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I am so unhappy with my focus either. At work I just don’t feel like doing much, bare minimum. And then it bothers me somewhat, and I seek re-assurance or re-assure myself. Once I am in good mood and not obsessed, my executive function gets back. And then lost again.
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Have you ever found anything that helps (aside from the intrusive thoughts subsiding)? I had a real bad flare up a couple years ago that was pretty debilitating but even after getting it under control I feel like my ability to guide my focus is almost non-existent. Which is a real problem because my job requires a significant amount of focus and self guided work. This has all been made worse by the pandemic since I have been working from home and have very little accountability. All of this really affects my self-esteem
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@ClearMind20 I have not. I do less and have been getting away with this so far, although it bothers me. I very much want to restore my focus.
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@ClearMind20 I feel like taking a break or leave, and feel that sometime off work would help. But who knows. I have been working at my job for 16 years and I lost interest, but I still need to earn money. So I am not sure from where this lack of focus comes - from ocd or from lack of interest, or both
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I also once thought that I have adhd, and also dropped that idea
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I realized that I do see some solutions and I work towards them. I use Headspace app now, and doing 10 days productivity course there. This app helps to train and retrain mind to direct focus, not to chase thoughts, let go of thoughts, to accept, not resist, relax, etc. I started using it two months ago and now I am more aware of what I am thinking about, I note when I do rumination or mental reviewing and let go of that, at least trying, and succeed in 50 percent or so so far. I have been doing guided meditations daily from Headspace for two months. I am hopeful that with regular use my mind will get trained in those things. I love being productive, but ocd often takes over fooling with a sense of urgency that I need to figure out something that distracts me from what I want to do. In general, I juggle many things- family, job, kids, marriage, friends, personal finance, self care and fitness, house, investments, but I know that I waiste too much time and focus on what ocd calls for. I want to change that and it is the goal of all my inner workings now, including ERP therapy that I believe is making things worse before it gets better.
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Hi! I’m new to the NOCD community, but I’ve been dealing with OCD since I was 12. I’m almost 29 now, and my biggest issue is health anxiety. It’s gotten to the point where getting work done is nearly impossible because i can’t stop spiraling. I’m lucky that i work remotely, but also makes it easier to be in my own head… Asking for advice - how do you all deal with the intense anxiety and are able to make it through a 9-5 work day? Any suggestions on how I can actually be productive? Thank you!
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Often times I find myself spiraling out in the morning about all sorts of things. When I try and catch myself and figure out what I am obsessing over it’s like it goes away. I haven’t moved. I have been sitting frozen on the floor because I can’t go to work because I am behind on work and I hate being late and I hate being messy but I am frequently late and my room is cluttered and full of stuff. I want to be good and move and go to work but I don’t know what is coming today and I hate my job so I know I will get bored and when I have nothing to keep me busy and engaged I like start thinking and taking an inventory of what is going on and then I will feel a sensation and what is the sensation? How did it happen? And I know that I will pick up the bad emotions in the office and get contaminated, I was really worried about things like this as a kid too I cried because I had to touch dirt in kindergarten. I know I am this way and I have been this way for a while but at the same time I think I might just be normal and like I don’t know why I get stuck in thinking like this. Then I begin to doubt that OCD is real because everyone has a brain with wiring and everyone gets stuck in thought sometimes. I feel disabled from whatever this is because I am stuck. I literally cannot move because I don’t know what’s wrong and I know I have to go to work even though I feel like every moment I spend there is making everything worse because other people are so stressed and I get it from them. And I don’t feel ready because I just feel off and something is wrong and I just don’t know what to do because if it’s OCD or not OCD everything anyone knows about me is coming from me and I worry that I am often masking all the thinking I’m doing because thinking all the time is rude and inconsiderate and inconvenient for those around me, but I can’t stop. I just don’t feel right, right now - and I want to know WHY?? Why is everything off all the time? How do I even know that I am not making up the experience of OCD in my head to cover up something really wrong with me and now I am taking on the symptoms of OCD like an actress, because this could be something that I can latch onto as a final hope for explaining why I am stuck. So stuck so deeply and terribly stuck sitting on my floor next to my bed just scrolling to avoid thinking because any time I start thinking I am left with no answers or help or anything just this swirly feeling. I know I am trying, maybe not my best, but as much as I possibly can. I want to be a Special Education Teacher but I have so much so so so much doubt and uncertainty about every decision I make and everything I know that I can’t get there right now. I can’t do anything right now until it feels ok and then I will. It never feels ok. I know I have to be ok not feeling ok about it. I can be unsure and still be ok. I know it’s just my thinking and my body but I just can’t get past this feeling. And then I know that because I can calm myself and be ok even though I spent 2 hours of my life today already feeling stuck and spinning around and around and around in my head - I don’t feel sure about my OCD and I think it’s a bit of a scam made up by people to cultivate pathology around deep human thought because one day I might figure it out and we all think a lot.
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Hi Everyone - has anyone else had problems with executive functioning - forgetting things, multitasking, attention, not following directions closely, etc. ? If so, what do you do to help? I brought this up to my therapist and she mentioned that I wouldn’t need a therapist Or specialist/coach to work on it - as it would be skills we know to do (take notes, put on reminders, etc). However, I’ve been struggling with OCD for years and none of these “tips” have helped enough. I have had trouble multitasking/ remembering details/forgetting things with jobs and had to quit. It even applies when I am at home - one thing goes in one ear and out the other. I also do not have or been diagnosed with ADHD or any other disorders (just depression from OCD). Does anybody have suggestions? Is it just to manage my OCD better and these things will get better with that? I don’t recall how I was when my OCD was “good” or in better shape (Up until age 18) to gauge this as I didn’t have a job or other life responsibilities. Only thing I can think of is maybe I am so caught up in my head that is causing these issues, aka the severe OCD. Thanks!
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