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I do the same thing, it moved from bpd, to npd, to aspd and all types of things. Once I have one thing in common I convince myself I have to have it and obsess over it. Unfortunately the only way around it is to accept that it’s a possibility. It definitely sounds like it’s ocd tho
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It's so annoying because theres triggers for it all over the place and I cant be assessed for every mental health problem.
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I get worried ab having that all the time it sucks, try to accept the possibility that you do. What happens then its not the end of the world. You can’t know right in this second that you do or don’t have it.
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You're right, its accepting the uncertainty that I need to master.
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OMG, I literally thought I was the only person in the WORLD whose OCD targeted ‘mental disorders’! For me, it started after I watched a tik tok where a girl was talking about autism. Despite having literally NONE of the traits of autism, I felt this pit in my chest and I thought - ‘what if I have it and I just don’t have the self-awareness to know?’ This divulged into MONTHS of online tests, questioning my family, and constantly checking that I wasn’t acting ‘autistically’. No matter how much confirmation I got that I wasn’t autistic, I just couldn’t shake it. It still sort of effects me to this day, but I don’t let it bother me nearly as much as it once did. I literally got my parents to take an online test that checked for childhood autism, and they begrudgingly did it, and it came back with 0 out of like 50 and I was STILL not entirely convinced. It’s a rough obsession to have because the compulsions only last so long before you think you’re just kidding yourself, at least in my case. My therapist told me that if we were to read the DSM back to front, we’d leave thinking we’d have every single mental disorder - on Monday you might feel a little bipolar, on Tuesday you may feel a little BPD, it’s completely normal to have fluctuating moods and feelings towards others etc - obsessions can very easily attach to this, so don’t worry, you’ll be okay!
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OCD targets mental disorders alot of the times. I'm actually on the waiting list for autism assessment ironically. The thing is OCD symptoms overlap with so many other problems and it can be exhausting thinking you have every mental illness just because you share one similarity
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I have bpd and ocd and adhd and the rest but I also have also think I may have other things I didn't realise this was a compulsion The medical checking I did but I didn't
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The researching when you have maybe one or two similarities could be a complusion but its important to not ignore because you might get better if it does turn out you have the mental illness/neurological problems when you get the correct treatment thats why I did go forward with seeking an assessment for autism because there was too many similarities for me to ignore and I know it's not uncommon for those with OCD to have multiple other mental illnesses which could make treating OCD easier if you know theres other factors involved
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Sounds like you have mental health obsessions! Internet research, taking quizzes, studying diagnosis and symptom lists, checking yourself for symptoms, etc are all compulsions (ie part of OCD, NOT another diagnosis.) get the ocd in check (through proper treatment with your ocd specialist) and you’ll likely notice that you aren’t as suspicious of having a coexisting disorder.
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I have depression aswell so it's easy for me to find similarities between other mental illnesses but you're right I just need to get the OCD in check
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- 24w
Other than the supposed OCD, I also feel like I may have BPD, which wouldn’t be all that surprising considering the people that conceived me are undoubtedly OCD and BPD asf but I feel problematic to self diagnose. The symptoms are eerily relatable and on Reddit I’ve seen people with diagnosed BPD talking about a “favorite person” that they obsess over and rely on for their “happiness”. Perhaps that’s why when I gain overly obsessive and attached crushes on guys it’s legit ALL I can think about 24/7. Not just the positive dreamy stuff, but also the scary negative stuff that I start making outlandish conclusions about them. Is that a thing for people with BPD, where they dread that their favorite person will give them a reason to no longer be their favorite person? Other than that, my mood and state of mind is terribly unregulated. It’s like my emotions cloud any logic and reasoning (which I guess can also be the OCD) that only increases my anxiety and depression and rumination. Caffeine obviously makes it worse but before I get anxious asf I feel excited and happy. Not to mention my impulsivity. I make a lot of self destructive choices and always find myself regretting them, but I still keep making them. When I eat I have to have something terribly unhealthy, and then I start binge eating. I also have a spending problem but that was last year so I’ve kind of moved away from that. I also feel DEEPLY insecure and always do my best to escape and avoid reality for my own sanity. And when I make plans with my friends I always feel anxious that it won’t go as planned. There’s also something I noticed when I get in a depressive mood, I start fantasizing about how everyone around me would react to my death. Not because I want to see them in pain but i like to think about how they’d feel or won’t feel about my passing. There’s probably a lot more to me that screams BPD, but at the same time there’s a chance that maybe I’m reaching.
