When I try to ignore my intrusive thoughts, later on I tend to get false memory about what happened. Like today a kid needed to pass by my seat to enter the row and our knees bumped. After I kept thinking “Did I do that on purpose?” An intrusive thought came up as she was scooting by me but I just ignored it and tried to avert my gaze but I’m not sure what to think. Any tips?

Alas I cannot😟

@mentalhealthandselfcare agreeing with the thoughts in a sarcastic voice is great ERP!!! it’s hard at first but things get better i promise! that’s the only true way to find relief because you start to realize how silly the thoughts are once you’re agreeing with them outloud

@pai 😽 I woll try that. The past couple days i didnt do any compulsions so my OCD was a lot better but then i started to ruminate again

@mentalhealthandselfcare Ik for sure my intentions weren’t bad at all but I jus keep thinking about it

That’s wut i did i kinda was jus like 😑 ok buh then the thought of what if i did it on purpose came up😑

@mentalhealthandselfcare well that’s how ocd works 💔 the thoughts will still be there. they won’t just disappear instantly cuz you disregard them once. also i saw you post about it maybe five times so you’re not truly disregarding and you are actively thinking about it :/

@pai 😽 IM SORRY MAAM😩🤚🏽 I jus cant stop ruminating on my intentions💀

@pai 😽 I didn’t know I was that obvious lmaooo😭

@mentalhealthandselfcare well if u don’t stop it won’t get better 😭 remember, ruminating does NOT make you more sure of the situation infact it makes you LESS sure !!!

@mentalhealthandselfcare do u use tiktok lol

@pai 😽 No but I used to. I deleted it a while ago tho cus my counselor n friends said i should lmao🤣

@pai 😽 Yea buh wut if i did sum wrong shouldnt i ruminate on it😭

@mentalhealthandselfcare oh why did your counseller and friends tell u to delete it

@mentalhealthandselfcare wdym?

@mentalhealthandselfcare even if you did something wrong...what is ruminating on it gonna fix?

@pai 😽 Cus i was goin down too many rabbit trails😭🤚🏽

@mentalhealthandselfcare and i don’t mean that hardly

@pai 😽 I mean it wouldn’t. Idk from wut i said do u think i did sum wrong?

@mentalhealthandselfcare so if it wouldn’t fix anything...and it only makes things worse and make you more unsure...then is it really a good option to choose?

@pai 😽 Idk cant u jus tell me if i was wrong or not😭

@mentalhealthandselfcare that’s reassurance. reassurance doesn’t satisfy ocd. in fact that is what fuels the ocd to become stronger because you’re fixating on the thought and getting others to fixate on it too. if you get reassurance about this, you’re gonna feel good for a minute and then a minute later the thought will alter or a new thought will come and you’ll have two times the anxiety you had before. you already know this you have been through this cycle before this is not the first time. i’m not going to help you do a complusion 😭

@pai 😽 JSKSKSK okk😭

@pai 😽 At first i didnt care about it cus i ignored the thought buh then the what if started happening and i tried to remember my intentions buh i cant tell it changes as my mood changes

@mentalhealthandselfcare i’m all for helping you and helping anyone on here but you have to help yourself too 🤍 this app is not supposed to be a place to perform compulsions. it’s supposed to be a community 🖤 if you’re not helping yourself and you’re asking people to perform complusions for you how do you expect to recover?

@mentalhealthandselfcare yes that happens to me too you’re not alone don’t worry.

@pai 😽 Ik im sorry :( I hope u dont think badly of me :(

@pai 😽 Now i feel bad for confessing :(

@mentalhealthandselfcare there’s nothing wrong with confessing! it’s asking for reassurance that’s bad but i understand i do it too