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- zoed
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Thank you all! I felt so low and worthless like I really want to ruminate and live like that. Anxiety is my best friend and i cannot believe i can live without it. I wonder many times how other people can live in peace without caring about intrusive thoughts.
Yea it’s quite a mystery, how they are not bothered by their thoughts💭 Sometimes I like to think, that we just care a little bit more, and that is not only a negative thing<3 Are you currently getting therapist sessions?
I totally relate to your post bc I feel exactly the same way honestly I don't know I assume we'd feel better if we accepted our thoughts. That's the big difference between us and people considered as "normal".
from another perspective I thought this way but then found the obsession to heal myself. found that vitamin d deficiency is very common..I had it and caused severe ruminating thoughts. then I had low magnesium and that caused mood swings and anxiety
If you seek and get the right help, it will definitely not be with you forever! I had a small amount of ocd therapy a couple of years ago, which helped me a lot. I wasn’t as scared of the thoughts afterwards, cause I knew how to handle them. Now it’s coming back a little bit, and I am gonna go to therapy during the summer again. Honestly the best thing, you can do for yourself! We didn’t choose to have ocd<3 One thing my therapist told me, that I think is good to remember is, that the intrusive thoughts are not a symbol of your values - quite the contrary! They are a symbol of the things, you don’t want to think and feel. Idk that helps me a lot to think about:)
I started some weeks ago but did not find it really helpful. I think we have to do personal work jn order to see some changes. I gave birth recently and staying at home with the baby, not going out so often, makes me even more anxious and worried. My hormones are crazy now and my body changed in a way so my old clothes won't fit right now. It's like I have one hundred issues running inside me and cannot find peace and a way out. Do you also think vitamins deficiency can make ocd worse?
It’s definitely all personal work! The therapist cannot heal you, but they can help you with working on yourself. What helps me, is that my therapist have had ocd, and is now “over it”. It feels so much more helpful, when the person you speak with, has experienced the same, and knows exactly what you are talking about and what helps. I don’t know about the vitamins and ocd, but I think that vitamins are a good thing in general. I would speak to my therapist about it, if I were you!<3
1000% yes have your doctor check iron panel with ferritin, vitamin d, thyroid tpo and tgab antibodies (if those are positive cutting out dairy and gluten will fix the issue) , then have b6, b9, and b12 checked. those are all the nutrients I was low in right after having a baby.
I struggle with suicidal and harm ocd, which have been unbearable and came back into my life. The whole month of July has been living in a nightmare, I'm starting to feel very discouraged I started erp but I feel like I'm getting worse. These intrusive thoughts are very scary and the urges feel even worse. I can't stop ruminating at all that's my only compulsion, and I'm worried of losing control and going crazy as well. I want to be happy but I'm focusing on these thoughts 24/7 because of how real they feel. 🥺
It hurts so bad and is so discouraging every time I have a good day and then OCD hits me like a wave of bricks because it doesn’t want me to be happy. Being happy and feeling relief the little I do is so magical and I ask myself could I really have this life? And then my OCD takes over and ruins it all for me. I am sitting here in massive anxiety being terrified of thoughts. How can a thought scare you so bad? Why does it have to take over my life. I am terrified I will act on these thoughts and that I want to do them. I also am struggling so bad with false memory OCD. Can’t figure out if I did something bad. I feel like I need to know and that I need to turn myself in for something I don’t even know if I even did. Does anybody else struggle with this? I am having a really hard time right now. 😔
Ive gotten over some bad ocd episodes that have lasted months and months and i was so so happy when i realized it was achievable to overcome such an illness,but this time around it feels different i thought i had gone through everything but no theres always more,theres always the next intrusive thought,my intrusive thought this time that got me back in the dark ocd hole was,”what if i just stopped thinking”,it sounds so stupid and i didnt pay it much mind at first but then it popped back into my head and it told me “but what if everytime im about to think about something,i realize it and stop thinking about what i was thinking about.”this has made me feel so alienated in life,life feels grey and dull ive never had a thought stick around for so long its been 3 months and i havent heard anyone have anything similar too this i wake up every day scared of whag else my mind can bring to me to torment me and its so depressing in here.i cry a lot now thinking about the old me i used to be when i was happy and ocd free but I genuinely dont think i can live like this for long.Sorry for writing a whole essay but its the only way i could express what im feeling right now plz say something below.
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