Mateo
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alexisrae1999alexisrae1999
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Erp is supposed to induce anxiety in ya, if it doesn't you're doing it wrong so congratulations!:š„³ you're exposing yourself gradually to your fears (fear ladder) so you're definitely going to feel fear, arousal, groinals, etc (what you normally feel), because your ocd is recognizing that you're trying to defeat it. So because of this, its going to lash on with everything its got in attempt to get ya to do just one more compulsion. Stay strong!
MateoMateo
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- 4y
Then Iām doing it wrong. Even though I expose myself to the detail
alexisrae1999alexisrae1999
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If you're saying it feels real, then you're probably feeling some type of anxiety, right? I'd say that if you are actively feeling triggered, and just letting yourself sit in the thoughts and not react (while feeling all the sensations) youre doing it right:)
alexisrae1999alexisrae1999
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@alexisrae1999 The key is to do the erp with like...passive intentions. You're going into it and you're supposed to try not to expect anything or care about how you're going to end up feeling during treatment
MateoMateo
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Ok cool but I donāt have those moments where I have triggers or intrusive thoughts. I tried exposing myself to something and I felt uncertainty and I sat with it. But also I didnāt care about anything else. And I donāt know if Iām supposed to keep going towards that
alexisrae1999alexisrae1999
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Which ocd subtype do you have if you don't mind me asking? Yes, definitely feel the uncertainty and sit with it. The goal is to be okay with feeling uncertainty and not to continue to look for certainty
alexisrae1999alexisrae1999
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@alexisrae1999 If you didn't care about anything else that's also a good thing because you're not searching for answers :)
MateoMateo
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But I am. It was during that moment where I was like I donāt care anymore
MateoMateo
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- 4y
And I didnāt do compulsions I just sat with it. Felt like my brain shifted or something. I cared less what others were thinking of me. I was just focused on what I went through with an uncertainty feeling I had two days ago I try to expose myself to. At that I thought why not just go over all my fears. I donāt get intrusive thoughts anymore. And itās like I keep focusing on all of this.
alexisrae1999alexisrae1999
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That sounds like progress to me! š as long as you weren't reassuring yourself. Also make sure you're not doing erp as a compulsion, because I've done that before, definitely backfired for me haha
MateoMateo
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- 4y
Could you elaborate erp as a compulsion? Because I feel like I need to do it so I can experience that fear and uncertainty so then I could practice response preventions my mind shifted I feel like when I experienced uncertainty two days ago. I donāt get unwanted intrusive thoughts that caused triggers before where I needed to do compulsions. I feel like obsessing.
alexisrae1999alexisrae1999
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Yeah! So I would do erp whenever I was triggered to try to calm myself down and realize what I was panicking about wasn't that scary. But then I just kept doing it for longer than I shouldve, kinda compulsively because I liked that calm feeling
MateoMateo
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- 4y
Please let me know
MateoMateo
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- 4y
You were using erp to calm you down?
alexisrae1999alexisrae1999
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- 4y
Well I was doing erp because its good to do it when you're triggered, but I went into it obviously to desensitize myself to my trigger, but mainly because I wanted to feel calm and that was where I went wrong
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