This isn’t about OCD. But it’s triggering. I am thinking about leaving my boyfriend since we’ve been really fighting a lot but he wants me to stay because he feels he can change and be the best he can be. I had a dream about leaving him for a friend of mine in the past but I know that friend isn’t good for me. My female friends say so and that he’s up to no good and that I should work things out with my man but he’s just not changing no matter what he says. He begs and says he wants to talk to me one last time and start to prove himself to me and to give him one more chance. Should I do it?

YUP 100%

I mean my boyfriend and I have always been close physically just not mentally recently. Maybe that’s what you’re saying and if that’s what you’re saying that makes a shit ton of sense

Also it’s the curiosity that’s eating me up. Like “what if I went out with this guy and dumped my boyfriend would it be better or worse?” And it’s like I’m so curious and that I wanna try it just to see how it would go but at the same time I think my boyfriend could change and who knows, that guy I’m curious about could really be a loser like my friends claim he is.

@bleh:| It’s been over a week I’ve been thinking about this idiot all because he tried to like and comment on my photos and ever since then he’s been on my mind and I kept feeling bad that I friendzoned him yet I know he’s not a fit match for me yet he won’t leave my mind so I can fix what’s wrong with me and my boyfriend

@bleh:| Yeah I want the temptations to stop. I won’t go on social media anymore unless it’s to post me and my boyfriend so no one will ask to hang out with me. I don’t like these thoughts and I don’t know why I’m thinking of that guy. I know it’s because of what’s going on but the temptation sucks

@bleh:| Wait do you think my boyfriends wrong for me or that wierd friend I used to have?

@bleh:| Yup. I think he is yet he won’t escape my mind and I want him gone. I know I love my boyfriend and I can’t love two people

@bleh:| It’s just so messed up that I’m so curious and wanting to know what it would be like to be with him instead. It’s so messed up and I barely know the kid more than his brothers death and stuff. Like I barely knew the kid outside of school. All this is making me so curious and it’s awful

@bleh:| Like I legit friendzoned him for years and all of a sudden I’m curious about him yet I knew I was never into him to begin with. All because he liked a photo on my social media I started to think about him. Isn’t that insane?

@bleh:| Also my boyfriend after we fought he told me “listen I wanna take you on a trip this September I’m buying us tickets and you don’t have to pay me back if we break up” because I told him “I’m in the midst of not being able to trust you and fully love you the way you’ve been treating me I feel we shouldn’t go cause what if we break up. I’m still mad at you” and he was like “you don’t have to pay me back. If I have to go without you I’ll go without you But lemme buy me your ticket.” Idk what to say or think

@bleh:| I’m thinking “wait does he really want this to work?” Or “does he just wanna go so badly he doesn’t care and is willing to splurge a ticket on me and if I don’t go he’ll just give it to one of his friends if we dump eachother.” Like my brain doesn’t wanna accept that he’s probably being genuinely nice with me

@bleh:| I remember three years ago I left an ex of mine after he left me twice and I was labeled a cheater and a asshole yet I was pushed by my anxiety and friends to do it. I fell for a guy I barely knew but we were just friends, he ended up dying of an OD and I ended up back with my ex who cheated the whole time and dumped me again. I don’t wanna end up in that situation again. I know my current boyfriend isn’t like my ex but I’m scared I’m gonna end up falling for someone else to “escape” and be labeled a cheater or asshole when I’m not. I’m just stressed.

@bleh:| OCD makes everything hard to choose it’s as if I don’t have choices

@bleh:| Cause I feel wrong no matter what

Actually my boyfriend suggested this a while ago to save us and my friends too

So I thank you for that advice

Will you guys get back together?

Also what if the therapy doesn’t work? I wanna do this but not spend crazy amounts of money just in case it doesn’t work

I personally believe my boyfriend has more pros than cons since I wrote everything I liked and everything that bothered me down. I came up with 8 cons and 12 pros so far. Hopefully I can outweight the 8 cons and come up with way more than 12 pros.