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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
honestly, I deal with the same thing! My mental illness kicks my yk what when I'm pmsing... [tw: sewer slide] Like, when my pms starts kicking in, my depression kicks into high gear and I start getting suicidal again for whatever reason? 👁👄👁 and I'm already a very emotional person, but when the pms kicks in????? whew- my ROCD goes crazy and my bf is somehow always cool with it and stays patient when I ask him if he still loves me every 2 second 🤡
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I am the same. I am such an emotional person as it is. That’s great that you have a boyfriend that is understanding. Luckily, my husband is the same way, especially around this time of the month and he knows how hard it is for me, especially when OCD tries to kick in full gear. Yesterday, it made a year since I developed this awful ocd. I have HOCD and devolved POCD after. It’s the worst, but I keep trying to remind myself how far I have come since then.
@RjA02 honestly, reminding yourself of the progress you've already made is an awesome start! When talking about these thing, I tend to do the same, because if I don't, I think too hard about it and make myself all sad lol but I'm so glad you have a great s/o that's understanding with these kinds of things, too. Having someone there for me like that has helped a lot :) I've been dealing with Harm OCD for about 6-7 years and I started getting some POCD thoughts after talking about it with my best friend who used to deal with it (loved how that worked out for me, but it's not too bad at the moment 😓) and I know how scary and tiresome it can be to constantly think you're some scary person, but I constantly remind myself that my OCD is not me. It helps me a lot when I can remember to separate the OCD thoughts from my real thoughts and feelings. It pulled me out of some horrible mindsets and helped me to start making personal progress, and I hope you've been/you can do the same for yourself!
@amberellal Thank you so much. It has been such a journey and I’ll keep on fighting this until it has no more power. I just gotta learn how to get over this hump whenever I’m on this emotional hormonal roller coaster. Wow! 6-7 years. Have you sought treatment for it or just handling it on your own? Yes, I completely agree that we have to keep reminding ourselves that we are not our OCD and be more compassionate with ourselves. My therapist tells me this all the time. Thank you so much. 🤗
@RjA02 I've tried different medications and I'm actually seeing my 3rd therapist now, and even tried neurotherapy for a while, but whatever I got going on is a little stubborn, so I'm still working on getting to where I wanna be lol but your therapist is definitely right! Being more compassionate with ourselves is so so important, and I wish I had heard these kinds of things when my OCD and GAD kicked into high gear all those years ago. I didn't even know what OCD was until a few years after experiencing all the stress and mental battles I had dealt with, and didn't even tell my parents about what I was dealing with until August of 2019. It's definitely been a journey, but I'm still trying to keep the faith and keep working towards a better and healthier life. Stay strong!
@amberellal Thank you so much. I, too, have GAD along with the OCD. It’s a lot to go through. However, we are strong individuals. Idk you, but I can tell that you are. I just told my mom about it, but very briefly bc I think she would never understand. I’m happy at least that my husband knows the most. Thank you for your motivation and same to you! We got this.
@RjA02 you're so sweet 🥺🥺🥺🥺 I can definitely tell you're super strong as well, and you should be proud of everyday you've been able to get yourself through all of this! but I feel you on the mom thing. When I tried explaining my GAD to mine, she compared it to her being scared of thunderstorms and I was like 👁👄👁 now imagine that but 24/7 lmao but thank YOU for the motivation as well! You're so kind, never stopped being you <3
@amberellal stop****** I can spell
literally going through the same thing rn
Hang in there! 💕
Sorry for the typos above…I rushed through this post 🤦🏽♀️
Currently having an anxious night because my hormones are doing whatever they want before my cycle starts. It's so frustrating. I feel very, very on edge and like I'm constantly anxious about something bad happening. Also been nauseous and having sleep issues. So irritating. How does everyone else deal with the spike in anxiety and OCD before periods? I'm seeing an endocrinologist on Monday to try and help but I feel so stressed out.
I want to rip out my uterus. Only my hormones can make my OCD and ability to manage it go back to square one. I am spiraling *so* hard. I cannot breathe. My PMDD is going crazy. I’m having a panic attack again. I feel so scared. The POCD is going absolutely insane right now. It feels undeniably real, and my mind keeps drifting to those awful thoughts and what feels like exploring them?? but I can’t for the life of me stop some of these compulsions right now. I was trying to watch something to get my mind off of this but ended up getting triggered twice, so my anxiety is a 10 and I can’t seem to calm down. This panic attack is tuned all the way up.
I'm roughly 2 months pregnant and I'm struggling so bad with OCD (specifically surrounding psychosis/postpartum psychosis, postpartum depression, postpartum anxiety, etc). I'm so discouraged because I was sub-clinical for over a year and this pregnancy and the hormones are undoing all of my progress. And it actually seems so much harder than BEFORE when I was at a low point. It feels like the hormones are ruining my brain and making me lose my mind. I keep looking over my shoulder, getting intrusive images of scary hallucinations that I might start to get, i fear hurting myself or my baby, etc. Psychosis in pregnancy is 1 in 1000. That's not that rare. I feel like I just upped my chances of my biggest fear happening and I have so much regret and fear around that. I'm also a Christian and I'm relying on God so much more now than ever, but I'm afraid of that too because people in psychosis often have religious delusions and I can't tell if I'm slipping into that or if God is really just using this trial to pull me closer to him. I just feel so defeated. I feel like ERP just isn't going to work for me because the hormones are a whole different animal that "normal" people with OCD don't have. Like they're making me immune to ERP or that ERP isn't for people like me and I'm hopeless.
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