Yesterday was another ocd day. Even if I try hard these thoughts come again and again. I am afraid all the time that ocd will never leave me. I feel angry all the time as I feel like I am stupid and i cannot control these thoughts. Why is it so hard to get over these thoughts? Even when I don't have intrusive thoughts I feel numb and scared. It's like I live in a constant darkness and can't see the light anymore. I feel like I am the worst and most stupid person alive because i allow these thoughts to come in and destroy me. Is it gonna be like that forever????

Thank you all! I felt so low and worthless like I really want to ruminate and live like that. Anxiety is my best friend and i cannot believe i can live without it. I wonder many times how other people can live in peace without caring about intrusive thoughts.

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I totally relate to your post bc I feel exactly the same way honestly I don't know I assume we'd feel better if we accepted our thoughts. That's the big difference between us and people considered as "normal".

from another perspective I thought this way but then found the obsession to heal myself. found that vitamin d deficiency is very common..I had it and caused severe ruminating thoughts. then I had low magnesium and that caused mood swings and anxiety

If you seek and get the right help, it will definitely not be with you forever! I had a small amount of ocd therapy a couple of years ago, which helped me a lot. I wasn’t as scared of the thoughts afterwards, cause I knew how to handle them. Now it’s coming back a little bit, and I am gonna go to therapy during the summer again. Honestly the best thing, you can do for yourself! We didn’t choose to have ocd<3 One thing my therapist told me, that I think is good to remember is, that the intrusive thoughts are not a symbol of your values - quite the contrary! They are a symbol of the things, you don’t want to think and feel. Idk that helps me a lot to think about:)

I started some weeks ago but did not find it really helpful. I think we have to do personal work jn order to see some changes. I gave birth recently and staying at home with the baby, not going out so often, makes me even more anxious and worried. My hormones are crazy now and my body changed in a way so my old clothes won't fit right now. It's like I have one hundred issues running inside me and cannot find peace and a way out. Do you also think vitamins deficiency can make ocd worse?