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Hey, so I've never actually been diagnosed with OCD. I did a little bit of research, I always thought OCD was organizing things. But I'm not normal, I have this thing where I feel something isn't right. I obsess over it or if I brush my hand over something correctly then it's fixed. Or I have to do this thing on stairs, I'll walk up a few or down them because something isn't right. I read this thing on memories. I know something happened, but then I doubt myself to the point I don't know if it happened. And I think too logically in relationships. I'll put statistics on things and if they might not work out I distance myself, there's other odd things I do. My family always told me I was fine but then said things like I was messed up, and said to just ignore what I felt. Like I was making it up. I don't know what to do, I don't have a doctor currently, I was never diognosed. Is there a way to be sure I have it? Or a way to stop everything? I just want to stop everything, please and thank you. Sorry for the long post. If anyone can help, I would be so thankful.
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Hey, so idk if I have ocd, I would like to think I’m a very self aware person but I don’t wanna self diagnose at all, lmk what you guys think. So pretty much my whole life since I was young I remember having irrational fears im sure it was all trauma induced but when I was a kid I thought my father was poisoning me until I asked him, he started crying and was so shocked that I could ever even think that, my parents broke up when I was legit fresh out the womb, mom worked two jobs and disciplined me, dad let me do whatever on the weekends and got me snacks so I was obsessed with him so obsessed that it was mandatory for me to kiss his picture 20x everyday before school. Growing up I always felt followed by cameras or like someone out there was recording me waiting for me to do something embarrassing to expose me in front of the whole world and my life was over 🤣🤣 I thought my abusive ex bf was stalking me through my I phone camera after we broke up and it would truly stress me out, it made me believe that it was the reason he never reached out again bc I probably looked ugly in the camera he was stalking me through. If I fall out with a friend Ill over analyze everything to see if I did anything wrong and god forbid while I’m self reflecting I realize I did something wrong I feel like an evil person, verbatim the people I fall out with is bc they’ve done me wrong in some way and it has to b something hurtful or repeated mistakes for me to really stay away for good, so I’ll beat myself up for making mistakes with another person who’s made the same amount of mistakes if not more and in most cases I always fall short, and this when I question if it’s ocd or I’m just to self aware and see the ugly in me bc I’m not perfect and it’s just makes me feel so unsettled but again that’s a normal feeling and the next step is to forgive yourself and do better moving forward, not obsess over it like your trying to convince yourself you’re a good person. I’m also hot tempered and will say hurtful things when I’m mad I’m definitely a crash out in the way, you push my bottoms way too many times and I will shred you, and I’ll say things ik will hurt you and that’s just so low, then the anger goes away and I have to face the guilt, which makes my “ocd” 100x worse, it almost feels like I have to do everything right to not trigger it yet again I don’t have the self control to do it all right, I actually have a lot bpd tendencies again not diagnosing but I’m just trying to understand my brain. I worry about dying, getting a terminal illness. uti turning into kidney infection then into cancer kind of thing, knowing that life in general can b tragic is so scary to me, like what will be my story? What will be my life experience?. I believe that people see right through me and discuss it amongst each other, I always tell myself I am not that important but I can’t seem to shake it off sometimes. When I would break up with my ex I would have pre written paragraphs ready to b send if he ever decided to reach back and I would do this to make sure I didn’t forget a single thought, that every point i felt I need to prove was there, and that bothers me bc do I want win an argument or fix the issue. All of these feelings make me feel so pathetic and embarrassed people move on with their lives and I’m still stuck on something that happened 3 yrs ago. Then I’ll get manic get a tattoo, change my hair, go out clubbing do what I can to b the sexy young girl that I am and it helps in the moment but it worsens my mental after the euphoria is gone. I’m currently staying home, not going out, have only 1 friend so I feel like ocd progressively got worse now, I don’t remember it getting this bad in a while. lmk what you guys think don’t judge or think I’m embarrassing I’m actually so cool and if have to convince you I’m cool I will LMFAOO no but fr help
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