to give it some time :)
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So you think CBT will help me? :/ I’ve seen stuff on that. It’s improved etc. I just have a constant feeling of shame, guilt, dread, fear etc and it blocks any positive emotions I have out. I’m just on the waiting list. But was debating whether to go private in the meantime
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Yes, CBT is a very effective therapy form. Watch this https://youtu.be/cLG_vW57AgA :) Hope you’ll get an appointment soon.
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Thank you! I did watch that. Is what she does a form of CBT? That’s the video that kinda stabilised me!
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She explained about it and mentioned some of the processing techniques that are used. But when you start the CBT, your therapist will customize your treatment specifically for you within the category of your problems.
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Hi ❤️ I’m really struggling right now I’m in my sophomore year of Highschool and I’ve finally started planning or thinking abt my future (for context I was extremely depressed and suicidal from 6-9th grade) After conquering my depression this is a huge leap for me and I’m proud of myself ❤️ But there’s something still holding me down :( and I’m not sure what to do anymore that thing is OCD. Since 6th grade I have had strong and invasive intrusive thoughts all the time they scare me so bad and make me feel as though I’m not even real anymore :( I’m sick of taking the time to do ridiculous compulsions to rid or ease these thoughts it’s a waste of time and energy and it hurts me so bad I feel like I will never get to just live my life without this :( How can I plan my future when I can’t even find myself in this mess of anxiety 💔 I’m so tired of fighting my mental health it’s been years from anxiety attacks to sh to survived suicide attempts (I got help dw❤️🩹) and recovery there. Just to be thrown into a storm of awful scary sickening thoughts day and night-when can I just be a normal teenager and possibly a happy adult? How do I conquer this so I can love myself to the fullest and live my life free and happy? :( ❤️❤️🩹 I’m so scared to talk to my parents about it I’m ashamed of my thoughts and every time I bring it up they just say I shouldn’t be diagnosing myself or it’s just ADHD. It really really hurts me they have no idea how awful this feels and it makes me feel so alone sometimes 💔
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I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
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i want to get this out of the way; i’m not suicidal. i’m a 17 y/o guy whose been living with OCD for what i assume is most of my life despite only getting the diagnoses last year. i’ve been hustling on despite my mental health really consuming my life to moments in time where i question my sanity and self control. it’s the lack of control that really kills me with this disorder. each day i wake up, it’s the same persistent reminders; it’s the same meaningless conversations replaying; it’s the same small rituals that just barely let me breathe before the thoughts return. nothing i do is gonna stop that unbearable monogamy where i have to sit back and let my eyes be peeled open; i don’t know how to live with that. no pill has worked on me, and any response i give the thoughts just make them worse. right now i’m trying to just sit through it and not care. don’t let it effect me emotionally; try not to feel the discomfort. then it starts to manifest into physical pain where i feel the bones of my chest have this pressure—like staples entering them at the rhythm of a heart beat. i’m getting though this, but i’m not enjoying my life when doing so. i don’t know if i have a future where it isn’t just this repeating through the process of each day. i don’t want to spend the rest of my life avoiding the one thing i’m supposed to have control over. i also don’t want to drown my days in self medicating or get addicted doing so—like i already am. i don’t see the way to make this life of mine work, especially given how much i don’t have to do deal with at my age. of course that will come to. look, i’m not at risk; i really don’t want in anyway to die despite being basically hopeless. i’m numb to the pain of it, i don’t feel anything in my desire to escape these cycles, i just need an out. i’m not seeing a way to move forward. i’m willing to hear anything.
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